DON'T TELL ME YOU LOVED ME
DON'T ACT LIKE YOU CARE
BECAUSE IF YOU DID LOVE ME
OR CARE FOR MY SOUL
YOU WOULDN'T HAVE GAVE UP
LEAVING ME DANGLING HERE ALONE
DON'T SAY THAT YOU MISS ME
DON'T TRY TO MAKE THINGS BETTER
BECAUSE IF YOU DO MISS ME OR WANTED THINGS BETTER
YOU WOULDN'T HAVE DISSAPPEARED AND MADE ME TRY TO FORGET
I THOUGHT IT WAS DIFFERENT THIS TIME
AND SO I HOPED YOU WERE THE ONE
BUT TURNS OUT YOU LEAVING CAN'T JUST BE UNDONE
-te

You understood me
You made me happy
You made me think things were going to be different this time,
That not all guys leave after a few months,
Not all guys get tired of me
You may have lost feelings, and that is my fault
I'm sorry I'm so broken, it's hard to keep up
I didn't want this to happen
I thought it would be different this time
To have a guy truly love me
To have him care for me
In ways no one else could
For him to show that everything will be okay
And I just have to stay on this earth to see the amazing things
For him to actually make me think about my future positively
With him
For me to think that things get better if I'm with him
My feelings only got stronger over time
And this was a shock
-te

some days I get so bad
so sad
my demons are here
saying hello
their shadows are starting to grow
overcasting me
I need to flee
where else can I go
they are everywhere I look
everywhere I turn
can they all just burn?
moments like this
i sit still
feeling so ill
I am not able to do anything
all i feel is a sting
a tingle
where I want to be hurt
an urge so strong
things become a blur
I try so hard to resist
blast the music
fizz out the voices
focus on anything but it
but there I sit
hands around my neck
feeling like such a wreck
tears falling
like a water fall
I sit there and just bawl..
-te

My hands are cold
And lonely like my soul
My lips are untouched
Craving for a kiss, wanting more
My body itches
Waiting for you to be by my side
My life is dull without you
Because you are the center
And love of my life

n.j.