Prelude  PART I


"Today when the threat is looming, as close apocalyptic years approach, it will be by cohabiting itself and the ruining valley of debris, which will make this world corrupted the next issue of the numeral scale of the new count, a rising hyperspace , concerning the parts of the kingdom of God ... "

Then on the Lord's day, John saw the glory of the risen Christ, and she understood from the point of view of God, he saw that the fate of the Church and threatened in the first persecutions took the appearance of a dark beginning.
And the time John wrote the Evangelist, including books were Jews called Revelation, that is, "Revelations". With fantastic images of monsters, angels and cataclysms, evidence of the Jewish people are stressed and are invited to await the judgment of God who intervenes from heaven with all his power.  So my beloved world is harsh and does not represent an apocalypse, but it is the true reality is when I will bear its overwhelming slaughter.

" Today when I walked with my winged feet near my friend Victor, I confided down the road crushed by afflictive legs; how difficult the taste of laughter when the decadent surrounds you, the human, the vile, the loose ...
Even though the celestial charisma invoke his memory and help nourish the weakness of Robert in hyperspace, with clean clothes, I can see his beloved mother consumed as automaton can take care of him. She is also her father, because it carries rooted in its members and manners, infinitely sharp look; in their arms they will gather wherever his soul is under his patronage that lives there ..."
I am  who  say that Roberto is a dog, who bears all the faces of dogs humble and serene. Perhaps tired of hearing young people, it is flush adults who do not accept, and who do not share as young faces were watching them, getting them to receive them what they should disclose them.
This is how we are numbed and distraction is fleeting, and he looking aside in his astrayed, he would be saying ...:
"Among the cradle and the grave I have a feeble scaffolding, and then complains, though his other I demolishes; unsconcient defends his executioner ... that the threat of death is its widespread depravity, which dominates it and want to go on like mortifiying.

      I want to talk about life ..., he said in his short years of life, which is more of it; possibly coming to complex, what our Somatic territory responds in normal or involuntarily. Comparative anatomy, and its innermost portion, the link body and mind, as a pure white as Samadhis and nature.
Homeostatic factors regulating our vitality, making its experimental modification, increasing to evolution, or maturation as a criterion of personal psychology go with the passage of time into in the depths of our mind.
Thus in a known threshold of Vedic architecture, its sensitivity is excited by regulating the effectiveness of the response to be made ... and everything related to the world of Ludwig Garroch; brother Robert in his strange Emigrate.
Yesterday when my arms away from hers, my fingers pounding away and recording what the heart more than a song, was a symphony sonata with a single end, long and sustained movement; It was the adage inner melancholy with an eye romanticism, which dominates the
passions of the visible world, which inhabits Antonieta, causing me, unbalanced living.


                                       CHAPTER I


In the beginning years of his childhood, little Ludwig sitting at home, in the gallery. Ask her aunt who was ironing ... Madelain, how I would always be a child of five ...?, And being as such, a privileged to receive toys for many years. Attentive aunt, maybe go to hear with little complacency as his hands only want unroll clothes.
After two years at the age of seven, when her aunt arranging his coat to go to Mass, she teaches a carol that had been taught in childhood. When many wondered whether there is a Santa Claus ...?, And among his friends they looked to unravel the mystery. One year later, when he enjoyed his unicycle, who just dominated him, called him a cousin telling her it was her birthday. He did not hesitate to go to find out what was behind the call, so he found the means by which we celebrate, we live and cooperate towards happiness and delight to have us at each other.
Not long after a friend told him .. "You do not have ten years are too big And Ludwig thought he was well endowed and well stopped, so not your friend was wrong in the above. It is my label and my stance has put the world on me.
Every passing day came the stamp of manly character, a woman or girl who made change her hairstyle, and he did dress more attractive every day.
Later, in his teens, his gaze was well received and their voices radiated security screening. Where He must continue the line of men. Even when I was living as smoothly, looks out strong destination with which calls us to live with skin clean or *****, because it is inside the feeling and the pain does not come out, it is enclosed by the overflowing affection. Here is the portion of good or evil haunting things casual and destroys the healthy, it fertile.

                                        
              ­                           CHAPTER II


Then was a year with a sports compensate pleasant summer sated outdoors, almost fugitive ... will not wonder that life smiled on him serfdom, and very willing opened his prudence.
Every time I decided to go to his favorite places, he went with his burly comrades in the best mood to conquer optimistically. Thus, no wonder he wanted when he was alone and put your reasoning judiciously, because nothing is distant, nothing is impossible.

