other times i dream of
being on the edge of a cliff
telling my body to jump
one last step and
i will be crushed into the pitch
of a complete void
where hell and peace meet
but i never do
i never jump
because maybe i still believe
in the absent fact that
you might come back
and stop me from doing
that one last step

you may never know
but every night you sing me to sleep
i want to meet you so bad
everyday i take a peek
into your life's peak
i see how successful you are
and you deserve it
every melody is equal to a heartbeat
and whenever i am crying,
you are there to keep me listening
the sound of your voice is why i live,
you saved me from the darkness
the sound of your voice is why i love,
you saved me from the madness
i love you, my sweet songbird
you keep me whole with every word
you are my one beautiful soul
but i guess you will never know

You drown me in sweetness,
a song I cannot get out
You trace my days with glances
and some feelings never told

And when the day is almost through,
the hole in my chest becomes whole
A world full of your beautiful soul
A world full of you

She is the love,
the soul,
the one who makes me give it all

She is worth trying,
she completes me when we touch,
I want to kneel in front and give her a ring

She could be a beauty queen
with just a tee and some jeans

She could be what I have been asking for,
she could be what she is and more

She could be one in a billion,
she could be mine and I am a champion

She could be beautiful without even trying,
she could be - or maybe she is - my everything.

i think i'll remember you forever
like the sun lights up her sky
just to see the earth breathe
she never takes anything in return

especially on her moon
where all her love lies.

i think i'll love you forever
harder than the rain falls in a storm
longer than all the river forms
compare it to an ocean and i'll go deeper

especially for you, my love,
to whom all my adoration lies.

and i think i'll miss you forever
like the stars miss the morning skies
like the trees lose her leaves in autumn
like the sun waits to take a peek

of how her flowers bloom in summer.

You saw me.
Then came the part where
I cannot stop staring at you.

lay down with me,
tell me no lies
dont promise me anything
just love me with your eyes
make me fall for them
as you speak with your fingers
i will surrender my heart
and let your touch linger
i will open my chest
and make myself vulnerable
i give up my past
to answer your call
and even if the people
might see the wrong in us
dont let this be crumpled
we both know this is vast
i wouldnt exchange this for anything
i am in love now, darling
make me crave for the best
satisfy me at your worst
holding on to the string of hope
until we see our exit and elope
let us travel through the skies
we are lovers in a dangerous time

i had chocolate for dinner,
and cried right after.
maybe it was too sweet
but mom have you ever wondered

that maybe the memories of my love and i
were the ones causing it?

i took a longer time in the shower
and still cried right after.
maybe she bathes too slow
but daddy have you ever wondered

that maybe the memories of my love and i
were the ones causing it?

i stay up late at night while blood lies there
still i cried right after.
maybe she is just crying again
but sister have you ever wondered

that maybe the memories of my love and i
were the ones causing it?

my eyes are more distant, the songs i sing are too
i compose and cry right after
maybe it's just another night
but brother have you ever wondered

that maybe the memories of my love and i
were the ones causing it?

Not a scratch, baby
I won't let you fall, trust me
I'd hold you carefully and won't
Let marks ruin your beauty

I'd leave my fingerprints on you
So everybody will know
That this instrument of love
is infinitely owned

Strum you ever so softly
You'll make me hear melodies
and I'll play you, lovely,
like I have done this for years

Oh, so I was pretty?
Or is this all because of pity?
I was a strong lady?
You're telling them I was dainty?

Tell them I will be remembered
Tell them you didn't get into my head
Tell everyone we were friends
Tell everyone everything false

Oh, so I was beautiful?
I was one of the people who made you whole?
Sweetie, that's alright
I just died. You don't have to lie.

look at what a beautiful mess we are
we look so ******* cute together
i like it when you laugh so hard
what was that, baby? closer?
stop biting your lips
how close?
i want to kiss you. can i kiss you?
i can kiss you, but you cannot kiss me
that's unfair!
it's only unfair when you don't get what you want!
i want you now
what do you want?
a kiss, baby, a kiss*

you gave a kiss,
and then laughed so hard

*look at what a beautiful mess we are

“This is my skin. This is not your skin, yet you are still under it.”

