I can be awkward,
shy, introverted,
nervous, and my voice is weird
but my smile is beautiful.

I can be obnoxious,
dramatic, crazy,
needy, confusing,
but aren't my jokes amusing?

Truth is, I'm a hot mess everyday.
I smoke like a chimney
and drink away my kidneys
poor pretty girl with a ugly bladder,

If you don't fall for me,
I hope you at least fall in love with my laughter.

A blue liquid began to spill
at the moment I began to feel--------- LESS
....the puddle grew into a large mess
people began to crowd around
weak, I fell to the ground.
A lady asked, " Darling, what happened to you?"
He broke my heart,
and I was depressed already
so now I bleed BLUE.

He asked me.....

*How could I be so cold?
I cried a snowflake,
while starring into his soul.

my lovers left me
down and out
gave me something
to think about.
Like......
how it's not them,
but could it be me?
commitment is dangerous
and relationships are scary!

I'm sorry if my love was not enough
Life was about time,
I was always in a rush.

So much to do,
so much to see,
I guess I forgot you needed me.

Now I lay in the ground alone,
covered with dirt and anxiety.
Hoping you knew I loved you entirely.

I've wasted so much time,
living life, walking blind.

I've wasted too many years,
dehydrated from so many lost tears.

Exposing myself to different harm,
I've been foolish since I was born.

But now the change is taking place,
and no matter what I must finish the race.

In the midst
of giving every man
a piece of me,
I lost the peace in me.

In the moment
of finding myself
I became helpless,
I needed help.

Thinking a man
could help me become a woman,
I lost my dignity,
blind to who I should really be loving.