There is a rose as red as blood
With stem a shining gold hue
That I had found in forbidden lands
And longed to pick for you

This unmatched wonder entranced me
Captivating my mortal soul
But as I reached for this piece of loveliness
I was caught by silver thorns and let go

It was as if a fairytale
That was so unreal; you'd believe that it's true
And I felt my blood run down my fingertips
As red as the rose I tried picking for you

Had Midas been no fable?
Was this his prized jewel?
Had he set this royal majestic object
To inspire poets, lovers, and even fools

So many questions laid in my mind
Both of the rose and soil in which it grew
For it was richer than any I'd set my wandering foot on
And birthed the rose I tried to pick for you

A dewy mist covered the land
The sun shining just enough to light my way
It sang, this valley, this forbidden Eden
And I swear to return to it some day

And that ever enchanted flower
That shines so eternally new
Still left the imprint on my fingertips
With which lie on the hands which I hold you

And my greatest grand children will hear this tale
Of their greatest grandfather's memorable morn
And of how his journey to forbidden lands
Led to the rose of silver thorns

And if someday you find yourself there
With skies of an unmatched blue
I pray you see that flower with silver and red
From the blood of a lover who tried to pick it for you

Seeing passing cars that replace stars outside my window that shoot by on streets like lights in the sky
Shedding a single silver tear and never admitting to the fact I'm afraid they just might pass me by
Trying to find the floor as my feet hang from my bedside, but I've been asleep for way too long
Dream worlds are just as they say they are and someday I'll accept that, but as for now I fear I'm not that strong
Strung out like the song that keeps playing on the radio and aggravates the tenants in my head
Stubbed toes and headaches greet me as I shift through this humble room as if to remind me I'm not dead
It is far too early and I've been up far too late to greet the day with the vigor it deserves
Heating a simple cup of coffee to get a jump start on God knows what and trying to remember the purpose it serves
Seeing every moment through my eye and taping it in my mind, knowing the director will probably edit out this scene
Thinking of you randomly as I cut myself shaving and wondering if you have to deal with this monotony
Then realizing if you were here with me, Mary, if you were here with me we could share in this not so special day
And I would have a reason to get up in the morning but even more so for my mind to stay awake
Brushing my teeth as I take a shower and looking down at my feet at the drain and visualizing me sinking down
A mixture of toothpaste and water trail through my porcelain tub and disappear from my view into the ground
Jumping out of the shower and drying my hair as I look at the digital clock to see I've got fifteen minutes to truly wake up
To get dressed and proper, put on my hat, jump in my car,and be at that one place at that time for that other stuff
Looking at my unmade bed and knowing that if you were lying there in your tanktop and boyshorts I'd be right there with you
Knowing that if Mary was the one lying on my mattress with me then my day would consist of her in view
Waking up from my daydream to see that my safe fifteen has wound down to just an unsettling five
Throwing on my pants and shirt while balancing on one leg as my sneakers are slipped on and tied
Vigorously searching for my hat only to remember that I left it in my car yesterday
Running down the steps only to run back up when remembering I had forgotten my keys in my disarray
My positive minutes turn to waining seconds that yell at me and I bolt for my car door
Looking at my cell and muttering under my breath, wishing that my time was a bit more
Finding my half way marker in the seat of my car as my engine turns after the second or third time
Wishing you were in the passenger seat and not only just a wish in my mind

Hello, sweet dream
I am calling
Falling as the sun in autumn
Here I'm standing
Softly handling
Things that fall all the way straight to the bottom
Watching, waiting
Contemplating
Brain just straining to figure out why
Alone, silent
Wrestling, violent
With words from my mouth that float to the sky
Catch them, write down
Things that I've found
Float on the sounds of my thinking
Don't say adieu
Company, I've found you
In these words, the little inklings

I read the writing of the rain
It's borrowed page, my window
As my fingers trace the lines
Of otherworldly words that flow

I look beyond my windowpane
As curtains of water dance
And think beyond these liquid walls
That these droplets might be returning my glance

To speak honestly, I have never seen a deeper shade of green than your eyes hold
They take a hold of me with that ever present green as their simple poetries unfold
But you would say I lie and then try to deny whatever it is I do see
So I will say so true the truth I find in you and the eyes the constantly stare at me

Dearest girl I must say this world pales to grey when I think every day of your eyes
The wonder of it all as your eyes quietly call and my heart leaps and falls each time
And I hope you'll understand the words of a brown eyed man as he tries to understand just why
You yourself do not see the jaded waves of green that I forever see in your eyes

Some would protest that they have seen areas in lands where grass is green, but in comparing them to your hue and shine
A gift that God gave from himself and meant simply for no one else to show how true green should be defined
And here I stand with eyes on you looking humbly at your hue with eyes of brown that pale in memory
Trying to show you the loveliness that it seems you cannot confess that is in the simpleness of your green

As she writes in day or moonlight
She contemplates definitions
Finding the figures televised
Are not models, but a condition
For the dead, it seems have become the dream
That man aim to worship and infatuate over
And this she find, as a woman, a girl
Is what's infecting the world like fever

