Miss Me

Miss Me Jun 2018

No More

I felt the plunge of it's talons
As it wretched my heart to pieces

The excruciating feeling of the ripping and the tearing of my heart

The sounds of it feeding upon me brought forth the vile in my stomach

I couldn't survive this time! I knew there had to be an end.

No more pain, no more ugly thoughts running rampant in my mind

No more seeking desperately to make it stop!

To just lay down and feel no more is the only thing left that I want!

To know that I was just a crazy woman in everyone's mind matters no more.

To survive this biggest blow, I pray.

#hurt #pain #scared #intense #thoughts #sollace #peace #nonexistent #sorrow

Jun 2018

Traveler

LOGIC AND REASON

Unbridled absolutes
Existentially running free
No one can tell you
What not to believe
Harvest your values
Sharpen your heart
Don't let fears
Tear us apart...

Compassion and mercy
Are known to sustain
Logic and reason
Are one and the same
.....

Traveler Tim

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_JsW1W13fzo&list=RD_JsW1W13fzo&start_radio=1

Miss Me May 2018

Slumber

At times she laid upon her bed
   Daring herself to drift

It was then
   Those  dark, dark slumbers
        Taught just who she really is

Miss Me May 2018

Seasons

How does one survive the turmoil inside
Doubts of oneself that replay on repeat
Crisis created out of truths put aside
Protecting the truth that caused the defeat

Then to learn no norm will ever be built
Never ever will it even be known
Then comes the shame and of course all the guilt
Damaged further and cannot be resewn

Then swept away with another high tide
Raising the same questions left from the past

Then look above for the reason to hide
Answers not given only added to the last
Then fears brought back upon shores of unreason
Living sadness still in another New season

Miss Me May 2018

COWARD

I absolutely know there is something
hiding within me
It lays low in my soul which keeps my spirit at bay
Oh how i keep aching for a different way of life
Yet i cant get loose from its choke hold
On my heart
I could see death in the reflection of myself this morning
And yet still I cant put the
glass down
that keeps that part of me hidden
I plead for it to show itself
So that maybe , just maybe i can get beyond it
I am resisting the urge to rid myself from the creature that refuses to come forward
What a coward it must be for it is not I but IT that preyed upon me
What lays ahead I never know
but hope somehow
It beheads you
YOU COWARD

Please know me

#predator #coward #depression #resistance #anger #hurt #sadness #vulnerability

Miss Me May 2018

Consumed

Consumed for so very long
   With everything about ME

I did not know until
    IT NOW HAS BESEIGED ME

Looking back on my life I see what has hurt me.

#compassion #giving #doing #others #love #peace #listening

Miss Me May 2018

Fire

The fire building inside
   Should cause an alarm

But no one sees
    Nor feels the heat

It rises and grows
    As no one listens

Then finally you'll hear
    There she blows

Some people never hear what is being said. And it could be what would make a difference in this world!

#confiding #listening #talking #admitting #sharing #help #guidance #airing