As I dream
As I write
I'm so glad you say goodnight
Because, well, it makes my day

This is not the world I’ve been dreaming of.

This isn’t right, and it never was.

As it stands, we are broken.

We are confused.

We are lost

And the only unending, other oriented, self-sacrificial feeling we commonly use

Is hate.

Help.

I've never quite been the type
To let it out
But for some odd reason
I want to tell her everything

There is more to life
Than dwelling on the negatives

Without pause
Without flare
It steals itself away
Never to return
And to be all but forgotten

Does she think about me
When we aren't talking?
Because
Well
I know I think
About her

Now I guess I know
How you always felt
...
It *****

I want to tell you I'll miss you
I want to tell you that
You're always on my mind
I wish I could say that
I love any communication with you I can get
And I want very badly to say
I love you
But I can't
Because that would be weird and
It would stress our friendship
Which I don't want to lose

It's been over for a while but
I'm starting to notice
I miss kissing
I don't really want to kiss her again
But it really is a nice feeling

For a second, I had something to look forward to
It was nice while it lasted

I'm not helping myself with my decision
Even if it is the best
I want her but I don't
I only want to be friends but
She really makes me want to kiss her
With that smile and that gleam
She just makes me want to
Explode in happiness
So I don't want to lose that because
Relationships don't usually work out
I don't want to lose our great conversations
Her stories that I could never write
Drawing her characters and bringing them to life
She's so amazing and
I don't want to lose her
Luckily I'm not in a position to be with her
Though that almost makes it
Worse

Never have I had
So many dreams
About one person