Pale skin so white opposes the sight
Of her freckled, pinkly complexion
Vain within those whose malnutriton
Are posted as pure perfection
Lips of red the of which the dead
Show the blood that once flowed through vein
As Death runs his fingers through limp hair
The word "beauty” writhing in pain

And this, to the world, she also be the girl
The woman's aspiration, all in all?
This should be instead of true form
A copy, a replica, a doll?
To lie with each breath, beauty wrapped in death
To please mankind in sights of its end
Is a plight, in day or moonlight
She cannot and will not defend

We stood not a chance when I asked you for a dance
We didn't know our hands would from then on stay entwined
If this corny song were to last all night long
I wouldn't care as long as your heart's close to mine
And if the dance were through then I would sing with you
Hand in hand to make sure this feeling doesn't end
And on and on we'd go as we'd sway to and fro
In a dream, in a wonder, time would transcend

Growing is my inner sense
Fading is my innocence
Life is fleeting, non repeating
Forgive my belligerence
Find my as I reference
My childhood that's now gone
Fatalities befalling me
And forcing me to move on
Forcing me to live strong
Forcing me to love long
In reference to the present
I pray my head's not on wrong
Wishing for the simpler things
A time before feeling the sting
Of adult reality and missing all the mystery

(Verse 1)
This is where we break, for I find I can't face you again
The taste of your lips and the feel of your cheek
Are the things my body cannot seem to defend

So I go
Far away
For in my own dismay

(Chorus)
Yours is a heart that's better off without mine
And though deep inside I know I'll love you for all time
Fare thee well, goodnight
I hope things will work out and your dreams come true
For though love is magic, I cannot fall in love with you
With you...with you

(Verse 2)
They say I'm foolish, that I should have sat down and stayed
But I knew deep inside I'd be wasting your time
And with me all your dreams would just flutter away

So I go
Far away
And in this I find so much pain

(Chorus)
Yours is a heart that's better off without mine
And though deep inside I know I'll love you for all time
Fare thee well, goodnight
I hope things will work out and your dreams come true
For though love is magic, I cannot fall in love with you
With you...

(Verse3)
So many things left unsaid in my head, in my mind
And these tears drop novels as I sit here so hollow
Looking at the love I had to leave behind

So I go
Far away
Hoping I find you once more someday

(Chorus)
Yours is a heart that's better off without mine
And though deep inside I know I'll love you for all time
Fare thee well, goodnight
In my dreams I'll always think of you
For though this may be tragic, my heart will stay true
For you...for you


(End)

Am I worth loving?
I'd like to think so
Yet the question that seems so simple for my heart to know
Is am I worth loving?
The question does ensue
And I can't help but wonder every time words come from you
But no answer comes from heaven or Earth
Not one constellation can say
Silence is not solace in my utter disarray
And yet I am here and waiting and you are simply there
And I know you are not one who takes joy in my despair
So tell me am I worth loving?
Every complication
Every clogged pore and stuttering word
Would it pass initiation?
For I am flawed beyond comprehension
Beyond you're imagination
And compared to your track record, I'm the lesser if God's creations
Realize this and tell me That I am worth your time
My romanticism and promise only lying in my rhymes
And the questions remained unanswered for a lover that's been left
And underlying's a heart that's dying and a mind which starts to regret
That I even asked the question of whether love can ever be mine
Because I'm the Hallmark writer who receives not one single valentine
And so I look to you and ask again and again
Is this poet worth loving or does love lie only in his end

She whispered to me something that wounded beyond words
And the boom that ensued shook the ground and the birds
They flew to the sky, gave a cry, and shed a tear
And those words bit into this fragile heart of mine
'Till all the good feelings poured out me like wine
And a wall of dreams broke down to the armies of attacking fears

And my eyes went opaque and my tongue, it went dry
With fantasies failing me and clouding my skies
The heavens pouring down their wishes for better days
And they angels watched as the smile fell from my face
As the day went awry and my heart fell from grace
And her words, they did wound me and those words with echo always

Woefully sings the boy
Wonderfully sings the girl
Dreams collide, few survive
And so it goes

Preaching of the sinner
Unsung goes their world
Picking up the pieces
Notation of the boy and girl

Both stand together
On opposing sides of hello
Who will cure or **** the fellow
If they never meet, we'll never know

Demons once were angels
Fallen from graces
Both fervently cling, both sing
And both songs echo

Let them speak
Then let them die
Let truth pour onto lips so dry
Let who be you
No wonder why
And close eyes, lifeless, no waking

No words said after
No lullaby
Post mortum tears in cloudy sky
As echoed truth
Takes creator’s life
To multiply, undertaking

Let teeth gnash
Let silent rage
Encompass those within the day
To pick up words
For which the slain
Found their souls, like eggshells, breaking

Another chapter
One of pain
New but rewritten, again and again
So that words spoken
From those long dead
Find new hosts for the taking

