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People question me
They will always question me
I must make a change they say
Evolve into something more
All while staying true
Staying true to the core


I let you in
Now you know everything
No more secrets
No more lies
I'm only 19
So girl this is all you will get from me

☁️

I'm nothing next to this mountain
And I've begun running
Lest it tear me apart

I was the beast
Created by men
Equipped with a dark heart
I shut myself from affection
And my face.....
Only showed anger
For I carried
The seed of hatred
Slaying someone's heart
Came easy to me
For I was holding
The blade of vengeance
But now.....
I'm trapped
In this strange prism
I see the colors of rainbow
And my heart beats
Faster than before
Warm embrace from behind
Melt the frozen heart I own
Darkened sky has lifted
And I see
The glow of the sun
No more numbness
As I feel sensation
Within his touch
No more bitterness
For I taste the sweetness
Within his kisses
He's the monster hunter
And he caught me good
He tamed my wild character
With his love spell
And now I'm his prisoner
Willingly to be caged
Inside his ribs
Because he's my magic

-Jess

Today I became a tree huger,
because yesterday's random hug
ended with the red and blue blinking lights,
a frontal shot, two side photos,
and my new roommate
who has claimed the top bunk.

The sign cries out
Salvation
come inside for salvation...
so, I went inside
the work of the Lord
to perform...
full of enthusiasm
all the good I can do
for God
EVERYDAY!!!
How exciting!
The job of a lifetime!
Surely my search
was over.
I went inside
there were faceless
robots
people with no names
only numbers
their smiles drained
into a bucket
in the corner...
people never allowed
to get tired
or sick...
No! No! don't stop for a minute
come...let me take your
life
...for a nickel
and a dime....
ALL for the NAME of GOD!
I looked for God
EVERYWHERE
No mention of His name
No music of praise
on the airways.
People would ask...
where am I?
-Goodwill?
-???
when they wrote their checks.
They didn't know...
They couldn't tell.
They couldn't feel His Presence.
Wasn't it supposed to be
ALL ABOUT HIM?
The captains would walk through
never making eye contact
with anyone
tripping over the bodies
crying
I want more! I want more!
As fast as employees came
in the front door
workers were fleeing out the back
while they still had some life in them
they could escape...
I used to hold them
in my arms
I used to cry with them
pray with them
encourage them
it was my great joy to share their successes
my hand was stretched out if they fell
no one was a mistake in Jesus' eyes
And I tried to remember that
and let my patience grow
like God's patience
for me...
and I saw Jesus
come in the front door of that store
He was carrying the Salvation sign
and I saw Him
walking the aisles
tears streaming down His face
looking for a place
for the weary
to sit down.
And all He saw
were the cash registers
and the cold-eyed captains
whipping and barking
GIVE US MORE!  GIVE US MORE!
and the workers
gasping and groaning
and the life draining...
And precious Jesus...
He touched us
one by one
and said, "Follow Me"
out of the dungeon of filth
and despair.
He said...they used My Name
but I was never allowed
in there.
He brought us out
...one by one...
into brightness of life
again...
O Breathe.