I feel a little lost, but that’s okay
I can make it another day
But everyday I wake I am in this room of white walls and I need room to breathe
But no one will let me out, no one will set me free

Instead I fight to maintain what makes me smile.
This fight has been going on for a while
Always afraid if I let go I’ll lose even more
I don’t have much else left to take in store

I know I mess up, I know I fail
But if I didn’t succeed to fail, I’ll always fail to succeed and prevail
Though the costs are so much, And there’s not much more they can take
Cause I’ve broken so much from my own mistakes

But now I need room to breathe, I really do!
Trust me these white walls would drive you crazy too!
I almost prefer the strict ways of Aurora to this, for at least they let me leave the room.
And there’s so much to do there that I don’t contemplate how I will meet my doom.

But I need room to breathe cause this life is suffocating.
Sitting at a desk with my work done, I stay waiting.
This is no life for someone my age.
Everyone else is out in the world exploring and finding their place.

Yet here I sit, empty and alone. My heart beat beginning to fade.
Wishing they would hear me and the words in which I say
But their parental instincts say locking me up is best.
Keeping me from the world that “I can’t handle” and telling me to rest.

I’m done resting for sleep is driving me mad!
My sweet dreams have now all gone bad.
My body is screaming, telling me it needs out.
And for now the only thing I can tell it is not to shout.

I need room to breathe or I’ll die from loss of breath
And that to me is not a peaceful death
But it’s ok, I understand
I guess I did get locked away by my own hand………

I’ll cut your throat and bleed you out
Go ahead and scream and shout
My rage won’t cease, this time you’re dead
If I were you I’d never go to bed.
I’ll eat your flesh and burn your bones
Hang your head and pelt it with stones
Drive a knife deep through your heart.
I’ve hated you from the start
Threatening me will get you nowhere
Try to stop me is my only dare.
Keep coming at me with words of hate
I’ll give you another topic to debate
Should you live or should you die
It’d be wise to not speak a lie
Your words will be your end and your tears will not be seen
My fake smile was always my greatest crime scene

Silver is the backup in case gold fails to shine.

Walking around with low self esteem.
Living life as though it's a dream
Not seeing others with her eyes.
Trying to figure them out and sort their lies
But every time she loses the game
Every accident turns out the same.
Over estimating the kindness of others is her flaw
No one can figure out why she never talks about what she saw
Falling down, she is troubled by stupidity
Locked inside her brain, such thick humidity
Causing a fog that blinds her from reality
Once again she is trapped in her path
Feeling these feelings that cause such a wrath
That she feels the need to end her life
Despite her promises of leaving her knife
These feelings grow stronger everyday.
Never shown through the words she has to say.

I watched my blood drizzle down the drain
No more suffocation, no more pain
And there is one thing that I would like to say
Right before my life has fade away
Baby, life is too slow, slow
Baby too slow
If I left no one would ever know
Baby now I must die, die
Baby I’ll die
Don’t you worry cause nobody will cry
So someday God will leave us all behind
Or maybe that’s just Satan in disguise
Either way he’ll leave before our eyes
Taking with him all our lies
Because baby life is too slow, slow
Baby too slow
If I left no one would know
Baby now I must die, die
Baby I’ll die
Don’t you worry cause nobody will cry

In my dreams I see her face
With each stride I see her beauty and grace
When she passes through the hall
I feel my heart begin to fall
I know when she looks at me
That's as close as we will ever be
It's been one dark year
And the more I follow her the more I fear
My heart will break when she's gone cause she never saw my love
I wish I could ask the skies above
Why memories of her can't be real
And why she can't feel the way I feel
But I guess I'll just have to let her pass
Cause hopefully my love for her won't be a love that lasts.....

Blue hair, ripped jeans
That's just one style of the scenes
Black dress, red eyes
People judge based on lies
Green hair, pierced up lips
When I see them, my heart skips
My friends are the odd ones out
When told to be silent they are the ones who shout
You can't hold them back cause they are free
I love them cause they're like me
If you fight one you fight us all
And don't be shocked if you fall ;)

I am realizing I seem to be a toy
Passed on from boy to boy
Told I'm loved by one, then by many
None of them meant it, not any
I am just a doll that is a common interest for no more than a second
I feel like my sanity is being threatened
I have feelings, but then I don't, confused and hurt by each guy
Driven by a passion to believe each and every lie
I want to be loved and that's why I follow
But left here in a puddle of my own tears I shall wallow
Till the next guy walks bye with his sweet word
Only to yet again cause my mind to flutter like the wings of a bird
Believing yet again that he could be the one
Just to break up the next day, week, month to see that we are done
A toy I am and a toy I shall be
And if it continues, these boys will see
When you break a toy there is a consequence
And I will burn the memory of myself in their conscience

