don't drag me along on a ride you're not even on
you've gotten off this theme park attraction and i didn't even notice
i was too busy smiling from ear to ear
just tell me you don't love me anymore

I am not stupid but
Neither is he
We both know
Our friendship will never be just friendship
There is a reason
We do not hang out as friends
There is a reason
We do not follow through on anything
We do not text
We do not stay alone
For long
There is a reason
And you are much better at staying away
Than I ever was
After all,
You have much more at stake
You have much more to lose
I have nothing but you
And you are already gone.

You were a saturated colour against an endless field of grey.
Florescent beauty;
You wore your smile like a crown of roses.
For months I watched you try to find water in a *** of dirt.
You just blossomed so quickly that I could not feed you fast enough.
I’m sorry if that made you weak, or made you wilt.
I’m sorry if it made you feel like you weren’t my evergreen.
You were my evermore,
my everlasting,
my everything.

Those eyes were the single most hopeful things that i could ever imagine.
In the short time that we were together I'd seen them light up like a street sign.
or whither out like a candle wick.
I'd seen them cry because of the worry that you carry for your grandparents.
and I'd seen them squint because of laughter over your faulty window on your accord's passenger side door.
In the short twenty-one years that you've been on this earth, they had already seen so much. sorrow, disrepair, depression.
But they had also seen hope, and love, oh so much love, love for your little Gracie, love for your fantastic grandparents, and love for others.
I know now that those eyes could never show love for me, at least not now, for they love too many, and as long as I'm around i make those eyes worry instead of laugh.

Your lies were dipped in bittersweet chocolate;
with a heaping amount of caramel sauce drizzled on top.
I gobbled up more than I care to openly admit;
in fear of what others will think and say.
After enjoying your momentary treats;
came the truth;
with so much salt, it was baffling to eat.

A.K.A

(10 w)

The lies I ate, but
the truth I couldn’t take.