there are  secrets
you'll never know
gifts  that you give me
thougths that melt me
they ‘re only for me
they 're mine
I retain them jealously
they make me feel special
make me the only one ...
there are secrets
you'll never know
because when
- oblivious -
you ‘ll stop
giving me these  precious drops of you
my pain
it will be a secret
you'll never know

Those were the days
We saw each other each day
Things change, people change but pictures remain the same

All those little things you said
I think of them and they make me think
Is there a part of the story I misread?

Laying on my bed, all lights off
I look outside the window
See nothing but fog
Just like the weather, our relation seems hazy

I told you to love me
only if you can stay
only if you can learn to stand still and not drift away
Don't turn out to be like others
After all, people they come they go

I told you people always leave
You promised me you'd stay
Now there's no sign of you
I can't believe

I'm fragile that you know
Please tell me our love didn't outgrow
I'm only as weak as I am strong
Our friendship was supposed to last lifelong

Regardless of what you did
Just know that I love you oh
Maybe loving you was stupid
I'm dying inside but I'm putting up a show

We'd go to the gym, cook and eat together
We'd chill, we'd laugh, there was no pressure
Where did the good times go?
Now I look at your picture and just miss you so

Trying so hard to figure out
What went wrong,
My heart is filled with doubt
Asking myself why don't we hang out?
We really used to get along

So I say, come back and let's live again
Let's laugh until the end
Come back and let's start over
So much left to learn, so much to discover

So I say, come back cause I miss you
Life ain't the same without you
Let's stay up until 2 am
Cause you're the breath that I breathe from the bottom of my diaphragm

You fail to see I'm hurting from the looks in my eyes. If I tell you I'm fine you should know thats a lie. You clearly can't notice that I'm screaming for help and my heart is broken. So I put on a smile to disguise the pain. I cant even describe how I feel. Its more like a sound, the sound of a constant rain. It beats hard against windows thumping much like my tears. Hoping for the sun to push the clouds away and fill the sky with cheers. But that won't happen because I'm to far hurt for any repair. You fail to notice my life is in despair. Why can't you see? Im slowly dying won't you help me

She was laying in his arms
the day she gave him her heart
He said he would keep it forever
and he gave her his.

Little did she know
nothing lasts forever.

He told her I love you,
I will always be there
She believed him.

Little did she know
nothing lasts forever.

Time passed
Disagreements
Fights
She still loved him
and was always there.

Little did she know
nothing lasts forever.

He ripped her heart
tore it apart
and left her
in broken pieces.

Now she knows
nothing lasts forever.

Don't fall into toxic waste,

Chasing Bad Boys will be your main race,

and the pieces of your broken heart await you at the finish line.

You were so beautiful,
So beautiful, that you broke
My fragile heart in two.

And here's two halves of me
Loving all the versions of you.

I granted you a pardon, love ~
I smashed open the lock ~
And threw away the key ~
I granted you freedom ~
To love me again ~
With one condition ~
To our unconditional love ~
That when lips parted ~
Only the truth would spill forth into my mouth ~
But you broke your probation, love ~
You speak of it with vengeance ~
But find it so difficult to tell ~
So I boarded up my heart again ~
I nailed it quite shut ~
And now I grant you nothing, love ~
Because now all that I can do ~
Is grant freedom to myself ~

Copyright Tia Jane Fajardo

My Star,
They've stolen it from me
Grabbed it,
Robbed it,
Without mercy or respect..
They just took it
Ripped me open and they stole my star
Without my star, the dark will consume me
It will tear into my flesh, fill my resolve
Oh... My dear, please,

I beg you, please bring my Star back...

my heart is still bleeding.
the only thing separating my love,
its useless existence.
still beating.
this miserable being here.
still breathing.
when I only wanted my lungs to collapse,
I've waited so long for my last.
and it's ever fleeting.
a distant hope,
this breath may be choked
by this rope I dangle from.
untangle these heart strings to knot their beating.
love pooled on the floor in the stilled bleeding.
once again, silence.
love, forever sleeping.

What would you do if I said I missed you?
Would you laugh?
Cry?
Scream at me?
I wouldn't be surprised, honestly.
Nor would I blame you.
Because of all the people in the world, the world's biggest train wreck chose YOUR heart to shatter.
Not once.
Not twice.
Not even three times.
But four.
Over and over again.
If you wonder how someone could do that to someone, it's not because I wanted to.
It's not that I was waiting for you to fall in love with me for me to destroy you in a different way every time.
It's that even if I give my heart a thousand chances, it'll break itself a thousand times.
It's that I was and am confused by my mind enough to hurt those around me and for that I am sorry.
I don't think I could apologize enough for you to believe me for a fifth time,
because darling I'm the girl who cried wolf and I always will be.
I may want something but *******
I'm too scared to follow through with anything and I see that now.
Not saying I didn't see it before but oh god do I see it now.

And with my monologue complete for now I bid you farewell.
And I apologize that I'm such a train wreck.