Sitting in the very back of a random parking lot on this cloudy rainy day as Im supposed to be sitting at my desk at work.. had to pull over as too many thoughts were breaking me down .. And here I still sit lost as I just stare out my window..my music strums silently while the vapors circle within the little gap of air I immersed myself within. Allowing no one to hear my cries or whip my tears and try to pull me out . ..Tears fall just as the rain repeatedly slaps the ground and sadness over takes me ... Ironic how pleasure can be found when all that consumes are feelings of incompetence and failure .