there are just some things just can't be voiced,
no matter how much i wish i could,
you were like a lover i could not reach,
the glass-like happiness i could not touch,
a broken little girl i could not save.
every word you say,
hurts me like stepping a million glass shards,
it was all my undoing,
for i could never be upfront,
for i could not be honest,
that i want you by my side,
that i want to be by yours.
i wish i caused no pain for you,
so i distance myself,
and hurt you too,
when can we stop,
hurting one another,
when can we return,
to where we were before,
side by side,
close as kins?
When you feel like there's nothing you could do, to mend old faults and scars.
All you wanted was to be close again but all you do is make things worse.