The work I do expresses me,
I am a lover at heart as far as you can see,
my friends and family mean the most to me,
my personality shines through every word you read

my inspiration comes from the world around me,
I got my pen and paper,
and the words just come to me,
I write to show my point of view

not because I expect people to care,
but because it helps me be free
the meaning in my work,
is in the soul

but before it was trapped in my heart,
where darkness was in control

I don't need
anyone
but I want
you

you make me
complete
you are- my missing
puzzle piece

I know that I've made
many mistakes
and it makes-
my heart break

but
thank you
for being here
along the way

we will strive
together
I'll always be
by your side

please never leave
my life
I never want
to say good-bye

I know my
insecurities
often get in
the way

but I know
how much
I mean
to you

I know
our love
is true

and I don't
care
what any one else
THINKS

you're the
best thing
that's ever
happened to me

stabbing pain around my wrist
although i swear i hit my fist
ace bandages covering up the mark
when it heals i will be off to a new start

im tempted to use my right hand
it wasn't something that i had planned
i play it off like it was just a joke
but i had finally broke

it hurts even to use my hand to write
my school books aren't even that light
i won't live my life restricted
but that is something everyone would have predicted

It would be best
To go- our separate ways
And if- I didn't know better
I would ask you to stay

All we were doing...
Was living- in the past
I should have known
We'd never last

As I sit here- all alone
I am left- to wonder
About the unknown
And try- to find my way
Back Home.

I was the one
That had your back all of these years
But something snapped inside
I was tired of all the lies

How you'd-
Be with me
Come to me
But

All the excuses
You made
Not to be in my corner
When I needed you the most....

And now I-
let you go
Because it's whats best for you
It's whats best for me

After all the girls-
After all the guys-
I ended up
Right back at your side

But I guess
This is-
what's best

Because
All the excuses
You made
Were just
Getting in the way

Of what is-
Best for you
What is best for me

I'm done
Trying to make
Everyone else
happy
When I'm
Not

"no wonder why
you have no friends"
who said
i ever cared

i would rather
have no friends at all
if all they are going
to do
is stab me in my back

i am not
here for friends
i don't need anyone
but me

you say i
complain too much
you say you
don't complain at all

i look at you
like you are crazy
what do you
think you are doing then?

pretending

you cry to
all your "friends"
you say that
I am being mean

so i confront you
and i tell you
that you are
a hypocrite ..

and of course
you didn't like
what i had to say

so you started
screaming
and said that you could
"take me"

then you
stormed out of the room
into an endless pit
of your lies

i don't have the time

lift your head up little angel,
please don't cry,
please don't let this be our last good bye

don't let the devil ruin your life,
please don't back down-continue to fight,
know that you can lean on me,
and take my hand when you need somebody

don't let these people bring you down
never let them turn your life around
you mean so much to everybody
because all I want is for you to be happy

see a smile on your face,
know that you can last through any day,
just be strong,
and know that you belong

Monday-i am green, bored, and sick wanna hide and never return,
Tuesday- I am orange. Better and thankful,
Wednesday- I am yellow .as bright as the sun,
Thursday- I am pink. Love in my heart,
Friday- I am blue as something went wrong,
Saturday- I am white white. as blank as the snow drifting down from the sky,
Sunday- I am purple. eager for the next week

Lift the
Weight off your shoulders
Make ammends
With your mistakes

Today is the start
Of a brand new day
And I plan on taking
Your breath away

Live life
To its' fullest
Don't surrender
To your fear

Because fear is
The devil in disguise
All he wants
Is to make you cry

Let God
Open the gates of your heart
Because this
Is a brand new start

I wish I could read the thoughts with in your mind,
Knowing that they hurt you makes me die inside,
Your two hearts will connect as one
and will be placed in the hands of the one you love

Dont be afraid to hurt me
ive been hurt plenty before cant you see?
Let my tears be your motivation
let my life no longer be a complication

i am done standing in your way
although I do want you to stay
I do miss the old days
but know that i love you more than i can say

My relationship is
Slowly falling apart
No matter how hard I try
Things never turn out right

They tend to crumble
Then fall

I can’t keep doing this
I keep telling myself
That I am fine

But in reality I’m just
Getting by
One step
At a time

I don’t regret
My decisions
I just want things
To change

But they just haven’t
And he has known
That it has bothered me
For this long

But I am trying
To remain strong

Not going to let this lobe
Just slip away
I am not going to watch
Him walk away

Our pathway is set in stone,
I look back on the past and saw how much I have grown,
but now I look into the eyes of the future,
and as life gets harder I realized that I might need a tutor

let him show me the way,
he will guide me through each and every day,
my future shines so bright,
I just need to step forward and into the light

my enemies won't be able to compete,
because you make my life complete,
I trust you because you do what is right,
and that is how I know that everything will be alright

