#perfectionism poems on Hello Poetry

Sunny May 2018

I get mad when I get 80s on tests.
Or when I barely scrape by on an assignment grade.
It makes me feel weak. Or dumb.
Almost like I’m not trying. Almost like I’m not applying myself.

I can do better, I know that!
I could’ve studied more. I could’ve read more.
I could’ve done more.
I could’ve tried harder.

But, in the end, these things just get me down.
I did try. I did do my best.
After all, nobody’s perfect, right?
And that’s okay.

#perfectionism #performance #grades

cleann98 Apr 2018

Aesthetics

In her world everything had to be perfect from head to toe. Until she met the man who was so and so.

She wanted to accept him but the gravity was far too much. She could never fall for someone as sloppy as such.

So he tried again, this time training, whipping himself to perfection. Time then passed by, and he was too 'normal' to catch her attention.

#perfectionism

Debanjana Saha Mar 2018

Perfectionism anxiety

Hi dear
perfectionist anxiety
A monster who craves for me
I said I no longer love you
You make my life miserable
To reach to a point
Where I belong nowhere.

Believe me,
I never love to be
Release me
I am better off without you
I would love to be free
Let me go, please!

The perfectionist anxiety hits me everyday
In each of my step. No wonder I would never want to be how I am. Let me go and live in ☮️.

#perfectionism #anxiety #letgo

H Phone Jan 2018

Phantoms

...I got my writer’s spirit amputated a year back

Doctor Perfectionism said it was a lost cause
Dead weight
Heavy like an anvil resting on my brain
The anvil of the hardy wordsmith I used to be

Nurse Inspiration was the one who removed it
With a scalpel
Sharp like a fox’ teeth plunged in my head
The fox that used to whisper clever plays on words to me

Mortician Motivation buried it deep underground
In a coffin
Shut like the gateway to my mind now is
The gateway that used to unroll a red carpet in front of my feet

For all intents and purposes, it should be gone
I would never write another word
But then what is this feeling?
This itch?
This urge?

Is it phantom pain?

I was on the brink of giving up writing altogether. Frustration after frustration came and went. I thought my writer's spirit was gone, but it never truly left.

#phantom #pain #writer #spirit #perfectionism #inspiration #motivation

Luna Maria Dec 2017

Perfectionism.

Do you know that voice, always yelling at you? That voice from inside your head? The voice yells the worst insults.
Try to fight it, but you'll never win, because the voice knows all of your weaknesses. It's made by your worst enemy, you can never defeat.
Yourself.
Try to ignore, but the voice is sneaky, and will come at the most unexpected moments. It will break through the silence. To break you.
Try to escape, but the voice will always follow you, wherever you go. And it will never stop, until you break under the pressure.
Try to stay strong, but the voice keeps yelling until you start to believe.
The voice is done when all the lies become truths. Then the scariest part begins, when the voice stops yelling and starts whispering:

"You aren't good enough."

Do you hear that voice too?

Perfectionism can be very hard. Never underestimate.

#perfection #perfectionism #anxiety #voice #lonely

RisingUp Oct 2017

Explore

Perfectionism's fine dancer
I am no more

That is not what I was put on this earth for

I am not here
to ace every test,
to always get 100,
to always be the best.

I am here to experience
Life's ups and downs
To fall flat on my face
To fall ******* the ground

To make mistakes
But still learn
To discover who I really am
For that I truly yearn

Life is not linear
It should not be overthought
Trying to perfect it
Your brain starts to rot

Depression sinks in
Lose yourself in a fog
Lose joy, lose yourself
in a suffocating smog.

Alas I surrender
I shall fight no more
A world with so much to find
So much more to explore.

#perfectionism #depression #release #explore

RisingUp Oct 2017

Changing Aspirations

She thought she had it all figured out.
Biology and psychology, with no doubts.

But alas
Her greatest fear
Became a reality
In third year

Trying to change
the meds she was on
Sent her in a spiral
Her personality was gone.

Crumbling into tears
Each and every day
Not understanding
How things could turn out this way

The world seemed dull
Full of despair
She couldn't concentrate
Every breath a gasp for air

She questioned the point
of university at all
Questioned her program
Her world became small

Thankfully her parents
Lent a caring hand
They were the only ones
Who could sort of understand

Things are improving
Slowly I'm afraid
Still questioning her program
And the decisions she has made.

Veering off the pursuit of perfection
One goal still in mind
To make it through undergrad
Further aspirations left behind.

#perfectionism #depression #change

Broken Arpeggio Sep 2017

Hate To Heal

Dear God...
I hate to be bothersome
However, I could use a bit of clarity down here
Trying to assimilate your will has become
   quite cumbersome
So, are there exceptions to the rules you
   meant for us to adhere?
"Hate the sin but not the sinner",
Was ingrained within an impressionable
   mind
Depraved acts forced my soul to splinter
Leaving painful shards that shook my faith
And allowed darkness to stand at my side
If loathing cannot happen and forgiveness is a
   must
I fear my heart is amiss
For it is seething with pain and disgust
A fate sealed by an excruciating kiss
I want to hate the few that tortured my
   being
Detest the cruelty within their adolescent
   eyes
To forgive them is something I have no
   interest in needing
Seeking only the solace from my weariness to
   despise
Please do your bidding,
If enlightenment is the key
Take me from blindness to sight
Stop me foreboding over doing the forbidden
Releasing the anguish in order to heal and
   rise

Healing, as it is in recovery, is not a linear process. For a perfectionist, this is HELL! There are many ups and downs, twists and turns, good days and extremely ****** ones...Allowing yourself to feel and accept ALL OF IT, without judgment is part of the process!

#ed #anorexia #recovery #ptsd #anxiety #healing #perfectionism #dark #assault #survivor