in order to
pay respect to my
loneliness
i must endure
being lonely
in the most loneliest places
alone.

Let's leave our problems behind.
I'm missing you, just give me 20 sec
and I promise you can go back
to what you left.
I miss your warm
when it's time to winter,
I miss your hot
when it's time to summer,
I miss your face when it's time to fall
cause you know I will always fall
for you again and again;
always the same.
You're my one and only,
my sun and my baby,
my heart and my soul,
my warm when it's cold.

i want,
so much,
you.

un sure,
how if,
no.

seems lost,
maybe understandable,
timing.

cut ties,
keep quiet,
wait.

lose patience,
blame time,
forget.

thinking
and
silence
and
hope.

it's you,
it's you,
it's you.

you're searching for her
in me
and you claim
that your love is as much
but darling,
i see the pools in your eyes
the lies you keep
and then i stop.
i know now
you'll never love me
as much as you
loved her.

so when they tell me i'm pretty
i'd lie
i just don't see the beauty
that lies in mine

Lord,
i feel so far from You.
everytime i try to
reach You
i feel a disconnection
a wall that i cannot break
because i don't have
enough strength
right now.
i feel the world is against me
and my heart is so, so empty
i don't know what to do
i try to run instead of
going through it
Your guidance ;
i feel isolation
in this depth of fear
i won't let it consume me
but it already has.
the pain in my heart
knowing i can't pull it out
the knife stabbed at the back
the blood shedding
all that
my prayers are sent
like an instant text
i feel as if i won't get there
nor get back on track
it's not easy
here me out loud
i feel so far away from You,
Lord,
i need myself back,
now.