I am a gun, feel my cold steel
and caress my edges
I tell them to stand clear,
scared of the bullets that will fire
because it is not me who pulls the trigger,
but my mind, riddling me with anxiety
and I'm scared that it is me who is in the iron sights
my own flesh and blood, heart and head
and when that time comes,
if that time comes
I don't want anybody caught in the crossfire

I sink into your softness. The very motion takes us higher. Is that a sigh
Or  a scream I hear? Your fingers comb through your hair in silent joy.
Face moving side to side. If this is a dream . Let us stay asleep. Candle
Smells of ginger spice. Float in the room. The drizzle of rich desire is thick over everything. We've shared some spicy hot.Times like this. Much
Later on the terrace. Over looking the city at sundown. I'll serve you
Stir-fry with crisp dark crowns of green onion. Egg rolls cooked in peanut
Sauce with  chilled coconut milk . Just for you

We ran from forest to cliff edge

From cities through fields

To where we stood now breathless.

Your eyes caught mine, such sorrow

I saw beneath the reflections

The moonlight cast the tree’s its shadows

Drifting with the wind intertwined.

We followed the light of the east coast harbour

And sought salvation in the stars

Can it ever be ours? The choices and decisions?

Are we all but just who we are

Made from the opinions and thoughts of

Everyone who surrounds us?

Our friends are all we are worth

Worth nothing without them

And I knew you needed this

To escape from what you had built

To get away from all that you knew.

And its only pride that has got you this far alone

But it can’t stay like this forever

We all fall to our knees

In search of something greater

We all lose sight of where we’re going.

You left the world behind and I followed

In the search for who we were

We found each other’s hands in the darkest of lands

And we travelled back towards our friends

To the place where our eyes and hearts called home

Out of sync with time falling backwards

Pieces of me fragment towards home.

Time effortlessly cascades over existence

Like water over small pebble stones,

On shallow banks of lost hope.

Shards of dignity escape me

Breaking apart my very essence.

I wait silently in sleepless grandeur

Re-living moments of memory

The sun in all its warmth and glory

Basks upon your perfection,

Yet it's nothing more than recollection

Jaded time worn frames of thought

Instinctively played by design.

I look to sepia polaroid's of dying hope

A realisation of futility

Sparks the world to collapse in on itself

My heart, a beautiful glass construct lies at centre,

Memories, emotion, time merge into one

Compressing all that remains into a single shining pearl

A light so intense it burns endlessly

In hopeless desire to find you again.

I have been waiting
for her to pick me off the shelf

To remember me as fondly
as I dream of her nightly

Wanting nothing more than to be
used like her favorite toy

The one she played with as a child
when holding each other came simple

For her to lay me next to her heart
during the dim nights under gods shadow

Giving up on the complexities
of the never ending day before us

While engulfing each other in stories
of an emotion we remembered as love

And I've lost focus of everything...
That matters anyways
Because the image of your lips
Softly trailing from my neck
To hers.
Is too engraved in my mind.
And I wish your lips
We're still engraved on my skin,
But the light brush work has
Worn off.
And now all I have is his lips,
That always feel like rocks
Probably from all that whiskey.
We've both had too much.
I just can't stop drinking of you.