"bedsides" poems
Be grateful. Be grateful
We say in situations of valor and tragedy
At dinner tables and kneeling rails
At hospital bedsides and parent teacher conferences
It could be worse
Or it might be great
Be grateful they all say
For the sun keeping us here
Here long enough to witness life
And death and violence with injustice and not fair
But grateful for the stars and for nights and winter seasons drenched in rain and icicles
When everything is frozen dangerously
Be grateful when things don’t work out—it could always be worse
At least it’s not raining, hailing, fire storming, apocalypse
They all say to be grateful for your friends
The ones you love, but also the pains and heartaches they cause
And the same for family, which causes so much hell in an already swirling environment
Be grateful for this protection by arms
But what about the cause?
Results not causes are what count in this time
And we never think of why, but only the surface
Be grateful for all you have
All? Including heartache and grief with stress and sin and chores topped with lies
Grateful
Is it knowing I am human?
I get to the point I’m saying thank you and don’t know why
But It could always be worse.
Mar 5, 2012
Mar 5, 2012 at 12:17 AM UTC
i raised her
with a violent birth
my vocal cords tangled
like a drunk couple
making love
with her name.
she emerged from
the slit in men's throats,
a grown woman,
her sister followed,
from suffocated coughs,
glowing like streetlamps
from mouth to mouth,
never happy,
never settled.
girls like her,
they don't enter this
world easy,
they leave it in a mess,
exit it like a highway,
move on to the
next place.
there's a stain they
always leave,
yellow on the teeth,
marks on bed-sheets,
empty rings on
bedsides with last
nights drink
gone cold just like
their feelings.
just a girl they say,
harmless,
girls have endless love
in their hearts,
and endless hate.
May 27, 2016
May 27, 2016 at 3:44 PM UTC
Flowers on rooftops. Sold by stalks or bunches or barrels.
Rooftops, where beginning see new light.
Sunsets are given a second chance.
Sun rises sweep you off your feet.
Until you are tumbling towards oblivion.
Falling for someone or no one,
Someone will still catch you,
For no one is truly absent on a rooftop.
Rooftops are shelters.
Covering our small material lives,
That reflect poorly our selves.
No living room can represent a person’s soul.
Our drive, our motivation our passion.
What we believe we are underneath.
Without rooftops snow would drift against our bedsides.
Without rooftops stars would tell the stories of our dreams.
They would burn away the acid that disappoints us.
That keeps us from laughing.
We’d be filled with starlight, snowflakes, flowers.
Flowers are sold on rooftops because,
Perspective is shifted up there.
Ground is still down but farther down.
We are as tall as skyscrapers.
Gravity makes our knees tremble.
Tempting that leap of faith.
Flowers deserve a second perspective –chance.
How many times have you counted the petals on a dandelion?
Or asked a lily if he loves you?
Why send a rose when you have orchids?
Rooftops are surreal.
Ordinary cannot but attained that close to the clouds.
The balance between flight,
And gravity’s relentless pull keeps a mind awake, -alive.
Rooftops are where flowers should be sold.
No cars, cement or money.
No stereotype, or donuts or guns.
Anyone buying flowers
Is looking for a second chance.
Is hoping for magic.
Waiting for lightening to strike him,
In the same place twice.
Jul 8, 2011
Jul 8, 2011 at 8:01 PM UTC
sandstone hits glass
she wants to talk about our past
the knives,the guns,the pills fill my head
her words ring in my ears like a lost melody
the things i would do to her,
the things i would do for her
she wields her sword and raises her shield,
ready to fight
our enemy is not the one waiting at the city gates
but the one messing with her heads.
we have the same enemies, her and i
they are born in our heads,
they thrive on our thoughts,
they keep us awake at 3 AM with a bottle of wine by our bedsides
because our eyes are too tired to shut themselves,
they make us love ourselves sometimes
only to rip us apart and wear our skin as cloaks.
our enemies are peculiar
they lift the corners of our mouth to form a smile
they make us swallow pills and snort drugs to feel alive.
we don't fight them
we let them win
we let them aim their guns at us
we let them destroy our will to live
we let them follow us to family gatherings and night-outs
we watch them rip our insides out with a smile
we can never get them out of our heads.
you see, we once built a palace inside our heads
we adorned the walls with our favourite pictures and stories
we hung fairy lights by our bedsides
because all the light we couldn't see was fading away.
the demons crawled out from under our beds and got into our heads.
darkness loomed over our palace.
the fairy lights were broken
the pictures shattered
the stories reduced to scribbles
we sharpened our knives,
got guns for hands,
bombs at the entrance
and changed the lamps to grenades
but they didn't die.
they grew stronger.
we tried to burn down our palace,
run away to our haven
but they got us in the end
and no matter how high our swords and shields are raised
they will stay with us
until the very end
Sep 7, 2016
Sep 7, 2016 at 5:30 PM UTC
If I die before I am a bride,
bury me with these words in my mouth,
as an I-told-you-so for the creator.
If I go clutching my maiden name
in arthritic hands like beads of a rosary,
tell about it at my funeral.
There must be a hymn to sing,
something like:
I kept every vow I ever made.
Put me in the ground in ****** white.
As if that'll erase the one-nights, love's malformations,
the way that matrimony might have,
in simpler times.
If I die with vacant bedsides, I instruct you:
take me to autopsy
remove my heart and check for scars,
then instruct the mortician to place it in my hands.
Like a bouquet.
To have and to hold.
