If I'm being honest I'm tired of being a poet. I'm tired of findig meaning in everything from the lines of the sky to the cracks in the side walk I'm tired of using extended metaphors to explain how overwhelmed or angry or sad I am I'm tired of immortalizing the people I love or hate in half assed lines of poetry For once I would like a good day just to be a good day or a bad day just to be a bad day A landscape to hold no higher meaning than to magnify the glory of existence For the people I know to hold no cosmic significance in the fabric of time I would like to sit and be quiet To write and be at peace For the storm to pass over And to find some relief This is not a game for me this is how I breathe and I am tired of having to hold meaning in every crack and every crevice My poetic nature has become a menice in my tired skin I'm tired of letting the light in But this isn't something you quit This is something you breathe This is something you are This is something you need Even if it doesn't make sense all the time This is the one true thing I know that's mine My sense of rhythm and my sense of rhyme And it isn't easy all the time Because these days life moves faster than I've even known Faster than I can process what I've been shown These days it's easy to feel the weight of all of my time spent alone My mind isn't home I'm chilled to the bone These days I'm tired of being tired and tired of writing about how tired I am Like I'm six feet under but I'm not yet dead Using poetic devices to say what's already been said I'm tired of playing this game Imortalizing name after name I still feel the same Even though I still keep writing So what I'm trying to say is that I need poetry like I need water but sometimes if you drink too fast or you drink too deep you feel like you're drowning Out to sea in familiar surroundings It's astounding how tiring being a poet can be.
"I love you, a lot. Don't break my heart, please. It ***** when people do that to you. I did it to someone else to be with you so please don't do it to me because that'd ****, a lot, because I love you."