After unite desires and forces, to clean your bike, piece by piece, in full sun know much security would not allow the mother of vices ruin their fun, that scarce alive to possess the desire to move and go on compliance instinct. Casts on itself, the vigor of the inner, its desolate world full of free enthusiasms who obey no doubt the vital complex activity.
Ludwig and entering the maelstrom of men love hate Godson, you can glimpse the friction with the air, with people ... I wore. That their voices heard their soul contracts, and thus puts light feet towards an acceleration which does not afflict his troubled stomach, nor regret his decision and put fearful, but, bring himself retained encouragement of his mind to remember the maternal cooing, comfort and timely relief to protect forever the suffering, the suffering of torment without end, not he shut the inspiration of the good man that no harm will result, and not for nothing the valence of living and not quarrel prancing. No existing could shed some light on what role, and that little thought is not complicated, and thus shown kneeling and unable to distressing oppressors and agents tangled conduct to chaos, those characters of ambition and discrimination.
Ludwig, who lives in the Ecologist City, where large forest ... budded, is home jungle floral site, whose relations are flowers, trees ..., next to Strange birds migrate flower in her intra nature reproduced, and pods evacuated by butterflies.
His close friend, is the watery and salty sea, which is beloved because he falls in love, puts on alert and curses him by his surroundings and invoking him. Anyway, it dwells wherever it is, and is accepted as a basic element of the universe.

                                    
                                         CHAPTER III

The act of tender love would be fulfilled later ..., what his voice fell silent and had his eyes and heart fortify, which will be linked from far inside.
At night, with Roderick going to a festive night, they climbed the rungs center alone, with heat in his shirt skin later. And in a deliberate action, someone asks you a sign that taking care tired and distinguishing see that John was his friend, school mate. He did not hesitate, he approached, greeted him and his sister and a cousin when she noticed well, he saw that he wore perfect for your night.
Debra wore elegant, dark clothes and sang with her dark brown wavy hair; his white brunette and harmonious ****** complexion line, gave her constant reflection. Fate was present, as it would not go around the world to be looked at by someone, he would watch his choice. Little was said, he only realized he was not passing and North America came eleven years ago.


They roasted the hours and the party ended, Ludwig remained with her new friend and his old friend John. They went downstairs, thinking about committing his new friendship, as I had noticed a slight interest in it. This happened and the meeting lasted for several hours.
The next day, he went to see her lawns roads where she lived, always with its mystique and kneeling the beast that wanted to impose upon him, that gives it excessive materialism unloved peace.
She arrives at her house, which was to John, though not very comfortable, but sure to please and attentive to host it.
And that night said much that was the tender feeling and liking her, but as his policy was rigid and concerning celibacy, only mattered to him, the unknown world of madness in his brawling to survive.
Time passed and deepened love, Ludwig went to say goodbye to his beloved, especially that he had faith, but that day would betray him. And so I wanted to put his heart and iron sleep peacefully, but Debra no secret  to tell ...:

"Ludwig, do not abandon our own, we must have faith, and I understand what it is. Ludwig rested and then brought her hands to her, hugged her and kissed all over her face, covering her eyebrows, nose, forehead, mouth; his lips positions in the middle of it, wanted to feel her warmth and tell her he loved her and would miss a lot of pain. But there was no show weakness, he must be strong and not to complicate the farewell from North America. Mourn scared him, because he had forged the feeling, because his aching grief was deep and it was at an undetermined point, with great desire to hold her and kiss over his face.
So ever, it was unbearable, she would like to die in his memory and had to remember in the collective thinking of his family circle. Which it fits the feel shivers ideas with sensations, such as the best in its inherent upstart point.

It was hard, as if more than man Ludwig out the feminine side of himself. But irremediable was the end, eager poisonous reaper approached. Ludwig hugged her, kissed her and stroked her right breast ... saying: "Do not forget me ..." and so left. Then he wrote her, that madness had transformed her away, but the distance was prevented against carcinoma being all postponed.
To know he could not boil your blood heavy thinking, they were contracted muscles. When he relaxed, he saw back through the hatch of his head, the soul that was in an ****** tragic holocaust, where Eros tenaciously and rebellion dictated its laws. Ludwig slept, and consciousness became natural color, as if it were safer, eternally fresh and manufactured this dream a poem ...:  

" That one corresponding to the celebration,
I wish to reunite with enthusiasm and strength ...
touching eyes closed
the sad sky, the dry ground, dried flowers
and people backward habits.

As meaning if it takes itself ...,
is the meaning
although they are scattered
in flows oppressions ...
the animosity of delight just widow and desultory,
losses and more losses at the time of aging ...
and profits to appease others.

For more like,
there seems to be a big drop ...
the same credibility ...?
and setting as a feeling
remain imagination stationary.

As hard it corresponds to the body,
It is destroyed inside ...
and hardened thoughts
tears falling to the esophagus,
without recognizing either way.

