You say I'm never there for you
I'm distant, aloof
But honey I've never fallen so dangerously
As I have for you
I know your heart is covered in scars
And distance won't heal your wounds
But I never gave up on us
On what we could be
You're jaded and not sure we're worth
The frustration you feel
But I beg you not to say goodbye
When our love is far from it's end
Maybe I'm just scared we see things differently
That I invented what I wanted to see
But I've only felt the burn of heartbreak once before
And I'd sell my life away
On the faith that if you leave
I won't be the only one left with painful memories
Wondering how we ******* up what should have been
Forever

What do you do
When you've fallen in love
What do you do
When it becomes a game of cat and mouse
What do you do
When it's not black and white

What do you do
When love is a daily fight

'Cause I've fallen again
Thought I could get over you
But instead I burrowed deeper
Now I'm under your spell

But what use is it all
The feelings I feel
When at night I'm still crying
And wondering how we got here

Here to the balance
About to be tipped
Trying to survive
Even though we're about to explode

I see it in your eyes
Because we're both resisting
Fighting because how could this possibly work
Yet our resolves are weak
As you cradle me to your chest

What do I do
When I've fallen in love
What do I do
When it becomes a game of cat and mouse

What do I do

When it's not black and white

What do I do

When love is a daily fight

So I'm drowning and suffocating
And may not make it through
But I paint a smile for the world
You tell me to see the happiness
It's all okay
You tell me there's gotta be something positive
To make of it all
That's no lie, I can tell it's true
Trouble is, my mind doesn't care
Try what I do
But my mind ain't one to smile
Or yield with ease
So I know I'll be okay
Somehow see life through
But for now I'm simply smiling
Because no one loves an unhappy girl

Can't you tell?
I'm nothing more than a broken girl
I've got layers
Walls and cages to protect me
But when you look too closely
Past all the lies and deceit
It's blood and pain
A little girl huddled in shame
How can you miss it?
Be so blind?
I'm tired of lying, hiding it inside
Yet still I fool you
Don't even bat an eye
I'm not the master of mystery you paint me as
Why can't you see the truth?
I don't know how this happens
Me breaking without a sound
No one cares to notice
They let me hit the ground
If only you looked more closely
Into my eyes you'd see
Today I may be smiling
But broken I'll always be

I want to die
At times like this
It's all too much
Make it go away

How can I survive?
Make it through
Don't care if I'm weak
All I feel is blue

Say it'll get better
Just gotta be brave
But liars burn
And I don't care to stay

I want to die
From moments like this
Moments that hurt me
Get under my skin

Barely eating
Won't admit to the hunger I feel
Tell you I already ate
That I'll buy some food later

Don't know what it is
Why it is
I'm not overweight
Don't hate being so skinny

Yet still I won't eat
My stomach so foreign to the concept
For although it's not my weight
I'm still delighted by the flatness of my skin
The fall of weight on those scales

I don't know the truth anymore
Can't make sense of the mess I'm in
Don't know if secrets are good or bad

I'm scared
You don't suspect a thing
Making it so easy to waste away

I feel sick at the smell of food
And I just want to run
Forwards, backwards, I can't tell

Barely eating
I never understood the real me
Never thought I could despise what my stomach so desperately needs