Where people don't know how to love
   They can't meet and laugh
      You neither eat nor Starve
You can no longer command nor serve
     Hades:there are no towns no a reserve
      You can't beg cause you can't give
     The only place you can't tell the truth and can't deceive
      You will not die cause you don't conceive
     It's a home we all deserve
Cause our manners we preserve

I like this me better
The me who doesn't know how to act
Whether to act too old but look too young
I have no idea
It's very painful but i still like it
especially when the are yelling,
"what is with your dressing?"
but also saying,
"use your senses, you know more than this"
I'm obliged to act older but not look older
I think it is my fault I grew up quickly
Too quickly
Or maybe my surroundings were too mature for me.
I don't know who to be

i stare
and i stare
my eyes are burning
but i can’t look away
from my safety
i can’t live in the moment
i’m so scared
i won’t admit it to anyone’s face but
i’m drowning in fear and loneliness
i have no good friends
people look at me as a conversation topic, not as a person
it might always be this way
and that’s what scares me the most

I know inside this is right
Still it feels so wrong
I am sitting here all alone
Believing its where I belong

Wouldn't my mother be so proud
To see what I have become?
Hidden behind hurt and unhappiness
Shut off from **** near everyone

I will listen to this music
Smile and I'll lie
Show how strong I can be
I just want to cry

I am too afraid to reach out
Try and take somebody's hand
When it is an impossibility
They could ever understand