maybe I'll get famous from writing a play
maybe I'll get famous from all the things I have to say
maybe I'll get famous for having a lot of money
maybe I'll get famous by marrying someone who doesn't love me
maybe I'll get famous by living like the stars
maybe I'll get famous by living like people who've forgotten who they are
what will I do then?
maybe I'll stay famous by buying nice clothes
maybe I'll stay famous with the white powder on my nose
maybe I'll stay famous by what they say in the magazines
maybe I'll stay famous by forgetting what life means
maybe I'll get rid of fame like the ones before me
maybe I'll get rid of fame because no one really loves me
maybe I'll get rid of fame with a gun
maybe I'll get rid of fame because it stopped being fun
but hey, who knows
maybe I won't let fame own me
maybe I won't let fame take away who I used to be

I prefer being lonely
It means that nobody can pick on me
Or at least, say hurtful things
Within my hearing distance

I know it's going to be okay
But please, please, please let me be upset and angry
Please do not tell me to calm down and put out the  fire inside of me
I will not stop, drop and roll because I want to get burned
Let me rage
For once let me scream at the world and blame it for everything
Let me vindicate myself this time because I'm tired of thinking
that it's all my fault
I want to be on the winning side. I want to be on my side
Let me be selfish and careless because I haven't done that in years
Let me yell and throw things
Let me explode
Because if I delay this explosion, there will be more casualties
Allow me to get hit by the shell fragments of my own anger
Let me get buried under the debris of my failures and regrets
Do not call the firemen
Don't put out my fire
Let me become ash and let me rise from it
Let me self-destruct so I can rebuild myself
I don't want to be rescued  
Do not save me
Please do not save me

I know what Its like to want to die.
How It hurts to smile.
How you try to fit In but you can't.
How you hurt yourself on the outside,
Because you're trying to **** the thing on the Inside.

I'm here when needed.

But I don't seem to be needed much anymore..