Apr 18, 2014
Apr 18, 2014 at 4:06 PM UTC
lately, lately, lately,
I’ve learned life is too
short, even for the most
invincible of us.
we live in hospitals we construct
for ourselves, shelves stocked high
with anxieties, and
finances, and
pills for every kind of high
or low.
and we live this way–
chained to our bedsides,
keys in our pockets, crying
out for doctors
and saviors.
and we die this way–
holding onto something that we
thought, we constructed to look
like hope.
except we know it is just
a scribbled picture, just a
crayon creation of a
gruesome monster, a thing waiting
to grab us, with fierce
blue claws, and pull us
under by our
fluorescently lit halos.
Sep 30, 2010
Sep 30, 2010 at 12:29 PM UTC
falling out of love was easy.
all you had to do was make a call,
break a heart,
find someone new.
i guess that’s only if you fall out at all. i guess i'm still waiting for that.
i've been waiting for a while.
longer than it feels and shorter than I tell myself
i have a fear that i’ll be waiting to fall out of love with you when i have canyons in my face from age and broken legs from climbing up this mountain.
you can't tell people that your heart isn't the only thing broken.
bedsides from just being damaged goods, they've heard all your songs before. they're tired of it. "move on, change the station please, this melody is making me carsick. you've had your time to mourn."
everyone had their fair share of breaking. nobody cares.
and no one cares about poetry. no one cares that a poet cries when they think about daffodils or that they feel physical pain in their chest when they think about what wasn't meant to be but it happened anyway.
a poet writes for themselves, and how selfish is that? they consider others only when their chest stops hurting and expectations boil in their brain.
Aug 23, 2017
Aug 23, 2017 at 11:12 PM UTC
the oil machine
whirs, stirs
as naked, *****
lust filled bodies
turn
on bedsides
pleasure
in their spiritless
behinds
oil seeps,
a lethal snake-
pain these bodies
cannot take
as it runs through their
pulsing veins
immaculate temples
stripped by the stars
of the night
their delicate beauty, marred
snatched lotus flowers
crushed in the hands
of affection
oil drips
from dark hearts
broken cities
of love
forgotten, abandoned
its architect-reality
a tale of two worlds
(b.d.s.)
Apr 29, 2017
Apr 29, 2017 at 10:05 AM UTC
Panoramic one click,
portrait?
buy before it's too late
film not included.
How quaint it ain't.
Hollywood ***** the shine from the stars
and spits them out in cheap bars to
sit and romance the idea that once they
were great.
But it was always the sidewalk and the way
that the boys stood and spit while they
talked their big deeds.
Joe in the milk bar built the underground railway
to spirit the stars from the studio lot, but he never
made sergeant in the US marine corp
because he was too fond of the growing
and the smoking of ***
And we all took those colour Polaroids
to sit by our bedsides and remind us
how easy this life had become.
Panorama,
the one click sick serialized drama,
a portrait of us as
we were.
Feb 25, 2016
Feb 25, 2016 at 2:46 PM UTC
created and man-made, holding lives in the hands and dictates sorrows and joys. Slow and steady, never-ending, eternal, but never enough. capturing moments on squares smeared with ink. the hands never letting go.
grandfathers stand tall and watch as the owl makes her best. she sings lullaby's to her children, as they lay to rest. restful days and restless nights. blankets covering who rest peacefully. the hands place bouquets by their bedsides.
standing on a log amongst the swallowing waters, the hands beckon to cross the cavern. the owl and her children soaring high above the waters. with lifeless lungs and barely a grasp reaching for the hands and they stretch across. standing tall and looking grandfather in the face. the hands wrapping around with an unbreakable grasp.
Apr 5, 2019
Apr 5, 2019 at 1:15 PM UTC
He jokes that we'd argue over bedsides
We'd live in hipsterville &
I'd bike everywhere &
douse myself in patchouli each morning
He giggles at the thought of us
Dancing in our white-walled apt &
the wine spilling over our glasses &
the dog ******** in the tub
What a crazy thought--Us
Sanding our own dining table &
reading the headlines &
taking pills before breakfast
He laughs at these things
These things I've already thought
Buried under sheets alone
in wonderment
of what we could be
--
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Apr 4, 2018
Apr 4, 2018 at 4:21 PM UTC
By my Softness you shall know me
Soft
Quieting
Voice
Throat removed
Given the the Flame
Torch
Ire
Chamber music High
A Woman
For whom this Lamp Burns Well
And whose Braun
Is the **** snake Goddess
Come into a mind of Teachings
Touch me Well family.. Smile Vloser
Sweet Bow of Infamy
Quietly gathering Smile
Draws you Ever Closer
Closer
Until
Yours
Is the Very Gate Upon the Earth
See
Feel
Emery
Escxene part of Me
Gathered for her Herbs and Forest
And Drawn from the well of HerBlood
I Drink Thee
Our Pleasure
Holy Symphony
Your death
My Bedsides companion
Each
Falling
Instance
Greatly Golden
In our Non Forgetting
Desire
Unleashed
Heavens
Curtain
Made on the Presence
Of Your Flesh
Ring Bearer
Apr 26, 2016
Apr 26, 2016 at 2:06 AM UTC
I must apologize. I'm sorry, man.
Let me go out on a limb here, Jack.
On behalf of all Senators,
Republican and Democrat;
On behalf of every congressional rep,
Every government worker,
Whatever the jurisdiction,
For every student council,
For the clerk stamping the seal,
For every department...
I apologize on your behalf
For the slanders hurled
And flung like dung
At the men and women who weeped
At the bedsides of the lonely and dying.
Oh the shame.
I apologize for him,
Who will never apologize.
I apologize to the medical profession,
And to all First Responders and Essentials.
Oh the horror... the horror...
Believe me,
We don't believe him.
Nov 1, 2020
Nov 1, 2020 at 8:58 PM UTC