The kitchen is a war zone
A bomb explosion
Wading through the mess of dishes
like sailing across the polluted ocean
They’re stacked practically to the roof
I can no longer ignore the ugly truth
The proof of all the days I’ve already been through
This bowl is from two weeks ago
Good god where did the time go?
I let this mess get piled up
24 hours in a day is not enough
There’s so much to do I don’t know where to start
Maybe it’s best if I break into parts
Turn on the water
Give it time to get properly hot
The sink begins to fill
The water is overflowing
Dishes spill
What am I gonna do?
Now its not one mess but two
The floor is flooded
The sink isn’t draining
I’m slipping and falling
Frantically trying to stop it
But I don’t know the first thing
about fixing a broken faucet

They say that home is where the heart is
But my heart is homeless
Left out in the cold
Night after night
There is no place to go
For the broken and the bruised
All I ever wanted was a hand to hold
And someone I could call home
But every time I give someone my heart
They promise to protect it
Promise that I am safe
And then immediately throw my love
Back in my face
And stomp my heart into the ground
Leaving me to pick up the pieces
As I am coughing up blood
It is safe to say love and I are done
So in terms of where my heart is safest
I guess that I can call myself home
I must be the unbreakable foundation
A shelter that can withstand the storm
And not allow my heart to roam
Stay here in my capable hands
No one else will love and care for me like I can
I have to be my own home
I am home
But home has never felt so alone

You said so many pretty things to me
Made me feel special
Treated me like a queen
Talked to me like I was some spectacular thing

But your lovely little words were empty
In the end your silence spoke louder
Than any of the pretty things you once told me
Your actions revealed everything
I guess that’s the difference between you and me
I meant it wholeheartedly when I told you I cared
It seems you never meant a single thing
And insanely
I still only want the best for you
Seems you only wanted the best for you, too
And I guess I wasn’t good enough for you
But that’s okay
I still want you to be happy
Despite the fact that you cut me deeply
Because I was nothing if not real with you
I was exactly who I always said I was
You turned out to be a stranger and you broke my heart and destroyed my trust
But that’s okay
I wish you lovely days
In spite of the rain filling mine
Even though you caused me pain
I wish you only sunshine

I used to get these butterflies
Beautiful creatures that simply tickled a little as their wings lightly brushed against my stomach
I don’t know when or why
but these butterflies became dragons
angry fire-breathing beasts
That set my insides a blaze
And I am being swallowed whole by the flames

There is nothing more soothing
Than staring up into the night sky
Deep breaths of cold crisp air
The stars ever so bright and inviting
Sometimes I see stars during the day
But only when I am looking into your eyes
As I gaze
The whole world melts away
And I feel like I am floating through space