Who the pace of living is customizable,
and no opportunity is lost ...
but growing and creative
rears its profile,
as an unforgiven mirage. "


    Have been and unrestless forms of peremptory perceive, and when it starts to wander in my solitude, transporting my sorrow with grief, wherever I go I will take silent and vivifying separation completes the probable brain, which lives and endures in avidity stamped man with his need to want the Lord's command that made me forge this creation .--- he told himself, as a witness epilogue of his poem, albeit as the cry to its essence it was about. Originally from the Ecologist City, where reigned the wise and calm, where he healed their diseases, which has dodged the putrefaction of their wounds, where you inhale the aroms most want and cordoned off its without a grave lack of soft and flowering odour.
To believe missing, do not be afraid and trust that will grab everything, that not a drop of air was not lost on her fingers, which will not fail to display their imaginative stuff Alma Mater.
With all their eating, you want to cure your bad like venereum, and would go into the hands of a counselor or a warlock who extirpated the curse. Heal her feet and hands to despair, to heal the memory of his thought that I seasoned and voluptuous breaks the veins of his caleter, which seems not of it like a dwarf be provided with a dagger will break their venal, and this to commit such surgery, he laughs loudly with garnets eyes, full of the worst evil.

And this way Ludwig Garroch, vague without fear of rags, without fear of hunger or the messiness, only idles so that someday I can walk on the water surface, leaving their hydrocentric footprints where plankton reverence their sense of pain, his infarcted heart , her long fingernails of violence.


TO  BE CONTINUED….

La noche se abre
Granada desgranada
Hay estrellas arriba y abajo
Unas son peces dormidos en el río
Otras cantan en un extremo del cielo
Altas fogatas en los repliegues del monte
Resplandores partidos
Hay estrellas falaces que engañan a los viajeros
La Estrella Polar ardió pura y fría en las noches de mi
infancia
La Estrella del Nacimiento nos llama a la vida
Es una invitación a renacer porque cada minuto podemos nacer a
la nueva vida
Pero todos preferimos la muerte
Hay las estrellas del Hemisferio Austral que no conozco
La Cruz del Sur que aquella muchacha argentina llevaba en su alhajero
Nunca olvidaré la estrella verde en la noche de Yucatán
Pero entre todas hay una
Luz recogida Estrella como una almendra
Grano de sal
No brilla en los cuellos de moda
Ni en el pecho del General
Va y viene sin ruido por mis recuerdos
Su ausencia es una forma sutil de estar presente
Su presencia no pesa
Su luz no hiere
Va y viene sin ruido por mis pensamientos
En el recodo de una conversación brilla como una mirada que no
insiste
Arde en la cima de un silencio imprevisto
Aparece en un paseo solitario como un sabor olvidado
Modera con una sonrisa la marea de la vida
Silenciosa como la arena se extiende
Como la yedra fantasma sobre una torre abandonada
Pasan los días pasan los años y su presencia invisible me
acompaña
Pausa de luz entre un año y otro año
Parpadeo
Batir de dos alas en un cuarto olvidado
Su luz como un aceite brilla esta noche en que estoy solo
Ha de brillar también la última noche


  Aislada en su esplendor
  La mujer brilla como una alhaja
  Como un arma dormida y temible
  Reposa la mujer en la noche
  Como agua fresca con los ojos cerrados
  A la sombra del árbol
  Como una cascada detenida en mitad de su salto
  Como el río de rápida cintura helado de pronto
  Al pie de la gran roca sin facciones
  Al pie de la montaña
  Como el agua del estanque en verano reposa
  En su fondo se enlazan álamos y eucaliptos
  Astros o peces brillan entre sus piernas
  La sombra de los pájaros apenas oscurece su ****
  Sus pechos son dos aldeas dormidas
  Como una piedra blanca reposa la mujer
  Como el agua lunar en un cráter extinto
  Nada se oye en la noche de musgo y arena
  Sólo el lento brotar de estas palabras
  A la orilla del agua a la orilla de un cuerpo
  Pausado manantial
  Oh transparente monumento
  Donde el instante brilla y se repite
  Y se abisma en sí mismo y nunca se consume


  Llorabas y reías
  Palabras locas peces vivaces frutos rápidos
  Abría la noche sus valles submarinos
  En lo más alto de la hora brillaba el lecho con luz fija
  En la más alta cresta de la noche brillabas

