"hurtings" poems
Desire and
All the sweet pulsing aches
And gentle hurtings
That were you,
Are gone into the sullen dark.
Now in the night you come unsmiling
To lie with me
A dull, cold, rigid bayonet
On my hot-swollen, throbbing soul.
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it’s the skin disease that is my sickness
It’s the red dots
(hurtings, blemishes, scars)
and not my face I see
It’s the
d e s p e r a t i o n
on display
of my insecurities, and
so it worsens my insecurities
The hermeneutic circle;
fact is fact
So, on my face
desperation is visible
sadness in my mind;
emptiness in body;
— but explosions on my face
That is all I see
It's all
I
am.
I am a
sickness.
august 2014
Aug 21, 2014
Aug 21, 2014 at 5:10 PM UTC
The sequel to "Heavenly"
The rest of us
will decompose here,
but now you have purpose,
the muse behind my verses,
forget fairytale curses;
you will never die,
So place me underground,
darling you will still be
safe and sound,
up above from here
I see who you are,
but they are all below,
below your worthiness,
dainty star,
On the eve of the day
when I'm mourned by the fakes,
they'll be praying for my amazing grace,
but it'll be too late,
There's no spot in a dead heart
for those who tore it apart,
and my monsters will cover your
sunshine and they'll **** your spark,
I'll wish I could be there,
Ten thousand tears wait to be spared,
I promise I cared,
I just never shared
all my hurtings, and now
they've killed me,
I will beg to have you released,
I'll beg on my knees for
all the darkness to leave you
and entertain me,
But I'm afraid to fully dive,
Don't know how far I could drive,
Metaphorically, I'm at the shore
I don't know what I'm drowning for.
Sep 15, 2016
Sep 15, 2016 at 9:17 PM UTC
Shed all the pain of past hurtings,
It taints your furure,
Forgive.
Remove fear of future disappointments,
It denys you laughter,
Believe.
Dec 21, 2015
Dec 21, 2015 at 7:36 AM UTC
We are just scared children.
Who don't understand why were in this world.
we have the blade in our hands.
and the scars on our wrists, from previous hurtings.
Sometimes we just need to let go.
One cut.
Two cuts.
Three cuts.
God only knows when we'll stop
maybe when were dead?
May 15, 2014
May 15, 2014 at 10:24 PM UTC
Sometimes holding on
does more damage than letting go.
It does more damage
Trying hard to know.
Why some things in this world,
Just won't fit?
Why two special feelings,
After all have to split?
It hurts to think
that you have to let go,
Try to move on
And just let the pain flow.
But sometimes
It's hurtings that makes us stronger
It's like building a bridge
just to get over.
While watching all those painful memories,
Wash off and Go away.
You'll notice that you're Moving on,
Day by day.
Some say that a broken jar
Is worthless and nonsense.
Broke into pieces,
Negatively priceless.
But try to fix it
Using a molten gold,
It'll be more precious than ever,
Nothing that has been sold.
Just like in life
There are times that we feel shattered.
Due to every heart aches,
We all feel battered.
With all those positive thinking,
You'll have a great mold.
With that positive thinking,
you'll have the molten gold.
To fix your broken heart,
To move on and let go.
And Have a golden Heart
For the one who deserves it so.
Jul 24, 2015
Jul 24, 2015 at 8:26 AM UTC
Trying to lose the shadow of my past
Every night it reminds me of who i am
It stalks me and constantly talks to me
Trying to direct me to my old ways
Those feelings are about gone and
my shadow seems to be changing
It now looks for a clean life without hurt
The hurtful ways have seemed to vanished
The mindset is very new and very driven
Hurtings has changed to helping others
The angry side is now the kind side
The manipulating side is now the teaching side
Anyone can change if you want it
Never think you are invensable
Because one's time does come!!!!!!!
Jun 28, 2015
Jun 28, 2015 at 10:19 AM UTC
11/28/2017
"*Desire and
All the sweet pulsing aches
And gentle hurtings
That were you,
Are gone into the sullen dark...*"
Ernest Hemingway
Pain
because the sky is darkening
and turning bruise blue.
I glance out the window
look for some kind of answer
and nothing comes to me.
Nov 29, 2017
Nov 29, 2017 at 4:39 PM UTC