Why is it every time you live somewhere it feels like your not wanted. Even with your parents or parent you feel like your not wanted. Even if you try your best to make everyone happy and accept you still dont feel wanted. I guess when you let go of people that do hurt you you feel even lonlier because u dont have them hurting alot.Its like an empty space in your life which i guess would be good because its not any pain but your so use to it it feels like your missing a big piece in your life.Because your so use to taking the blame and dealing with the hurt. You want it back so you dont feel lonly but you dont want it back because it is nice not having everything be blamed on you even if you didnt do it. Guess what i really am missing is church god in mylife and feeling is love and appearence in mylife. Knowing that he is with me each and every step of the way. Knowing and feeling the love and appearence of him. I need christian friends people that can show me a good path and how to be in control of mylife. To show me how to guide my siblings the way my mom wants to guide them. Show my siblings that i can be obediant with them and my parents. Not to yell or stomp my feet when i get mad or fusterasted. Not to get annoyed when my littles sibs say something over and over to acknowledge them calmly and not yell. To be able to give them adivce and love them when they want to be loved. I want that for them because I never had it so I am going to try and be calm with them and be nicer to them. I want them to be able to be close to them and love them unconditionally.  Even when they tell my parents about every little thing i have to deal with it and know they are doing because they care. I didnt know how much caring would be so hard to except even when it doesnt annoy you. I know deep down in my heart i love it and i am smiling trying to hide it because i love it . Even if it is something that i love i still like it in the end. But it still ***** that its gone. end the end i know its because they love me. They wouldnt of taken me in if they didnt.

while(you == readingThisPoem)
{
    String title = "++E++";

    if( you.dontLike(title) )
    {
        printf("I don't care!");
    }

    if( I_Die == true )
    {
        if( PeopleRememberMe == true )
        {
            myLife = "Complete";
        }
        else
        {
            myLife = "Incomplete";
        }
    }

    switch( myLife )
    {
        case "Complete":
            printf("I'll rest in peace!");
            break;

        case "Incomplete":
            printf("I'll come back to fulfil my dream!");
            break;

        default:
            printf­("My thoughts are not so simple as they seem!");
    }
}

How did I get so lucky in love?
Never in my life have I been this happy,
Never in my life have I felt this loved,
Never in my life have I been this satisfied,
Never in my life have I enjoyed being with somebody,
Never in my life have I loved anybody the way that I love her,
Never in my life have I been so blessed,
She is my world and the BEST GIRLFRIEND EVER!

I'm not just happy to be with you. I am thankful because you came into mylife. It changed a bit, but that change was for the better. I love being with you all the time. You never fail to make me smile my love. I want the future with you. It is so uncertain, but I like the plans we've made. I wanna make it happen. I wanna be with you through thick and thin. I'll be your biggest fan and your number 1  supporter.

I love you and thankyou leo.

I thought love is just for stupid people who are weak and can get easily attached to someone.
I never really believed in it.
It was just a four-letter word that exist in our dictionaries.
I never really thought that one day, the meaning of love for me will change.
Now I believe that love can either be a blessing or a curse.
In mylife, it's more of a curse.

myskin
#brown
#myblood
#red
#mylife
#twittered
#hashtagged
#andreduced

I just need someone real
real to be here
I know that there's God
but sometimes I just can't
can't keep being strong

I'm broken inside
all the masks are not real
Sometimes
I just want to **** myself
better, fast, easy solution

But there's no easy way to die
Sleeping pill? Maybe..
worth to try..

What happen if I eat 4 pills at once
or 8 pills? will I just die then?
the world just become too horrible
and I can't handle it no more...

People find life so fun
But I only found loneliness
tears, cry at night, and
people keep on leaving

I know the worst meaniest person
but people still adore him/her
While being good, somehow
doesn't give you anything

what if 'faith and hope' is just a cliche
to just make you believe that
there's answer for everything
when there's none

what if religion is just a cliche
to just make you believe that
there's this God who loves you
where actually no one

what if 'pray and wishes' is just a cliche
to just make you believe that
there's miracle in everything
when its actually just a vain

I hope this tears end up soon
im tired being like this
tired with everything
I need changes

I need me
mylife to be whole