I'm better now,
I am,
I've shut off that part of my mind,
No,
Cut off
There are no connections left,
I was not born until,
After.

I'm better now,
I am,
I don't need this mask,
I don't need to hide,
Because all I had to hide is gone,
And my eyes want to see,
Without the blur at the edges,
Of my life.

I'm better now,
I am,
Just don't ask me
Because then I'll snap,
And I won't hesitate,
I will stop your questions,
By any means,
Or any blade.

I am better now,
I am,
Please believe me,
No one else will,
They keep making things worse,
Picking at the wounds I thought were gone,
Forcing me to bleed,
When I thought I was empty.

I was better,
I thought,
Am I still?
I'm not sure,
I really don't know,
But I know one thing:
I am better,
When I'm with friends.

So it finally happened
I saw it coming long ago,
So I utterly snapped
And the fall came to a stop.

My glass heart broke
Into a thousand shards and pieces,
Not to be put together again
Not while its spark of light it misses.

And so I felt it:
The apprehension of my chest, the silent horror screams,
Everything going dark, and my transparent despair tears.

Nothing novel here of course
The common fate of things delicate,
Left unguarded and exposed
In this night so desolate.

And there is nothing left to burn
Nothing now inside remains,
Only ashes black and white
That for a while will not ignite,
And the void inside my chest
That ***** life and light and flesh.

None of this her fault is
All the blame is on me,
I plunged into love's abyss
Enchanted by its melody.

Perhaps that's what hurts the most
Having no one else to blame,
I can't escape my dreamy coast
And must endure alone the shame.

So my heart broke today
And I had no one there to hold,
So shall I wander astray
And for a while be alone.