  Atada a tu blancura
  Como la ola antes que se derrame
  Como la dicha al extender las alas
  Reías y llorabas
  Encallamos en arenas sin nadie
  Muros inmensos como un No
  Puertas condenadas mundo sin rostro
  Todo cerrado impenetrable
  Todo daba la espalda
  Salían de sus cuevas los objetos horribles
  La mesa volvía a ser irremediable para siempre mesa
  Sillas las sillas
  Máscara el mundo máscara sin nadie atrás
  Árido lecho a la deriva
  La noche se alejaba sin volverse siquiera
  Llorabas y reías
  La cama era un mar pacífico
  Reverdecía el cuarto
  Nacían árboles nacía el agua
  Había ramos y sonrisas entre las sábanas
  Había anillos a la medida de la dicha
  Pájaros imprevistos entre tus pechos
  Plumas relampagueantes en tus ojos
  Como el oro dormido era tu cuerpo
  Como el oro y su réplica ardiente cuando la luz lo toca
  Como el cable eléctrico que al rozarlo fulmina
  Reías y llorabas
  Dejamos nuestros nombres a la orilla
  Dejamos nuestra forma
  Con los ojos cerrados cuerpo adentro
  Bajo los arcos dobles de tus labios
  No había luz no había sombra
  Cada vez más hacia el fondo
  En el ***** velero embarcados

The sun, a blazing circle of celestial fire
Hangs low upon the horizon,
Its fiery glory reflecting orangely
On the wind-whipped, blue-green sea.
  
The late afternoon sees my love and I,
Arms and legs entwined, ******* naked on the beach,
Rapt in appreciation of that blest moment
When sun and sea join in mystic communion.
  
And yet, all is not golden:
When one mentions the word "legs"
Once is certainly grammatically correct, yet
One does not convey the true situation to the reader.
  
You see, my lover is the sad possessor
Of a fifty percent deficit in the podial department,
Whilst I have a full double complement.
And thus to so-called act of generation
(Most times mis-named, for which I thank the gods)
Is a feat requiring great dexterous equilibrium.
  
However, my love's club foot (speaking candidly,
An admitted visual defect most times)
Now comes to the rescue of Eros' urgent needs,
With the aid of a little mutual ingenuity.
  
Balancing carefully on my dear one's abbreviated podex,
Supported carefully by the discarded surgical boot,
A passable **** can usually be achieved.
Only the halitosis appears irremediable.

Nuestro amor ya es inútil como un mástil sin lona,
como un cauce sin agua, como un arco sin flecha,
pues lo que enciende un beso lo apaga una sospecha,
y en amor es culpable el que perdona.

Ya es sombra para siempre lo que miró la duda
con su mirada amarga como una fruta verde;
y el alma está perdida cuando pierde
el supremo pudor de estar desnuda.

Así, frente a la noche, te he de tender la mano
con un gesto cordial de despedida,
y tú no sabrás nunca lo que pesa en mi vida
la angustia irremediable de haberte amado en vano.

Aging a progressive and earthy condition
Beginning at the top of our life
Genesis of a lonely crusade
  
Aging...bone degeneration
Tired eyes
Lack of elasticity and tone
Drying
Wrinkles
Dark spots
  
Aging… origin of a journal
Ending with a final destination
Devolution of human existence
Declined memory
Decadency of cognitive knowledge
  
Agony of Aphrodite
Collapse of Eros
Unmoistened Venus
Aging as evident as irreversible
Irremediable condition
Impossible battle

And a vision appeared to the Poet in the night
The vision of The Holy Spirit in the wild wood:  
‘By  one thing  only
By nuclear weapon alone
Sin enters  the world
And death by sin
Who shall deliver us from this death?
Lord raised up Savior from the dead
You too won’t die
As  His Spirit dwells in you.
Beware of the nightmare leading nowhere
And  bigot’s extremism claws:
O what delight, as consecrated rose worships the altar,
Inner chapel and sanctuary:
Angels and heaven smile.
This Ultimate Reality
(Symbol of the greatest and noblest,
Mankind has striven for
Generation after generation)
Reborn as Christ
Reveals His creative fecundity
Infinite manifestations.
Our perfection
Our ripe blooming
Our sunlight and singing
Our reconciling dry philosophy
With light of Love
And this alone is our true sovereign.
By this knowledge alone
The timeless is united with time:
Liberation from the human wheel
Otherwise our disaster is irremediable:
Satanic spell will work
New weapons develop
New violence within States.
The only battle worth fighting is Peace
The spirit will defeat the canonshots
This is the reverend aisle of a true temple
Never forget the admonitions
I insist
Self-sacrifice is regeneration
And the moment of birth_
Living  among charlatans, poseurs, terrorists
Doing acts of love and charity
Sorting out diamonds among the dross.”