I have been traveling on a road filled with broken glass,
I think of first but finish last,
getting stabbed left and right,
and deep down inside of me I know things won't be alright

with each cut I get closer to the vain,
a sigh of pleasure I enjoy the pain,
the tears of those I have pushed to the edge,
disappointing; just like the lost hope of a dream you failed to reach

i would let myself die
if i knew everyone would get by
as for now I live in pain
as for my friends; i am glad you came

what do you see when you look in my eyes,
do you see darkness,
or do you see light

do you see an angel,
that soars high in the sky,
or do you see the devil,
hidden in disguise

do you see the nightmares,
that awaken me at night,
or do you see the fantasies,
coated in a bunch of lies

do you see the person,
that I dream to be,
or do you see the person,
that is stuck here in reality

Words can not describe
How I feel
Because this feeling
Seems so unreal

I have never felt
This way before
I have never been so-
Unsure

And every time I see you
My heart beats out of my chest
Because I have
Something to confess

These days I live in depression
******* people off even though it wasn't my intention
Please mother f* tell me what to do
But dont cry if I dont listen because everything doesn't revolve around you

i spend everyday filling in missing pieces
giving lame and useless speeches
i work hard for what i get
my name is Tiffany dont you ever forget

I used to hide my face
felt like i was being replaced
now I stand my ground
and rarely do i back down

I am so tired
Of being- second place
You are never admired
And no one sees your face

I'm tired of others
Being first in your mind
When you knew
I had your back

All this time

But I made one stupid mistake

But that doesn't matter anymore
I already lost this race

Pushed up hard against the glass,
wish you had time to react, it just happened all too fast,
getting hurt left and right,
you feel weak because you can't stand up and fight

too afraid to seek some help,
because you are afraid that the word will get out,
now show them punks what you are all about,
and this time- you won't be afraid to shout

stand up for who you are,
because in life that will get you far,
don't back down and lose that fight,
know that I will be by your side until I know that everything will be alright

The walls I built
Inside my head
A reminder
Of all the things that made me mad

Lack of confidence
Lack of trust
To succeed
Those two things are a must

I will
Out grow my shell
And move to
A bigger hell

Black
And
Blue

No matter- what I do

I can't escape
this madness
I'm being held
Captive

I Tried to break
down these walls
But they're just standing
Up so strong

I tried getting through
But I guess
Nothing
Ever gets through  to you

I can't wait
Till our wedding day
I will be standing across from you
the moment we say our I do's

I'll be wearing blue
when I walk down the aisle
I can't wait to try something new
because I know what we have is true

I will be standing across from you
the moment we say our I do's

you'll see a sparkle in my eyes
give you a kiss every sunrise

starting on the day I make you mine
till the end of time

stop and stare
say what you want to
I'm gonna be me...
I'm just.. gonna be me..

I'm gonna show the world
that I'm worth it
leave em begging for mercy
outside of my.. front door

because I know that
I'm.. Worth.. More...

I'm gonna.. look you in the eyes
.. and say
that
I'm no longer.. afraid

We continue
To live in a sexist world

It does not matter
What any college,  scholarship commitee, or employer says

They are
Always trying to
Improve the ratio
To make it seem
More appealing

But really
We are being
Discriminated against
And cheated
Out of various positions

It shouldn't matter
If I am a male or female
As long as I have
The qualifications
To do my job

I am tired
Of this oppression

I am capable of
Everything and anything
As long as I
Put my heart into it

I am on top of the world
There is no way you can break me-
Down
You are never going to see me- Frown

I will be standing-
With my two feet on the ground
I will be the only soldier
Left on the battleground

Sweat and tears,
A little blood-
Never hurt no-one

This time- I'm not afraid
To get a little *****,
To make you look like a fool

Make you choke on the words
As you say them
Because there is no-
Stopping me now

I'm afraid
That I'll always have to keep holding my breathe
And I'm afraid
That it will be this way
Until my death

I keep having to
Bite my tongue
Because I'm afraid
That fighting will erupt

I keep trying to
Make everyone happy
But I guess that it
Can never be that way

I have a lot of things on my mind
My true happiness
I
Set out to find

Procrastination
An evil
That brainwashes
And is designed to ****

It kills
Hopes and dreams
Of children
Everywhere

Our intentions
Put to the side
Never focused on

So why
Do we get so mad
When things
Don't go our way?