I asked her how she is
I was laughing and even teased
And then the talk got serious
The air that hovered was mysterious

I have never seen her this sad
I have never seen a state this bad
She cannot fathom into words
How she is carrying her world

She said she is okay
And as always I was taken away
By how her eyes quickly fill the white space
By how she fake smiles with every pace

Why was she sad, I did ask
But all she did was take cover in a mask
She was abducted by the world of black
She hid and hid and never came back

let's be young
in search of the sunny days
to cover all the clouds of grey
let our souls be sung
like how the daisies dance
even in the moonlight
as long as there is wind
take me anywhere but here
or better yet let's be crazy
under the starry skies, lay with me
let's be sleepy
under the thick sheets of you and me

A portal opens for the escape
The thought at night that keeps me awake

There would be ravens squawking
A castle's silhouette is closely standing
Vines wrapped around each wall
Darkness surrounds everything that once stood tall
The evening lurks as if it is being eaten
The cold wind searches for something to embrace
Everything is being watched as the night deepens
I am alone as my heart starts to race
I have no one beside me
nor an animal to be with
All I hear is the breeze of my old friend
Telling me to stay
and to never ever leave this place
I should not be scared
After all this is my world
I have my own realm
It is not so much
but it is *mine.

you are like sunsets
except never ending
you are like lightning
except less frightening
you are like rainbows
except you are only mine to love
you are like stars
except the faults
you are like the rain
except i don't feel cold
you are like the storm
except not too loud
you are like the sun
except you're not burning
you are like dawn
except you are not leaving

I don't know what to feel or what I feel
When I remember how I used to call you my everything
Now I don't know what to call you.

And the snow started falling,
until I decided to have fun with it
I started laughing
I started crying
I started the unbecoming;
Of myself, to everyone

Tears began to fall-
just like the snow
An angel showed up
The solace I needed the most
Serendipity at its best

your back against my chest,
lips pressed on your shoulder
let me be the body
on where yours can rest

hands intertwined,
hearts are combined
let our solace
silence the chaos

your back against my chest
my lips move to your ears
your smile lights up
it feels like falling in love.

Maybe I am still terrified of what our love can bring,
of who we can hurt,
of who we can lose,
of who will be our barricades,
and of who will bring us down.
Maybe I am still scared.

They don't understand, do they?
That all the lies they say
when they tell you everything will be okay
will never be enough to make you stay

They call your name
like nothing has happened
like everything stayed the same
like nothing really ended

All the voices in your head
can make you listen more than to what the people say
but you know how this shall end;
one more cut and then it bled

Is it the light reaching out to you
Or sunshine coming out for you
Another morning,
another suffering

But all you remember was how haunting
the lullaby that sang while you were sleeping

you don't know how much someone
wants to be in your place
how someone wants to be loved
the way you are loved
how someone needs to be saved
the way you are being saved.

you just don't notice
you just can't see
you have a nice life
you are breathing a good, long, happy life
you're just not letting it happen.

it was not my intention
you left me ignored
it was not my suggestion
i gave you what you wanted
i didnt want to do it
i told you i didnt
i dont want to go a day
with us having nothing to say
but you are my queen,
so we spent hours
we stop looking, yet we are seen
like we dont know each other

...and then the day comes to an end
which definitely includes him.

It's so quiet, time is swallowing
The ignition that we're making
Baby, we're on fire
Nothing scares me anymore

It's so chaotic, you are here
but a million miles ahead
Baby, if only I can hear
all the voices in your head

How many secrets can you keep?
I am hoping that you will stay
Sometimes I want you to sleep
So you will not fade away

Terrified of saying I love you
Because it may not be true.