And a vision appeared to the Poet in the night
The vision of The Holy Spirit in the wild wood:  
‘By  one thing  only
By nuclear weapon alone
Sin enters  the world
And death by sin
Who shall deliver us from this death?
Lord raised up Savior from the dead
You too won’t die
As  His Spirit dwells in you.
Beware of the nightmare leading nowhere
And  bigot’s extremism claws:
O what delight, as consecrated rose worships the altar,
Inner chapel and sanctuary:
Angels and heaven smile.
This Ultimate Reality
(Symbol of the greatest and noblest,
Mankind has striven for
Generation after generation)
Reborn as Christ
Reveals His creative fecundity
Infinite manifestations.
Our perfection
Our ripe blooming
Our sunlight and singing
Our reconciling dry philosophy
With light of Love
And this alone is our true sovereign.
By this knowledge alone
The timeless is united with time:
Liberation from the human wheel
Otherwise our disaster is irremediable:
Satanic spell will work
New weapons develop
New violence within States.
The only battle worth fighting is Peace
The spirit will defeat the canonshots
This is the reverend aisle of a true temple
Never forget the admonitions
I insist
Self-sacrifice is regeneration
And the moment of birth_
Living  among charlatans, poseurs, terrorists
Doing acts of love and charity
Sorting out diamonds among the dross.”

And a vision appeared to the Poet in the night
The vision of The Holy Spirit in the wild wood:  
‘By  one thing  only
By nuclear weapon alone
Sin enters  the world
And death by sin
Who shall deliver us from this death?
Lord raised up Savior from the dead
You too won’t die
As  His Spirit dwells in you.
Beware of the nightmare leading nowhere
And  bigot’s extremism claws:
O what delight, as consecrated rose worships the altar,
Inner chapel and sanctuary:
Angels and heaven smile.
This Ultimate Reality
(Symbol of the greatest and noblest,
Mankind has striven for
Generation after generation)
Reborn as Christ
Reveals His creative fecundity
Infinite manifestations.
Our perfection
Our ripe blooming
Our sunlight and singing
Our reconciling dry philosophy
With light of Love
And this alone is our true sovereign.
By this knowledge alone
The timeless is united with time:
Liberation from the human wheel
Otherwise our disaster is irremediable:
Satanic spell will work
New weapons develop
New violence within States.
The only battle worth fighting is Peace
The spirit will defeat the canonshots
This is the reverend aisle of a true temple
Never forget the admonitions
I insist
Self-sacrifice is regeneration
And the moment of birth_
Living  among charlatans, poseurs, terrorists
Doing acts of love and charity
Sorting out diamonds among the dross.”

Los últimos vencejos revolean
en torno al campanario;
los niños gritan, saltan, se pelean.
En su rincón, Martín el solitario.

¡La tarde, casi noche, polvorienta,
la algazara infantil, y el vocerío,
a la par de sus doce en sus cincuenta!   ¡Oh alma plena y espíritu vacío,
ante la turbia hoguera
con llama restallante de raíces,
fogata de frontera
que ilumina las hondas cicatrices!   Quien se vive se pierde, Abel decía.
¡Oh distancia, distancia!, que la estrella
que nadie toca, guía.
¿Quién navegó sin ella?
Distancia para el ojo -¡oh lueñe nave!-,
ausencia al corazón empedernido,
y bálsamo suave
con la miel del amor, sagrado olvido.
¡Oh gran saber del cero, del maduro
fruto sabor que sólo el hombre gusta,
agua de sueño, manantial oscuro,
sombra divina de la mano augusta!
Antes me llegue, si me llega, el Día,
la luz que ve, increada,
ahógame esta mala gritería,
Señor, con las esencias de tu Nada.   El ángel que sabía
su secreto salió a Martín al paso.
Martín le dio el dinero que tenía.
¿Piedad?  Tal vez. ¿Miedo al chantaje?  Acaso.
Aquella noche fría
supo Martín de soledad; pensaba
que Dios no le veía,
y en su mundo desierto caminaba.   Y vio la musa esquiva,
de pie junto a su lecho, la enlutada,
la dama de sus calles, fugitiva,
la imposible al amor y siempre amada.
Díjole Abel: Señora,
por ansia de tu cara descubierta,
he pensado vivir hacia la aurora
hasta sentir mi sangre casi yerta.
Hoy sé que no eres tú quien yo creía;
mas te quiero mirar y agradecerte
lo mucho que me hiciste compañía
con tu frío desdén.
                  Quiso la muerte
sonreír a Martín, y no sabía.   Viví, dormí, soñé y hasta he creado
-pensó Martín, ya turbia la pupila-
un hombre que vigila
el sueño, algo mejor que lo soñado.
Mas si un igual destino
aguarda al soñador y al vigilante,
a quien trazó caminos,
y a quien siguió caminos, jadeante,
al fin, sólo es creación tu pura nada,
tu sombra de gigante,
el divino cegar de tu mirada.   Y sucedió a la angustia la fatiga,
que siente su esperar desesperado,
la sed que el agua clara no mitiga,
la amargura del tiempo envenenado.
¡Esta lira de muerte!
                      Abel palpaba
su cuerpo enflaquecido.
¿El que todo lo ve no le miraba?
¡Y esta pereza, sangre del olvido!
¡Oh, sálvame Señor!
                    Su vida entera,
su historia irremediable aparecía
escrita en blanda cera.
¿Y ha de borrarte el sol del nuevo día?
Abel tendió su mano
hacia la luz bermeja
de una caliente aurora de verano,
ya en el balcón de su morada vieja.
Ciego, pidió la luz que no veía.
Luego llevó, sereno,
el limpio vaso, hasta su boca fría,
de pura sombra -¡oh pura sombra!- lleno.

