I have this
increasingly annoying
affliction with affection.

I'm sorry if my
insularity doesn't comprehend your sincerity,
I've just had the actions of others be
catalytic to the inner cynic
in me.

I try to push myself to feel
an inclination, but it ends in agitation
instead.

I've realized it's
unfortunately an idiosyncrasy
of mine, though I hope to someday come across a
carrefour in life where I'll find my paramour
who will understand.

I frequently fall with infatuation
Facing assaults of accounts and allegations
Precursored by overwrought thoughts of the distraught
That they, the piqued and pained, were aware of my plot

Harm I intended, only fuelled by lust
Being insensitive and callous is but a must
For I, the brutish devil who led you astray
Have left you enveloped in utter dismay

I dismantled your faith and replaced it with doubt,
With this symbol of mine that carries much clout,
Leaving my victims mourning in tears
For I have give veracity to their fears
The tears of my prey fabricate a rivers flow
That only I, the acccursed Aquarius may know

The Earth is my friend
but she's not my mother.
Together we heal and work to mend.

I don't recognize the features of these
  people,
the way they think and react,
their need to destroy to create.

I'm not above,
I'm simply seperate.
A marble among a puzzle.

I stare at the stars
and sincerely feel
I was never meant to be here.

Like air,
my presence is gentle and quiet.
Yet I am temperamental;
from breezes to gusts,
from gusts to whirlwinds -
a turbulence derived from perceived planes.

Still, I stand before you,
eccentricity that does not deviate from its kind manifest.
And with this golden cup,
I will rain upon you from the heavens above,
cleansing the earth.

I am Aquarius.

I can't go into the city
It reminds me of you
Your voice haunts my footsteps
The sights bring butterflies back to my stomach
And when evening comes, my heart can barely contain its excitement
At the thought of seeing you
It becomes incensed
So to cool it down
I think of your demeanor towards me
When I knew it was falling apart
I go back to that moment
When you bridled my passion
And my will submitted to yours
I think of the disdain with which I perceived you regarded me
Not her again
Is what I imagined you said
Every time your phone lit up
But really, I just wanted you to feel the love you deserve
This is my curse
Always giving, never receiving
Like the water bearer that is my sign
Aquarius in the sky
Water heals,
Why couldn't I have tried harder

Going back to those streets takes everything I have
I must not cry
But I can't, I don't know if you are everything to me
But I sure as hell wanted to find out
Why do I mourn that, which I never had

I never meant anything to you
Admit it

But you had the potential to be my whole world

But I know now , that to try giving you what you need
You would have to be as willing as me

And so I continue to pour out love waiting for you to catch it