Once there was a pale china doll
Walking slowly under her red parasol
China doll, why so pale?
China doll, you are to be cared
Wipe your tears, the moon’s soon to wane
Summer’s up not long, days with no more rain
Once there was a blooming china doll
Walking happily under her red parasol
China doll, why so blithe?
China doll, she’ll never be pale.

And here you are
After all these years
After all the dreadful waiting
Here you are.
You have waved to me as if you have known me from before
As if you would fill in the blanks in my sentences
As if you would read my mind.
As if you would free me from isolation
And here you were
Bidding as if you’ve said farewell before
As if you already finished my sentences
As if you have read deeper into my mind
As if you have freed me from myself and from the world
After all, it was such a long wait.
And I’ll always be waiting.

Where does all the laughter go when high-pitched chuckles stop?
Where do the tears go when all were wiped-off?
Where does frown go when one keeps calm?
Where do hopes go when one stopped believing?
Where does love reside when the heart stops beating?
To the great depths of our enduring hearts, solitary and shattered?
To the vast horizons, scattered and forgotten?
To the verdant earth, blown to faraway lands?
But where, if not to you?

Like the night, pale and wan
Like the cold, bitter and wary
I see you- I saw nothing but you.
No more than an ashen memory.
This is where I stand.
From here you are no more than yesterday.
You are no more.
I see you, I saw nothing but you.
No more than a speck which made me cry.
This is where we end.
From now on you are no more than what my heart can recall.
You are no more.

The concealer’s still fresh, I can sense.
Flawlessly, the warm tint covered me.
My lips and cheeks are rosy
Like when you first said you loved me.
All these shadows upon my eyes, smoking and bleak
I keep them closed, as I never want them open.
In darkness there is sorrow
In sorrow I found light.
My eyes- shut from many years ago
I want them open now.
Slowly, slowly, slowly
Mirror reflected such ineffable beauty.
I’m made-up.
Not because of you,
Not because of how I was to you.
I’m made up.
Darling, because I’ve made up my mind.

Mourning over the lost and forgotten, musing over to what was once here as if it was just the day before.
Eyes closed, both of us.
Let me wander where we have shattered each other’s soul.
From this wrath let us dream, rising from smithereens.
Keep your eyes closed.
We only have now.
Here, evermore, I knew, love was you.
But love was just a time in our lives.
Wide-awake, it was a dream no more.
I let this love go with the wind.
You know how the breeze can carry it away- to almost everywhere, in every corner at first, hanging around until it has completely vanished.

This is where you leave your heart
To this jar, where I’ll keep it tight
To this chest, where I’ll lock it away
To this room, where it will rest for a while
To me, where it will see the dawn of day
Where it will beat a thousand emotions.
To me, where it will be safe.
Until it stops beating or you choose to find another
This is where you leave your heart.