I could recite the lies that I cunningly crafted in dolor
Speak of all iniquities that none have ever acted,
Not upon me, no, this creature in not worth the effort, the time
Why don't I mope and wither and lie

The novelty of clinical, irremediable sadness
Induces but a fellowship of loving, caring madness
Still not accepting, I reduce the waiting kind
Why don’t I recoil and shiver and cry

Perhaps now, in my profusion of bellows
I opine that I’ll dance in the tenor of a trance,
I’ll sashay within the shade of the treasured tree of woe
And there I’ll make certain,

Of this much I have destined,
Among the shadows beaming still,
In a moment’s testing cry
I will tremble and quiver and die...

The sun, a blazing circle of celestial fire
Hangs low upon the horizon,
Its fiery glory reflecting orangely
On the wind-whipped, blue-green sea.
  
The late afternoon sees my love and I,
Arms and legs entwined, ******* naked on the beach,
Rapt in appreciation of that blest moment
When sun and sea join in mystic communion.
  
And yet, all is not golden:
When one mentions the word "legs"
Once is certainly grammatically correct, yet
One does not convey the true situation to the reader.
  
You see, my lover is the sad possessor
Of a fifty percent deficit in the podial department,
Whilst I have a full double complement.
And thus to so-called act of generation
(Most times mis-named, for which I thank the gods)
Is a feat* requiring great dexterous equilibrium.
  
However, my love's club foot (speaking candidly,
An admitted visual defect most times)
Now comes to the rescue of Eros' urgent needs,
With the aid of a little mutual ingenuity.
  
Balancing carefully on my dear one's abbreviated podex,
Supported carefully by the discarded surgical boot,
A passable **** can usually be achieved.
Only the halitosis appears irremediable.

Los últimos vencejos revolean
en torno al campanario;
los niños gritan, saltan, se pelean.
En su rincón, Martín el solitario.

¡La tarde, casi noche, polvorienta,
la algazara infantil, y el vocerío,
a la par de sus doce en sus cincuenta!   ¡Oh alma plena y espíritu vacío,
ante la turbia hoguera
con llama restallante de raíces,
fogata de frontera
que ilumina las hondas cicatrices!   Quien se vive se pierde, Abel decía.
¡Oh distancia, distancia!, que la estrella
que nadie toca, guía.
¿Quién navegó sin ella?
Distancia para el ojo -¡oh lueñe nave!-,
ausencia al corazón empedernido,
y bálsamo suave
con la miel del amor, sagrado olvido.
¡Oh gran saber del cero, del maduro
fruto sabor que sólo el hombre gusta,
agua de sueño, manantial oscuro,
sombra divina de la mano augusta!
Antes me llegue, si me llega, el Día,
la luz que ve, increada,
ahógame esta mala gritería,
Señor, con las esencias de tu Nada.   El ángel que sabía
su secreto salió a Martín al paso.
Martín le dio el dinero que tenía.
¿Piedad?  Tal vez. ¿Miedo al chantaje?  Acaso.
Aquella noche fría
supo Martín de soledad; pensaba
que Dios no le veía,
y en su mundo desierto caminaba.   Y vio la musa esquiva,
de pie junto a su lecho, la enlutada,
la dama de sus calles, fugitiva,
la imposible al amor y siempre amada.
Díjole Abel: Señora,
por ansia de tu cara descubierta,
he pensado vivir hacia la aurora
hasta sentir mi sangre casi yerta.
Hoy sé que no eres tú quien yo creía;
mas te quiero mirar y agradecerte
lo mucho que me hiciste compañía
con tu frío desdén.
                  Quiso la muerte
sonreír a Martín, y no sabía.   Viví, dormí, soñé y hasta he creado
-pensó Martín, ya turbia la pupila-
un hombre que vigila
el sueño, algo mejor que lo soñado.
Mas si un igual destino
aguarda al soñador y al vigilante,
a quien trazó caminos,
y a quien siguió caminos, jadeante,
al fin, sólo es creación tu pura nada,
tu sombra de gigante,
el divino cegar de tu mirada.   Y sucedió a la angustia la fatiga,
que siente su esperar desesperado,
la sed que el agua clara no mitiga,
la amargura del tiempo envenenado.
¡Esta lira de muerte!
                      Abel palpaba
su cuerpo enflaquecido.
¿El que todo lo ve no le miraba?
¡Y esta pereza, sangre del olvido!
¡Oh, sálvame Señor!
                    Su vida entera,
su historia irremediable aparecía
escrita en blanda cera.
¿Y ha de borrarte el sol del nuevo día?
Abel tendió su mano
hacia la luz bermeja
de una caliente aurora de verano,
ya en el balcón de su morada vieja.
Ciego, pidió la luz que no veía.
Luego llevó, sereno,
el limpio vaso, hasta su boca fría,
de pura sombra -¡oh pura sombra!- lleno.