Echoing screams are no louder than soft whispers when drowned out beneath a mouth full of cotton.
Once, a heart with a shell of gold had been chipped away to show the ****** beating interior beneath in which is now rotten.
A kind smile that once danced across the lips of a warm hearted angel reflects in a broken china doll.
A dear young child who had her dreams crushed and had been taken away from it all.
A cold blade glistened brightly against the pale color of the room.
How was this young angel supposed to know her cry for help would lead her to her doom.
A broken heart is one, the shattering of her heart is another.
So many new types of pain is what she would soon discover.
It was such a lonely day in which was mine.
The kind of loneliness that puts together a work of pain and agony that is so divine.
This day is one that should have been banned….
This day is one I cannot stand
So let the lies slip through the teeth of trusted guides
And see the crimson that creeps beneath the one door in the house in which misery hides.
For lies do more than rip the heart, they take innocence and soil it to its core.
A beautiful young angelic soul exists in this child no more.

Crimson colored lips stain a pale and sickened face
Upon her heart is the word ‘disgrace’
Shunned for her sins, loved for her flaws
Loved in a sense of voice, but her physical form unleashes claws
Eyes are like dagger, harsh against her skin
Too many judgemental stares, too many wonder where she has been
Fighting a battle within she tried to walk tall.
Making herself false promises about how it would get better, how she could end it all.
All the pain and suffering, all the hate and rage.
But what kind of fool believes they could break a steel cage?
Steel does not bend, nor does it break.
She should have stayed silent, she should have kept low for her own sake.
But she spoke up, seared by her own pain.
Now the truth was unleashed, and it left a cruel blood stain.
Not her own blood, but that of an old friend.
She’d never forgive herself for not being there for him in the end.
The last words whispered were that of a fight.
Echoing like screams all through the night….
That one moment changed it all.
She lost her wings and was destined to fall.

Hey let's play a game!
Post a video on the internet of it just for the fame!
Or maybe, let's play for fun.
And in the end we'll see who has won.
How about some Black Ops, maybe Resident Evil?
Or how about some Conker's Bad Fur Day multiplayer? Cause we can both be robber weasels.
I really like pokemon, also it's all about that Mario.
The greatest character in Mariokart is always going to be Wario!
I'd love to fight you on some Tekkon 6
But maybe I'll let you pick the game, or we could just draw sticks.
So here I made a little cup filled names of different games.
Just draw one Popsicle stick, and see which one of the names is on it.
That way we make this quick and easy
And can get back to our videogames!

It washed away, just like the impossible dreams of a child....

Who are you with your fictitious smile and your blood stained teeth?
Hiding a back stabbing dagger beneath a pitiful sheath….
The condescending words from your sharpened tongue will one day end your ignorant gloat
For one’s sharpened tongue can cut their own ****** throat
A spawn of hell, a being of Lucifer himself
A man not interested in true love, but lust and wealth
Greed is a sin more deadly than others, for it will drive you to **** without recognition
For greed is a state of want beyond the explanation of its definition
Yet here I stand, but not for much longer, for I feel as though I may fall
Because you, a cruel demon, have stolen, my life, heart and all…
How did I find myself infatuated by a nature in which I cannot relate?
Even if I tried to lose my feelings for you, it is already too late.
A kiss on the lips was all it took….
To end up with a story you would find in a book.
A love had once been found in us, one that we both know should never happen again.
If it were to be on a scale of disaster, I would give it a ten.
There was so much violence, so much pain.
So many feelings we tried to contain.
So much lust, you lost control.
And placed a fear in my heart I had never known.
You tried to protect me but couldn’t grab my hand
And I fell down hard and was unable to stand.
Instead of staying by my side you left, a dagger in your pocket as you walked away.
Who would have known I was to learn you cheated on me the next day.
My best friend died, a bullet to the chest, burning my heart as it was.
Just to learn you had betrayed me because of a fight I had caused.
I’m sorry for worrying, I apologize for my love
I will always be reminded of my mistake of choosing to love a demon by the gods above….

Why so serious?
Learn to take a joke!
Like a pencil disappearing,
I'll make you laugh so hard you'll choke!

If my jokes don't make you laugh I can at least make you smile.
Just look at mine, it'll never fade away!
I'll just take this pretty knife to your face,
And you too can smile everyday!

