"mylife" poems
iTs Difficult To Live Mylife,
The Struggle.
The Problems iHave And Keep Creating.
Not Knowing Who iAm
Being A Drug Addict Who Cant Seem To Stop There Bad Habit.
They Say iTs Easy You Just Want To Want iT.
Not iF You Fallen So Low, left All Alone.
iM Deep iN This **** Deserve To Be 6ft Down To Rest.
iTs The Best.
For Everyone.
iM Doing Nothing But Disappointing The Ones Taking There Time Trying To Support Me.
Wasting There Encouragement Not Knowing iWont Last Long Before iUse And Fall Back in
The Same Cycle All ******* Over Again :/
iTs Very Sad, To Continue This.
Been To Many Places Yet Nothing Changes,
iM Tired And Overwhelmed .
Why Am iUsing Now?
iFeel Lonely.
This Drug Fills Everything Up inside Of Me.
This is The Reason Why iWent Back To iT.
Before iT Was Cause iLoved The Effects And Kept Trying To Get High Asf Like My 1st Hit,
Then Lead To Me Going At iT Cause
My Body Felt Like iT Couldnt Function Off iT
Which Made Me An Addict .
Loving And wanting To Always Have iT.
Before iT Was Great,
Nobody Knew.
Then they Found Out The Truth.
Ever Since Then Ive Been Living Daily On Lies Having To Hide iT, Denying im On iT When Clearly iTs Obvious.
Chemicals Messing With My Mood ,
My Mind Now Plays Tricks On Me. Dont Know When itl Be Over Cause iDont think il
Want To ever Be Sober.
Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 2:54 PM UTC
*Today, I went to see my old friend.
Someone who has been by my side sense the beginning.
He has walked with me through the trials in mylife.
He has taught me how to dance on the edge of a knife.
Though, he does not speak -
I still listen.
He does not move.
I still march.
He has no arms.
I still let him in.
His embrace-
is the gift of grace.
He does not have treasures-
that you and I could measure.
He gives you the pleasure of an adventure.
Its hard to believe that its been so long,
But time has made us only strong.
Thank you for showing me how to be free.
Thank you for introducing me to the trees.
For its always been a journey to have a Road for a friend.*
Nov 10, 2016
Nov 10, 2016 at 5:29 PM UTC
Why is it every time you live somewhere it feels like your not wanted. Even with your parents or parent you feel like your not wanted. Even if you try your best to make everyone happy and accept you still dont feel wanted. I guess when you let go of people that do hurt you you feel even lonlier because u dont have them hurting alot.Its like an empty space in your life which i guess would be good because its not any pain but your so use to it it feels like your missing a big piece in your life.Because your so use to taking the blame and dealing with the hurt. You want it back so you dont feel lonly but you dont want it back because it is nice not having everything be blamed on you even if you didnt do it. Guess what i really am missing is church god in mylife and feeling is love and appearence in mylife. Knowing that he is with me each and every step of the way. Knowing and feeling the love and appearence of him. I need christian friends people that can show me a good path and how to be in control of mylife. To show me how to guide my siblings the way my mom wants to guide them. Show my siblings that i can be obediant with them and my parents. Not to yell or stomp my feet when i get mad or fusterasted. Not to get annoyed when my littles sibs say something over and over to acknowledge them calmly and not yell. To be able to give them adivce and love them when they want to be loved. I want that for them because I never had it so I am going to try and be calm with them and be nicer to them. I want them to be able to be close to them and love them unconditionally. Even when they tell my parents about every little thing i have to deal with it and know they are doing because they care. I didnt know how much caring would be so hard to except even when it doesnt annoy you. I know deep down in my heart i love it and i am smiling trying to hide it because i love it . Even if it is something that i love i still like it in the end. But it still ***** that its gone. end the end i know its because they love me. They wouldnt of taken me in if they didnt.
Feb 19, 2011
Feb 19, 2011 at 11:04 AM UTC
while(you == readingThisPoem)
{
String title = "++E++";
if( you.dontLike(title) )
{
printf("I don't care!");
}
if( I_Die == true )
{
if( PeopleRememberMe == true )
{
myLife = "Complete";
}
else
{
myLife = "Incomplete";
}
}
switch( myLife )
{
case "Complete":
printf("I'll rest in peace!");
break;
case "Incomplete":
printf("I'll come back to fulfil my dream!");
break;
default:
printf("My thoughts are not so simple as they seem!");
}
}
Oct 17, 2010
Oct 17, 2010 at 2:52 AM UTC
Come, O come!