Acusado por los críticos literarios de realista,
mis parientes en cambio me atribuyen
el defecto contrario;
                                              afirman que no tengo
sentido alguno de la realidad.
Soy para ellos, sin duda, un funesto espectáculo:
analistas de textos, parientes de provincias,
he defraudado a todos, por lo visto;
¡qué le vamos a hacer!

Citaré algunos casos:

Ciertas tías devotas no pueden contenerse,
y lloran al mirarme.
Otras mucho más tímidas me hacen arroz con leche,
como cuando era niño,
y sonríen contritas, y me dicen:
                                                qué alto,
si te viese tu padre…,
y se quedan suspensas, sin saber qué añadir.

Sin embargo, no ignoro
que sus ambiguos gestos
disimulan
una sincera compasión irremediable
que brilla húmedamente en sus miradas
y en sus piadosos dientes postizos de conejo.

Y no sólo son ellas.

En las noches,
mi anciana tía Clotilde regresa de la tumba
para agitar ante mi rostro sus manos sarmentosas
y repetir con tono admonitorio:
¡Con la belleza no se come! ¿Qué piensas que es la vida?

Por su parte,
mi madre ya difunta, con voz delgada y triste,
augura un lamentable final de mi existencia:
manicomios, asilos, calvicie, blenorragia.

Yo no sé qué decirles, y ellas
vuelven a su silencio.
Lo mismo, igual que entonces.
Como cuando era niño.
                          Parece
que no ha pasado la muerte por nosotros.

Digamos que te alejas definitivamente
hacia el pozo de olvido que prefieres,
pero la mejor parte de tu espacio,
en realidad la única constante de tu espacio,
quedará para siempre en mí, doliente,
persuadida, frustrada, silenciosa,
quedará en mí tu corazón inerte y sustancial,
tu corazón de una promesa única
en mí que estoy enteramente solo
sobreviviéndote.

Después de ese dolor redondo y eficaz,
pacientemente agrio, de invencible ternura,
ya no importa que use tu insoportable ausencia
ni que me atreva a preguntar si cabes
como siempre en una palabra.

Lo cierto es que ahora ya no estás en mi noche
desgarradoramente idéntica a las otras
que repetí buscándote, rodeándote.
Hay solamente un eco irremediable
de mi voz como niño, esa que no sabía.

Ahora qué miedo inútil, qué vergüenza
no tener oración para morder,
no tener fe para clavar las uñas,
no tener nada más que la noche,
saber que Dios se muere, se resbala,
que Dios retrocede con los brazos cerrados,
con los labios cerrados, con la niebla,
como un campanario atrozmente en ruinas
que desandara siglos de ceniza.

Es tarde. Sin embargo yo daría
todos los juramentos y las lluvias,
las paredes con insultos y mimos,
las ventanas de invierno, el mar a veces,
por no tener tu corazón en mí,
tu corazón inevitable y doloroso
en mí que estoy enteramente solo
sobreviviéndote.

Clock, don't mark the hours...
It is maddening!
She will leave forever
When morning comes again.
This is the last night we have
To live our love
And your ticking ever reminds me
Of my irremediable pain.
Clock, detain your path,
For my life is ending!
She is the star that
Illuminates my life.
Without her love, I am nothing.
Hold time in your hands,
Make this night perpetual
So that she will never leave me;
So that we won't ever wake up
From this dream,
Clock don't mark the hours...
I am truly going mad.

Compassion - companionship - is Love - awake -
Her pleasantries abloom -
A chivalry of gestures - sweet -
At noon a sight on which to swoon -
Warmth - sensed sure - by stealthy hearts -
Behold with enchanted awe -
Loves glory - impart -
By - Angel - rapping at my door -
Love - irremediable - once she infect -
Most benevolent disease -
Dissolve dalliance with despair -
Treats - taunts - teases -

Recuerdo que una tarde de soledad y hastío,
¡oh tarde como tantas!, el alma mía era,
bajo el azul monótono, un ancho y terso río
que ni tenía un pobre juncal en su ribera.
    ¡Oh mundo sin encanto, sentimental inopia
que borra el misterioso azogue del cristal!
    ¡Oh el alma sin amores que el Universo copia
con un irremediable bostezo universal!     Quiso el poeta recordar a solas,
las ondas bien amadas, la luz de los cabellos
que él llamaba en sus rimas rubias olas.
Leyó... La letra mata: no se acordaba de ellos...
    Y un día -como tantos-, al aspirar un día
aromas de una rosa que en el rosal se abría,
brotó como una llama la luz de los cabellos
que él en sus madrigales llamaba rubias olas,
brotó, porque un aroma igual tuvieron ellos...
Y se alejó en silencio para llorar a solas.

