I wouldn't want to live forever
I'm serious
like the way my dad looks at me now
I couldn't imagine seeing that forever.
That look will always be seared into my head
It's not just the good things that stay with you
it's all the bad stuff too
sure dreams exist but nightmares do to.
It won't always be good
you know that right?
You could be buried alive
or live to exist in a world you can't escape

I get why it's romanticized I do
but I don't see how thousands of lives
spent in search of a purpose
are more important
than a life lived right
so spend your life climbing mountains
and volunteering at the shelter
if you want
those things are nice
but they aren't fulfilling
if you don't want it to be with me that's fine
but don't let yourself miss out on this

I’ve stopped wearing red lipstick because I knew it was your favourite on me
I don’t wear my hair in curls anymore because I know you loved it
I won’t wear that pretty lace bra because when I wear it all I can think about is when you used to rip it off me
I don’t do anything but I want to do everything to make you fall back in love

Little discs used to make us happy
Like miniature frisbys flying into our mouths
Getting lost in the trees
The branches tangled and knotted
Unable to escape.

I am enough.
I am enough.
I am enough.
I am enough.
I am enough.
With or without you,
**I am enough.

To me you were the stars.
Illuminating my world.
But to you I was a satellite.
Just passing by.

If that's what I am.
What you will me to be.
Let me soar into your world.
I the satellite, Your beacon,
Have come back around to show you.
I'll be more than what you could ever fathom.