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sanjana goel Jan 2018
Yes she was fragile.
Yes she had a fake smile.

People conjectured her life was a dream come true
Did anyone ever come to ask her out of the blue?

No, her life wasn’t a fairy tale.
For every time she tried to stay happy, she failed
They may call it a castle but it was definitely a jail

Who knew behind the smile was craving,
Inside she was asking for one saving.  

Han, you got it right he was just another stud
Trying to take off the petals from the bud      The situation was just like a prisoned bird.  

As tears rolled down her red cheeks
She wondered what she seeks.

This was not how she wanted it to happen.
For life was even more darkened.

She knew she wasn’t happy,
But she didn’t want to make her life more shabby.

She kept trying to fight that grudge,
And started to live on that chocolate fudge.

This was not what her heart was wanting
Every time she closed her eyes her brain was shouting.

Maybe he wasn’t bad after all
Maybe he didn’t want her to fall.

But it was too late to decide,
Lying in her bed she just wanted to hide.

Life had left her with no option
Maybe it was time for another love adoption.

Yes, she was fragile
Yes she had a fake smile.

She tried! She tried to build that spark,
But she couldn’t, maybe because they had different hearts.
sanjana goel Mar 2015
To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;
It means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off...
It's the realization that I can't control another...
To let go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try and change or blame another,
I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective,
It is to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.
sanjana goel Mar 2015
He has so much to say
With each passing day
His life turns grey

He sees that in her eyes
But when it comes to ask, he dies

All he'll ever wish for is her smile
But all he ever got was denial

Wasn't he good enough?
Was it supposed to happen?
Seeing her with him makes him sadden.

I wasn't just another infatuation
Now he has stopped fighting with his frustration.

Ask him what love is,
And he will ****
For all she ever showed was her bliss

Whenever he thinks to ask her out
His fears shut his mouth.

His heart sets on fire when he sees her with him
His life wouldn't have been more dim

He would have given up his life for just one chance
And all he ever dreamt of was her glance

All he say is,
"It's time to face the truth, I can never be with you."
sanjana goel Nov 2014
She backed away,
Taking small steps,
He watched her,
With no sign of regret.

She waited,
For him to call out her name,
She couldn't understand,
That nothing was the same,

With tears in her eyes,
She murmured a goodbye,
Callous he was,
Didn't bother replying.

Her heart was hammering,
Against her rib cage,
Her tearful eyes,
Were filled with rage.

Her broken heart,
Was crumbling further,
He had on a straight face,
Showing he couldn't bother.

Her world was spinning,
She couldn't take it,
It felt so real,
How could he fake it.

Her world was shattering,
It was a joke for him,
Chances of apology,
Were getting slim.

A tear rolled down her cheek,
She couldn't stop it,
He was going to pay,
She wouldn't drop it.

Leaving him,
She ran from there,
Cried to god,
It was so unfair!

She turned bitter,
She turned cold,
"You've changed!"
She was frequently told.

People didn't know,
That he was behind it all,
People didn't know,
How hard he made her fall.

She surrendered ,
to the world then,
She lost,
Her faith in men.

He saw her walking alone one day,
Trillion memories flashed in his mind,
He felt something weird,
But he still didn't get the sign.

He saw her talking to her friend,
Her eyes no longer shined,
Cold was the face of the girl,
Who, once, always smiled.

Sighing, he turned around,
And just started walking away,
Suddenly he felt a pang of regret,
Which started increasing day by day.

Taking something out of his drawer,
Her picture caught his sight,
As his eyes fell on her face,
His lips broke into a smile.

He was taken to the past,
Her laughter chimed in his ears,
That moment did he realize,
How much he missed having her near.

He chuckled,
Remembering their nicknames,
He laughed,
Remembering their childish games.

He sighed,
Remembering their long walks,
And even blushed,
Remembering their sweet talks.

Then all of a sudden,
He realized,
All of a sudden,
Tears filled his eyes.

His heart beamed with joy,
It hit him but it was so absurd!
All this time , he couldn't realize,
That he had been in love with her!

Phone in hands, number on tips,
He dialed her number straight away,
However, she didn't pick up,
And realization hit him in the face.

Rehearsing apologies in head,
He kept pacing back and forth in the room,
He decided to let her know,
As soon as he reached school.

Almost flying he went to school,
With a pretty red rose for her,
However she wasn't there,
And he actually felt a little too hurt.

Skipping school he went to her place,
Was surprised to see many people there,
Went inside her house,
And fell to the ground in despair.

All around,
All he could see was red,
Pain, blood,
The girl he loved was dead.
sanjana goel Sep 2014
Before I met you,
I was filled with an eternal darkness, forever hating.
It was all I ******* knew...
but alas, I lay there... waiting.

For the ones who would truly care.
The ones who would actually be fair.
Who wouldn't run when my fangs would be bared.

So this is a little rhyme I came up with,
while playing in my head; a low riff.
And it's for you,
because you knew.

You knew my pain,
and you'd stand with me in the harsh rain,
even when I became insane.

So thank you, for letting me have a good start.
For letting me show you my art.
For not trying to dart.
Because you hold 1/3 of my heart.
This is not good, but this is dedicated to a friend who means a lot to me.
sanjana goel Jul 2014
I remember the time not long ago
When we laughed and shared it all
We were the very best of friends
Or at least that's what I thought.
I often wonder why friendships end
What happens to sever that tie
How can someone once so close
Just wave you off with a goodbye
I must have been lacking
I must have been wrong
I wasn't the friend to you
That you were to me all along.
I thought I was loyal
I know I was true
But something went wrong
Now there's nothing to do
A friendship lost
Is a very sad thing
The angels weep instead of sing.
sanjana goel Jun 2014
Within you, I've found the perfect friend
Someone who I know will be there till the end
And they're not just thoughts I hope will fulfill
But thoughts that will stand forever still

Still as the wind on a hot summer's day
Still as your friendship I'll never betray
Still as the characters in a photograph
Still as your breathless, silent laugh

Within you, I've found the perfect friend
A mind that I can comprehend
A person I see is so much like me
A mutual relationship so carefree

Carefree as a child who questions the world
Carefree as a scream that goes unheard
Carefree as an adult blessed with a dream
Carefree as water flowing downstream

Within you, I've found the perfect friend
With whom I can be real, and never pretend
You've always been someone unique from the rest
You hold a piece of me no other can possess

Within you is reason to live every moment in time
Within you the life I want is always mine
Within you, I have the perfect friend
With you, I see myself till the very end
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