Oh hush dear officer, if it makes you feel better I'll tell you how I got mine.
My daddy told me one day to "put a smile on my face" but he did it for me.
And since then now my smile's wide and my eyes shine.
Besides officer, at least you'll live! (For now that is)

Oops, haha sorry, I didn't mean to cut you there
Officer you move a lot. But if you want random cuts, I don't care.
Just as long as I can still give you that pretty smile,
That I know, will last for a while
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
~Love the Joker

I wonder constantly as I sit alone
About the things inside me that have been shown
The foul feelings of compassion in which I wish to hide
The love may be gone but my lust has not died.
Lex now hates me, so do you.
No need to deny it, my family does too.
Everyone I know hides their disgust behind kind smiles.
For such disappointment follows me for miles.
Tear up this beating monstrosity locked within this withered bone cage.
Unlock the hinges upon my mind and allow the full force of my rage
Cut the strings in which control my life
Or I shall cut them with the blackened blade of death’s knife

The howl you hear, what do you sense?
A sound of sorrow, anger, arrogance?
Well, I howl to sing a song in which states how I feel in my heart.
Many humans confusing me as a beautiful monster from the start.
I am no simple creature of chaos, as many have depicted. I am a creature of grace and balance.
Some humans attempt to study my kind to learn our talents.
But none will ever quite get us right, for we have secrets of our own.
None would ever guess what type of things a wolf has been shown.
If it were not for our belief of blood, we would die one by one.
Because our pack is a family that cannot be undone.
A bond between us, igniting us in joyous song
As our paws leave marks upon the path in which we race along.
Leaving a mark in history it is us who befriended you.
So why is it that humans can choose to take our lives too?
I am a wolf who lives by a code.
I am a wolf of which legends are told.

Beautiful and elegant is this beast
Often found within the forests off to the east
His eyes so dark like pools of rain
I wonder if he will show himself again
Power behind his paws, determination within his eyes
His fur so long and wild, the ultimate prize
I love him so much, I really do quite like him
But I fear the closer we get, his future becomes more dim
For I envy his gift, I want his spirit so bad!
It's all I crave, even if it was the only I could have.
I'd trade him my life it it were an option
But life doesn't work like an auction
So I'd have to steal it to have it, despite my love
Once I take it, he'll return to the heavens above.
My greed is speaking loud and clear.
So loud that he must be able to hear.
Yet there he sits with his glowing eyes
As though he does not care in whose hands his body lies.
So with a rifle I take aim.
And take his life, his body mine to claim.
I'm sorry dear wolf, I feel much shame.
For I do not wish to soil your name.
In honor for your courage and giving me your life.
I will not bring towards your body a jagged knife.
Pride is not the feeling I receive
Anger in guilt is what it is, I believe.
Dear wolf, I say this to you as a friend
I will never **** another ever again......

Crying herself to sleep, there she lies
No one there to hear her cries
No one to whom her soul ties
Left alone in her mind until she dies

A little girl who feels so used
An innocent child in which men abused
Leaving her in tears upon her knees confused
To be happy she soon refused

Paranoia and fear filled her mind
Her self conscious soon to unwind
Leaving all her sanity behind
As they watch the horror of her life rewind

A dagger in her hand
This is her last stand
Release is what she wished to demand
All just to die by her own hand

Go ahead, write me a letter with your tears
Tell me how I have only enhanced your fears
Of waking up alone, with no one by your side.
Maybe I'd still be there if you wouldn't have lied.
Truth is, I love you, even if you hurt me.
But I left you because you proved we weren't meant to be.
You say you miss me and that you want me back under your arm.
But how can I believe it when every girl you randomly kiss causes harm
To my heart, because you act like you couldn't be better without me there
You played me for a fool, and stripped my heart bare
I don't think I want to love again because I truly am a fool
Falling for you... you monster who tries too hard to be cool
I can't get you out of my head
Because you were there for me when I learned my best friend was dead
But once I lost him, you left me too.
As though it was all my fault that I went to you
But you told me you were going to always be there, where are you now?
Probably trying to talk the next girl into your bed somehow.
I hate you with everything I am!
Yet I know, if you wrote me a letter... I'd fall for you again...

Zippers are like hearts
They do inde ed tear apart
But when they do    they zip back up
Because not everythi        ng breaks like a cup
No, hearts heal            and zip up too
And my heart zipped          up and lead me to you
So zippers are a sign to m       e that everyone has to heal
And eventually face    what they see as real
Cause eventually everyone   will have to zip up their heart
And find a new place to start
Just as this poem zipped itself up just for you to read
So go on, zip up your heart and go do a good deed!