my heart is no longer gold
i've grown cold
its not in my control
and it isn't something i can remold

i miss you marceline
a girl of the night,
a vampire, sharp teeth shining white
though the biggest fright
you gave me was when you left my sight
i spent so long waiting for you to come back and make it alright
its been so long, im almost used to being on my own, but not quite

im all alone, and i wish you would miss me
come back, hold me, kiss me
bring me bliss
dont leave me in this abyss
but this is just one old wish youll never dismiss

How can one attain
The sheer beauty that flows through your veins
The speckles of perfection found within your brain
The blessing everything you touch gains
The mere thought of your allure drives me insane
You've robbed me of my heart, in comparison everyone else is plain

My darling on my mind every day of the week
Show me the inside of your mind, give me a peek
Your thoughts, your eyes, your secrets, all unique
You're the one thing I seek
Giving color to my life, once bleak
My heart stopped the first time I heard you speak

This world is yours, in your hands
All the water, all the sand
All the people residing on the worlds land
All simply your knights, at your command
Giving us hope, the only one who understands

Through starry skies,
And butterflies,
Sweet white lies,
And your bright eyes,
Loving you - And it's likewise

Standing out with you in the snow,
Watching the bright moon glow
Here with me through all my woes
Held my hand through all my lows

My love for you will forever show,
And I know you already know

Slow and steady, It's time,
I'm ready

In the life thats fallen to pieces
I'll find my peace

Day after day
my days just replay
I feel led astray
Even though the routine never sways
This isn't how things will stay

I'm not happy now, I'm not sad
Neither happy, mad, nor glad
But I guess this ending is pretty bad

i wake up wanting to go back to sleep
cause my dreams have a version of us i can't keep

i go through my days, filled with dread
you're the cause of those thoughts in my head

i'm fake i'm fake i'm fake i'm fake
i fell stupid lies every minute i'm awake
and i'm sorry, it makes my heart ache
i'm careless no matter whats at stake
this is a stupid habit i can't shake

i don't know why i do this, through and through
i know this is something i don't have to do
but really not even i know what's true

Why did I do this?
I sit and ponder.
In this life, I can't help but wonder.
Why did I do this?
I look out the window, seeing rain and thunder.
Why did I do this?
Unworthy of the roof I'm under.

i knew it was coming
the moment you begun
i knew you were about to tell me
that this was done
i knew this
yet i was stunned
despite our differences
i still thought you were the one
but i realize i was the only one
who thought that

it cuts through me
again and again
it bleeds out
and it doesnt help

now i dont know what to say
i hope this isnt the place im going to stay
but either way
i know some day
the end will come, the same
and i can tab out of this game

ill get through this without you
by myself, i can do the things we used to do
blink by blink, ill change my view
drop by drop, i repaint myself after you made me blue

What is life? I wondered since I was child
Young I was, lighthearted and wild
Into adolescence, of course, that part of me was defiled
Later, there I was, solemn and less than mild
I gazed my eyes upon you and instantly I was beguiled
And that was the first time since then that I finally smiled

On a calm night in October,
I finally became sober,
And realized it was over.

I wanted to take it back,
My regrets stacked

Go back to the early days,
And hand and hand we'd stay

But waiting for you,
The days go by,
You never came,
I never wondered why.

It's not as if there was a final blow,
I always knew you left me long ago.

you tell me theres things money cant buy
and thats right,
but can you tell me it isn't a delight,
to be surrounded by all the things you like?

and aah
usually i'm empty
usually i want things to end
the stupid little things i buy are the
things that prevent me
from feeling that way again

things that feel?
things that are real?
things with a heart that you can steal?
things with hidden motives they conceal?
i don't see the appeal
it's not my ideal

A feeling that usually comes to me at night
Disappears in the morning along with the light
I'm alone and I think about how you're no longer in my sight
Remember when things were all alright?
Remember the words we used to write?
My memories come back in black and white

I know I need to let go
But doing that, I've been so slow
I can only pray that some day I will, though

But that's something I can't know for sure
Maybe my wounds will never be cured

To all the feelings that overflow
The years we spent together, we let things grow
Your warm brown eyes seemed to glow

I can't take things back
Everything is now off track
Things were fragile, things got cracked

If I had known that day
Would make everything turn out this way
You know I would change every word I would say
You know I wouldn't ever want to lead us astray
I didn't know how much my words would weigh

Now, I have so many words on my mind
All for you, all one of a kind
Now I can just hope you're out there, doing fine
My wishes are something the angels have declined
Never again will the stars align
I'm sorry I was so unkind

Loving you was worth a try
Now we let everything die
But we're in the same world, looking at the same sky
I'm sorry, my dear, goodbye

My life was once more duller
My list of reasons to be happy was much smaller
And then I met you, so filled with colour

At first, I didn't know
Should I try to let these feelings go?
Show I let my true emotions show?
The choice wasn't mine, though
Every day, I felt them grow
Every time I think of you, I feel them glow

Now, I go through my days with you on my mind
You're something I never want to leave behind
And maybe if the stars align
I'll find a future where I'll call you mind

there are so many words i want to write
a lot i want to say to you every night
with you in it, my future is bright
despite myself, my worries are slight
i never want you out of my sight
every moment with you is a highlight

now i can't say this any other way
i want you to stay with me every day
saying this was something i delayed,
but why would i? my feelings won't stay
i love you

frozen heart locked away in a kingdom of ice
if you could come back to my side that'd be quite nice
even though i took every piece of advice
nothing i did was precise

why marianne
why

with me for so many hours
she liked baths more than showers
she ate her gummies sour
how'd i give her all this power

do you think my love is real
do you think i should let society tell me how i feel
do you really think ill give up when things arent ideal

by now my doubts have died
i think if we both tried
we could stay side by side

its something ive thought through
which is something i rarely do
how you make me feel is new
and its something i could get used to

ive let go of the part of myself
that convinced me not to get close to anyone else

now you have this place in my heart
youve had right from the start

i like it when you look my way
usually in the same spot, here i stay
waiting for you to notice me, another day
waiting for you to talk to me, get rid of the grey
how do i tell you all these things i cant say
so sorry, so sorry for this delay