Come and see how I cry
Forever without tears,
And the years wane and wax,
With me waiting for you;
Come and see this soul
That has yet to learn to laugh,
And how life wears
On a heart wandering meaningless in
Time;
Without your sound and soul;
I am the heart that beats loud,
Waking up Bodari among the dead,
Waving for the ghost of Romeo;
I am the blood that runs fast,
Leaving the familiar and the known,
Believing in the uncertain to come as
Reality:
I hope to see soon
The Light to myLife,
The tender tears to my thirsty eyes.
-by
Hakim H. Kassim.
(c . Fall, 1988)
Sep 16, 2016
Sep 16, 2016 at 6:27 PM UTC
How did I get so lucky in love?
Never in my life have I been this happy,
Never in my life have I felt this loved,
Never in my life have I been this satisfied,
Never in my life have I enjoyed being with somebody,
Never in my life have I loved anybody the way that I love her,
Never in my life have I been so blessed,
She is my world and the BEST GIRLFRIEND EVER!
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 2:00 AM UTC
I'm not just happy to be with you. I am thankful because you came into mylife. It changed a bit, but that change was for the better. I love being with you all the time. You never fail to make me smile my love. I want the future with you. It is so uncertain, but I like the plans we've made. I wanna make it happen. I wanna be with you through thick and thin. I'll be your biggest fan and your number 1 supporter.
I love you and thankyou leo.
Sep 27, 2015
Sep 27, 2015 at 8:34 AM UTC
I thought love is just for stupid people who are weak and can get easily attached to someone.
I never really believed in it.
It was just a four-letter word that exist in our dictionaries.
I never really thought that one day, the meaning of love for me will change.
Now I believe that love can either be a blessing or a curse.
In mylife, it's more of a curse.
Apr 12, 2015
Apr 12, 2015 at 9:36 AM UTC
#myskin
#brown
#myblood
#red
#mylife
#twittered
#hashtagged
#andreduced
Jul 8, 2016
Jul 8, 2016 at 2:12 AM UTC
All this is is another line,
All I have is another fine.
I don’t want this, not anymore,
My mind is tired my body sore.
all alone in bed I'll lay.
So I don’t want my fate today,
It has dealt me a bad hand,
It has screamed to me I cant.
I can't exist and I won't live here,
I will need pills, **** and beer.
I will have the need to this sedation,
for I am gods worthless creation.
May 2, 2018
May 2, 2018 at 1:59 PM UTC
Everything i have i give,
nothing left with me that've not given,
i am lost in the search of you.
Satto-voce i whispered your name.
From deep within your thought travails,
should there be need for sacrifice,
here my life is, take it.
I will sacrifice,i will give it all.
For In you i've known the pleasure of living,
if it is care,i care than i love mylife.
Everything of me is yours,
come, take me,do with me as you please.
Love is blind,they say,
but in loving you am not only blind,
i am deaf,blind,senseless and defenceless.
For the things i've known am ignorant of,
what else can i give?
What else do you need.
If after all this,there still no love,
what hope lie for me?
What pleasure have you in my pain?
For how long shall light and dark gather my days in woe from your love unreturned?
Here is my hand, will you take it?
Or will you leave me and walk away?
As i dance the misery tune of a rejected Love?
Jul 17, 2013
Jul 17, 2013 at 10:30 AM UTC
I just need someone real
real to be here
I know that there's God
but sometimes I just can't
can't keep being strong
I'm broken inside
all the masks are not real
Sometimes
I just want to **** myself
better, fast, easy solution
But there's no easy way to die
Sleeping pill? Maybe..
worth to try..
What happen if I eat 4 pills at once
or 8 pills? will I just die then?
the world just become too horrible
and I can't handle it no more...
People find life so fun
But I only found loneliness
tears, cry at night, and
people keep on leaving
I know the worst meaniest person
but people still adore him/her
While being good, somehow
doesn't give you anything
what if 'faith and hope' is just a cliche
to just make you believe that
there's answer for everything
when there's none
what if religion is just a cliche
to just make you believe that
there's this God who loves you
where actually no one
what if 'pray and wishes' is just a cliche
to just make you believe that
there's miracle in everything
when its actually just a vain
I hope this tears end up soon
im tired being like this
tired with everything
I need changes
I need me
mylife to be whole
Jul 31, 2020
Jul 31, 2020 at 1:16 PM UTC