Por una vez existe el cielo innecesario.
Nadie averigua acerca de mi corazón
ni de mi salud milagrosa y cordial,
porque es de noche, manantial de la noche,
viento de la noche, viento olvido,
porque es de noche entre silencio y uñas
y quedo desalmado como un reloj lento.

Húmeda oscuridad desgarradora,
oscuridad sin adivinaciones,
con solamente un grito que se quiebra a lo lejos,
y a lo lejos se cansa y me abandona.

Ella sabe qué palabras podrían decirse
cuando se extinguen todos los presagios
y el insomnio trae iras melancólicas
acerca del porvenir y otras angustias.

Pero no dice nada, no las suelta.
Entonces miro en lo oscuro llorando,
y me envuelvo otra vez en mi noche
como en una cortina pegajosa
que nadie nunca nadie nunca corre.

Por el aire invisible baja una luna dulce,
hasta el sueño por el aire invisible.
Estoy solo como con mi infancia de alertas,
con mis corrientes espejismos de Dios
y calles que me empujan inexplicablemente
hacia un remoto mar de miedos.

Estoy solo como una estatua destruida,
como un muelle sin olas, como una simple cosa
que no tuviera el hábito de la respiración
ni el deber del descanso ni otras muertes en cierne,
solo en la anegada cuenca del desamparo
junto a ausencias que nunca retroceden.
Naturalmente, ella
conoce qué palabras podrían decirse,
pero no dice nada,
pero no dice nada irremediable.

Mía... Así: más que todo y casi nada: mía.
Mía para mí solo. Mía en la noche azul de nadie.
Mía en el vaho húmedo de una lluvia remota.
Mía en el golpe sordo de mi sangre.

Mía en el gran silencio de esta noche de todos
en este gran silencio de lo que nadie sabe,
en este gran silencio de resonancias infinitas,
en este gran silencio de raíces innumerables.

Mía en mi sombra. Mía en tu perfume.
Mía sobre una ausencia llena de ríos y de árboles.
Mía en la brisa tibia que tiene un eco de tus manos;
mía en mis ojos tristes, tristes de tanto no mirarte...
mía para mí solo, como después y como antes;
mía sobre la música de tus pies lentos en la arena;
mía bajo la sombra de lo que nadie sabe...

Y, sin embargo, llegas en los ecos nocturnos,
más pálida, más casta y más ausente; y me llega.
en el viento tu cabellera desatada,
y me llega en la espuma tu mano transparente...

Sí: vuelves, toda aurora, de la gran noche irremediable.
Sí: vuelves sin tu sombra, pero vuelves,
tú, la que ennoblecías el sabor del recuerdo,
¡tú, la recuperada para siempre!

Siempre sucede ante mis ojos:

El irremediable silencio de la noche,
La tersa silueta de tus manos,
El solemne canto del aire de otoño,
La desprolija sombra de tus pasos,
El nítido susurro de tu voz en mi memoria
Y las tibias gotas de tus faros.

Las madrugadas son:
incertidumbre que arde,
Un bosque de ausencias prolongadas
E insomnios no justificados.

El frío clama por tus brazos
Y mi piel tiembla por tus labios.

~ ~ ~
     I want to run my fingertips across every inch of your skin and watch your bones dance beneath your muscles as they work together to move you forward.
     I want to feel the movement of your hips as we dance across the room and sing our favorite songs as loudly as anyone can, because we are in love and know no shame.
     I want to breathe your breath and share your space, even if you're in the shower at six in the morning and I have to go so bad that I can't hold it in anymore.
     I want to teach you everything and learn from you because I'm a ******* about how much I know but I am still clueless and I still have so much to experience.
     I want everyone to know about you but I also want to keep you all to myself because no one else is allowed to have you but you're too wonderful to not talk about.
     I want to watch a thousand suns set with you and I never want to watch you leave again because even if you're just going to work, I know I won't see you for hours.
     I want to experience everything with you because you are my life and you always have been, it's undeniable, irrevocable, unalterable, immutable, and irremediable.

Rhyming rues
and woes
Sorrows
laden with
reincarnated regrets

Wounds of my age
irremediable