lu: Poems

them.

lu Jan 2018

them.

I DO NOT WANT TO SCARE YOU AWAY
BECAUSE MY DEMONS ARE OUT
AND THEY WANT TO PLAY
OF COURSE I’LL JUST SMILE
I’LL TRY TO IGNORE IT FOR AS LONG AS I CAN
ONLY FOR A WHILE
I DO NOT WANT TO TELL YOU
WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY HEAD.
I WILL SIT HERE AND CRY,
ONLY UNTIL MY EYES ARE DRY.
FOR NOW I’LL LAY IN THE DARK,
HERE IN THIS LONELY BED.
IN AN HOUR OR SO,
IT WILL BE OKAY AGAIN.
THEY WILL EVENTUALLY HAVE TO GO.
RIGHT?

#sad #depression #demons

the one i can't have

lu Nov 2017

the one i can't have

i love a boy who smiles so bright
it ignites a fire in my heart.
i love a boy who hugs
like it’s going to save his life.
i love a boy who has a voice
that sounds like an angel from heaven.
i love a boy who is passionate
about everything he does.
i love boy whom i have
only met once, but i will never forget.
i love a boy who
brings me to tears.
i love a boy
whom is loved by many others.
i love a boy who
is living his dream, while he is mine.
i love a boy who does not
remember my face, but his is always on my mind.
i love a boy who doesn’t love me.

he's always on my mind,
but he doesn't even know my name.

#sad #love #heartbreak #heartbroken

things change

lu Jan 2018

things change

YOU TOUCHED MY HEART,
BUT YOU LOVED HERS.
NOW TELL ME HOW IS THAT FAIR?
YOU TOLD ME WE WERE IN LOVE
BUT WAS LOVE EVEN THERE?
I WAITED FOR YOU FOR SO LONG
NOW I SEE THE TRUTH.
I WISH I DIDNT WASTE MY
TIME HERE WITH YOU.
I GUESS I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
WHEN YOU TOLD ME WE WERE THROUGH
BUT WHEN YOUR LIPS
TOUCHED MINE,
I FELT LIKE I WAS
FLYING. AND FOR ONCE
I DIDNT HAVE THE
WANT OF DYING.
YOU WERE MY ONE AND ONLY
SAVIOR,
BUT IT’S FUNNY HOW QUICKLY
THINGS CHANGE.
INSTEAD OF BEING THE
ONE WHO MAKES MY HEART BEAT,
YOU WERE THE ONE THAT MADE IT
WANT TO
STOP.

#love #heartbreak #sad #depressed #break #up

thinking.

lu Jan 2018

thinking.

i’m scared.
i am scared to fall,
or to do anything at all.
we don’t know each other much,
but i do hope we’ll stay in touch.
somehow you already make me feel safe.
is that okay?
i don’t want to scare you away.
in fact, i want to know you,
do you want to know me too?
do you want to know all my goals?
or if i prefer hot or cold?
i have many opinions, agree or disagree?
i plan to get close, don't you see?
i want us to talk on facetime calls
and be able to talk to you when i'm feeling small.
if you don't want this, that's quite okay.
i'm glad to have known you, even if only for a day.

#thinking #cute

today.

lu Jan 2018

today.

today i am overcome with stress,
between doing homework and deciding how to dress.
my hands are shaking,
my brain is aching.
i just want to talk to you,
that's all i want to do.
we didn't talk a lot today,
but that's completely okay.
i know you don't always have time,
but i don't see that as a crime.
maybe later i'll give you a call,
if you don't mind, i don't either, not at all.

i don't want to spam your texts so maybe you'll see this.

#distance #cute #romance

unloved

lu Jan 2018

unloved

I AM SICK OF
WAITING FOR SOMEONE
TO LOVE ME
LIKE I WANT TO BE
LOVED.
MY HEART IS ACHING
FOR SOMEONE TO FILL THIS
E M P T I N E S S
I NOW POSSESS
BECAUSE I LOVED SOMEONE
WHO DIDN'T LOVE ME
BACK.

#sad #heartbreak #sadness #breakup

with us.

lu Mar 2018

with us.

fall in love with me.
settle down with me.
explore with me.
love with me.
cry with me.
hurt with me.
grieve with me.
heal with me.
be with me.
hold me.
kiss me.
discover me.
sing with me.
read with me.
learn me.
understand me.
accept me.

and if you do, i will

fall in love with you.
settle down with you.
explore with you.
love with you.
cry with you.
hurt with you.
grieve with you.
heal with you.
be with you.
hold you.
kiss you.
discover you.
sing with you.
read with you.
learn you.
understand you.
accept you.

and we can fall in love with us.

#love #hopeless #hopelessromantic #falling #happy #heart #cute

words

lu Jan 2018

words

I FELL IN LOVE
WITH SOMEONE
TODAY.
I HAVE NEVER MET
THEM NOR TALKED TO THEM
BUT MY HEART
IS CAPTIVATED BY
THE WAY HE WRITES.
I DON’T KNOW ANYTHING
ABOUT HIM.
IS HE IN A RELATIONSHIP?
IS HE EVEN INTO GIRLS?
WHAT IS HIS FAVORITE COLOR,
AND DOES HE PREFER COFFEE OR TEA?
I KNOW HE WILL READ THIS.
HE READS ALL OF MY WORK.
I KNOW HE WILL LOOK OVER THIS
AND NOT REALIZE I AM WRITING
ABOUT HIM.
BUT IF YOU HAPPEN TO
REALIZE THIS IS FOR
YOU,
PLEASE DON’T BE SCARED
TO LET ME KNOW.
I WILL NEVER HAVE THE GUTS TO SAY
HELLO.

#love #hopeless #hopelessromatic #sad

words.

lu Nov 2018

words.

i've fallen in love with someone
through their words before.
it did not work out
for us.

lately i've fallen in love
with another person's words,
but his words are about someone else.

he doesn't even know me,
he doesn't read my words.

i wonder if i was to send a simple,
"hey",
if things could work for us.

he lives in the same state as me.

#crush #love #sad

would you?

lu Nov 2018

would you?

and if i was to pour my heart out to you,
would you pick me too?

or would you go back to her,
like you have over and over?

why can't he just choose me?

#sad #hurt #love #depression #sadness

you, him & i

lu Apr 2018

you, him & i

he sang me to sleep each and every night,
he keeps me smiling, warm and bright.
but somehow i feel my mind falling apart,
and why is it you that still owns my heart?
why is it you that takes up my mind?
leave please, would you be so kind?
i’m trying to move on from you,
but thinking of you is all i do.
i love him,
i loved you.
i loved me,
i lost you.
i loved him,
i found me.
you forgot me,
i miss you.

#broken #breakup #selflove #discovery #relationships #complicated #sad

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