I saw you again and it reminded me of a time
When we were still friends
And we said we didn't need anyone else
Because we had each other.
But here we are so far away from where we started
Almost as if we had never started to begin with.
What hurts a little,
And to be honest what hurts the most
Is that we have to act like nothing is wrong
But everything is wrong and we know it
We don't show it but we feel it
And as you and I say good bye my voice waivers with hesitation
Because I didn't want you to leave and
I believe you didn't want to go.

Such a common trend
I could've been daddy's little princess but you left mommy out in the rain
when you found out 1 2 and 3 were on their way
you didn't even flinch
but everything's okay
see she made sure I never needed you
worked multiple jobs just to afford a smile or two
and when she had to leave
we were never afraid, because she wasn't like you
I didn't mind your absence but why'd you leave the black & blues?
no longer visible on her skin but emotionally they'll always live
and truthfully, that's the only reason I resent you
because when your name is mentioned I simply ask:
dad Who?
see I never asked questions like "where is he?"
because you made sure I never met you
and at my high school graduation the headcount was perfection
now I understand why some children are actually lucky when they're born to one parent instead of two
After all,
what kind of princess would want to live in a castle with a daddy like you?

I gave you my best, it was belittled
perhaps expectations were held too high
Perhaps
actions were performed too slow
but it was not enough
Perhaps I wasn't either
Well, someday that isn't today/wasn't yesterday and might not be tomorrow
you will remember
those times I asked you to stay
days I acted busy
nights where sleep was absent
I am sorry
for
anything and everything
but one day I will be gone
Aside from your thoughts and mind I -
will be gone forever.
and I just wonder if you'll remember
how much I loved the rain,
why I didn't have a favorite song or-
how my favorite color always changed
but I don't want you to cry or reminisce
you take all your memories and go home
for I was too sorry
And you were too late