We are set up to
FAIL
but what if
We never try?

he had planned a suprise,
told me but lied,
i knew what was on his mind,
i wish i could hit rewind

i looked him in the eyes,
and told him that i am fine,
we sat in the cafe,
my ex was sitting by

2:24 came as we finished our day,
although i didn't get my suprise I love him anyway

it was 6 at night,
dark, but I watched a fire ignite,
for he was by my side,
my thoughts I could finally let out of the inside

didn't pay attention to where we were going,
because the time was so outgoing,
we walked over 3 miles,
I wish we could have stayed for awhile

he walked me home
I am no longer afraid of the un-known
he hugged me tight
his presence was the highlight of my night

no-one is better than another,
they are so much alike that they could be brother and sister,
the sun shines down on them both,
and side by side you compare their growth

I do not believe that one over powers the other,
both are equals in his eyes,
and if you hear different they are a bunch of lies

people with love them both the same,
although they go by a different name,
both shall be victorious in life,
and together they shall rise side by side

history repeats itself over and over,
and this is where my emotions takeover,
I try to hide the facts,
I dont know when the other Tiffany will be back

pain,sadness,anger
they have me on my knees I surrender,
I regret most of my romantic past,
because Everytime I finish last

I cry myself to sleep at night,
Don't know if I'll be able to fight,
Love is weakness in my veins,
because Everytime it ends in flames


I wish someone could come to my rescue,
but then again that wouldnt be fair to you

but somehow my heart still aches for the food that it loves

Stuck in the last chapter
people looking around thinking,"what happened to her?"
Living in the past
you won't be getting anywhere fast

shoot for the stars
don't take things too harsh
live life with no regrets
don't worry life eventually resets

life is like a song
it plays on and on
except in life dont hit replay
things will always go the same way

Don't take another step backward
I'll be at your side pushing you forward

stuff in tree,
the one who put the blanket around Scout,
longer,
longer,
they stayed,
inside,
he wants to,
he defended Tom,
pretends,
stabbed,
one doesn't have to,
but wants to

3/4 cup of spiders
2 cups of blood
3 packages of worms (alive of course)
1 cup of toe nails
a dash of nose hair
5 pairs of recycled underwear
1 cup of green beans (un-cooked)
2 piles of dog crap
3 cups of toilet water

Order up

Greet each person
With a holy high five
Because through God's touch
You will feel alive

Every stranger leaves-
Their mark on you
And through that mark-
True beauty will shine through

Lift others up
When you are down
Because a helping hand-
Will soon come around

sam: never feeling afraid and alone,
         in this world of the un-known,
         I find trust in you, and a home,
         in this new world I am shown
me:  when I go to sleep at night,
         I have only one thing on my mind,
         how lucky I am to have you,
         after everything that I have been through
sam: the future will be faced together,
         and I will go through it with you- forever,
         your heart is safe with me,
         this love is pure and will always be
me:  I can not imagine life with out you,
        because life is not so easy,
        when you have to face it on your own

The dreary darkness drifts
across the vast blue sky
wispy clouds
travel around
gradually attracting another addition

All but ONE
a lonesome cloud
struggling silently
nobody sees a thing

Bluntly Blinded
they turn the tables
on ONE of their own

the moment you
walked into my life
you gave me
a reason
to..
survive

I'd be
completely
lost
with-out you

so please
don't
ever
leave

All I need is 60 seconds more,
I'll be on my knees at your front door,
I won't let you leave my sight,
I won't let you disappear into the night

I need 60 seconds to explain,
I am not going to let our friendship go down the drain,
too many left before,
these feelings I refuse to ignore

I'm done putting faith in
Back stabbing *******
Who never gave a ****
About me

You never gave a ****
Never gave a ****-
About pretty
little me

Stop pretending that you care
This is not a love affair.
Your love- I shouldn't
Have to share

But you never gave a ****
Never gave a **** -
About pretty
Little me

I am -
Such a fool
Will never be more
Than a broken power tool

i met her about six years ago, she brings me up when i am feeling low, born to two different families, but i still consider you part of my family

we met at this beautiful place,many challenges we had to face,many things we had to cope, but that was all before we met at camp hope

each year something had went wrong, but you always remained strong, i love you my dear friend,i will be by your side to the very end.

Pain surges
through-out my veins
deep down I know
I'm going insane

everyone that could have helped
left me begging on my knees
but then they turn around
and leave

my heart is pumping
blood all over the floor
but you still have the guts
to come back
and ask for more

On the verge
Of bankruptcy,
My blood-
Dark Red
Splattered
Across the
Hard wood
Floor

I don't know
If I can take anymore
Of this pain
Blood shot-
Eyes

If only my book
I could
Revise
But every second
A part of me
Dies

If only I could spend
My last moment
Alive-
Seeing you
Look into my dead
Lifeless eyes