Pepper Dove

Pepper Dove Jun 2017

Darkness is here
beneath the canopy
where tiny insects inject
venom with apathy
Swiftly spinning
webs
of solitude
watching you
taunting you
wanting you to intrude
Lingering notions
of spraying potions;
hypnosis
You're helpless
and hopeless
Unconscious
and motionless
Can't you hear the cries?
From the spirits
fallen victim to
all of it's lies,
gripping you with eyes
grinning
at it's winning
of your steady
slow
demise.

Metephorical for all those sneaky spiders in your life, always trying to manipulate you to fall into their webs of deception so they can use you to their benefit and consume your whole being.

#metaphor #spider #deception #manipulate #fake #intruder #caution

Pepper Dove Jun 2017

Not Enough

My hand becomes paralyzed
at the thought of
writing out my thoughts
true
but blue is the color
that shades me
hiding me in its hue

I want to express
how my heart aches
it craves
to connect

known for my patience
so a lesson
you must be
then

teaching me

to not waste
anymore time
oh how little time
we truly do have

so I toss and turn
in the moonlights beam
like a coin flipped into the air
what side shall I be?

caught in the middle
between waiting
and going
I cling to this meaning
of my middle name
hoping
for it all to fall into place
hoping
for you to just understand
me

All i want
is for you
to look at me
as though
I will not be
here
tomorrow

I teeter with this meaning
of love
when the word
routinely
leaves your lips
so mundane

what does love actually mean
to you,
******!?

Is it having
someone around
to deal with
your piles of clothes
scattered on the floor
like
my thoughts
indisposed?

is it knowing
that you can
stack the dishes
as high as
my anxiety builds
in hopes for it all
to come
crashing down?

Is it that you can
leisurely
spend your money
on
toys?
oh how your car needs
that ******’ loud exhaust!

though home
isn’t your concern
because love to you
is not having
to be concerned
about how I feel

I am just here
to cater to you

how am I so
easy going
to just grin
and bare it

you love me
so
you don’t
have to
consider it

because
you say it
routinely
so surely
my heart
is content…
right?

Venting... and it was much needed!

#empty #love #disconnected

Pepper Dove Jun 2017

Wind Dance

Hypnotized
  by the
    graceful
       sway
         of
           a
    broken
  web
dancing
along
side
   its
    shadow
      to the
        winds
     whispering
        songs

most people see a spiderweb dangling in disgust..
but I saw beauty in the way it elegantly danced around;
it’s shadow accompanying it in perfect rhythmic synchronicity
to the gentle breeze blowing through my window

It made me see that even though something like the wind can break you, it is also the wind that keeps you moving.. going.. dancing

#wind #broken #webs #dance #lovelife

Pepper Dove Jun 2017

Drapetomania

Days turn to eternities
with hindering urgencies
buried inside of me, a
labyrinth of reasoning
alone in the midst, I
refuse
refuse to quit
sawing at the chains anchored
to ankles tied
to this abyss,
caught in a paradox
caught
in a **** whirlwind
gotta break free, 'cuz
drapetomania’s got the best of me.

An overwhelming urge to run away; escape.... came across this word a while ago and was inspired to write this.

#freedom #runaway #escape #free

Pepper Dove Jun 2017

Dismissed Kiss

A kiss
was dismissed
when I fell
to your lips
turning
I'm burning
with pain
my heart twists

#kiss #heartache

Pepper Dove Jun 2017

Portal Eyes

Glistening
through crowds of chaos
the room became still
as you pulled me through
into your universe
close
without having to be near
your eyes like portals
guiding me to serenity.

#eyes #serenity #universe #portals

Pepper Dove Jun 2017

The Texture of Hope

I always believed
that if you want it
then you can have it,
only
by reaching for it
you can feel it.
The moon is too far
to reach, yet
the gravel below,
dust on it’s surface,
rock just beneath
my feet.
Firm to the core, I
cannot fall through.
But I can float
elegantly
across it’s surface,
like petals in the wind.
It will not go anywhere,
it is isolated in the dark,
but only through the darkness
can it shine
the brightest.

#hope