Never before has such a lie been received as the truth
As an I.O.U. that's masked within the words of I love you
For she would not be here without the chivalry of he
And she will show gratitude inside her misery

It happened and it stayed and she said she would correct it
And more time passed 'till she became complacent in her perspective
Until she found herself stuck between a rock and a heartbreak
The man who provided everything in return for a heart to take

He built his world around her with all the wishes finite
Not knowing why his love would stray away throughout the night
And he knew but refused to know, she told but refused to say
And so it carried on in the tediousness of days

And who will learn and who will crack and which side first will cry
Learning secrets and questions that seem to underlie
For love was meant to represent more than a toleration
The knight who saved her from the beasts and guaranteed her incarceration

My dear, I called you late in June
I wandered through the many moons
And I stood tall and I ran long
Before I questioned where you'd gone

You told me you would be back soon
That March you sang a different tune
A parting hands and parting lips
Left all our promises eclipsed

And so I let you go away
Doting on your return someday
And someday came and someday went
Until I found my patience spent

And so my dear, I call to you
A wanting on a waning moon
I poke upon the dying embers
And wonder where you'll be December

Girl
No, better than girl
Better than playground crushes
Summertime blushes
Fleeting rushes
And cheeks, those flushes
Not girl
But woman
Etched in notebooks
Eyes that look
Through soul
Grace visions
Pinpoint precision
Woman
In technicolor
Live
Electric, but wireless
In 4320p
High dynamic range
And legs for days
I see you
Cinematic
And wild in you ways
Like watching for the
First time a nature
Documentary
And knowing the lion is king
But the lioness, the hunter
Not cub I seek
But grown
Wonderful
Dangerous
Vivacious
Passionate

Woman
In technicolor
A world not her own
But give it time
As she toils
And breaks
And creates
And tries
And amazes
And blazes
And screams
And relaxes
And I stand in wonder
Under the weight
The awe
Of her
Woman
In technicolor
In worlds lost to the black and white
Of conformity
And distortion
The contortion of which
Make her seem small
But she not
At
All
She is technicolor
Made for IMAX screens
And this boy
Hoping to prove to be
Man’s
Dreams

I look at these hands of mine and catch the tears that fall
My stomach in a knot as I run and hit a wall
And I can hear you calling me as I stumble and fall
As the lurking feeling comes that I've run out of time

My hand reaches out to you, but only grasps the air
No to tell you it'll be alright, no one lying with you there
My lungs scream as loud as the echoes of a world that is unfair
My silent sobs all that accompany

Where did my folly lie? In truth filled with uncertainty?
In the eyes of the one who had faith that was stronger than me?
Or was it simply in the words I should have said
Which I whisper now that I have fallen short

Her lips pursed to the microphone and oh, what sounds escape them
A song ensues as the spotlight shines, a coal mine holding a gem
Her dress glitters with sequins red as she sways to the band
And I look upon her with heavy breath and sweaty, quivering hand

Her lips red and ever so graceful as the lyrics jump from her tongue
A sultry lullaby telling me of fantastic loves
And I see in her eyes a glint that is all her very own
Inside a smoky, crowded club and yet I feel we're all alone

I loosen my tie and take a swig of beer in anticipation
She looks at me and winks, therefore binding my inebriation
Her earrings hanging pearls that I'm sure match the smoothness of her skin
Blonde curls trickle down her shoulders with flowers neatly tucked in

And here I am, seated, for I don't think I could stand
As she sings and sways gently, the mic caressed in her hand
As she ends her song, the crowd erupts with my heart for this wonder of a dame
The spotlight fading as the announcer tells the world her name...

And I fall...

She  was one who dreamed of dragons
Of towers
Of tyrants
Of kings
The angel whose only plea was for you not to clip her wings
And days
And page
And magical mage
Would go and their stories would ring
Until a whole world was made just for a girl
In the stories of dragon, damsels, and kings

Machiavellian in the way you step
Sultry temptations
Slow drag on the coffin nail called life
Slight correlation
How sweet for the world to bend for you
Scuffed to the knees
With a smile reminiscent of crocodile
She walks dangerously
At threat in every sense of the word
Fluent in her wiles
Innovation in internal investigation
Transcends the mile
Deliberate in the introspective
Oil and grease the machine
Poised and confident to represent her perspective
Effectively

I am tired of the tears when I should be over you
Dealing with the things you said and tasks you didn't do
And you owe me for the millions of tears you made me cry
But you in all your heartlessness will keep me where I lie

I am sick of the touch that whispered sweeter lies to me
Bu I can't say it's all your fault since I chose to fall so eagerly
I would say some wise thing of love and loss but this, dear, was not love at all
And oh how I despise myself for wanting to answer when you call

I am weary of the faults which you showed my naked eyes
The worthlessness you showed to someone who once shared your bluest skies
Do you fail to see the venom in the lips with which you kiss my skin
The deceit needed for you to find your temporary win

I will dread any love that comes to me this day forth
Wondering and questioning the heavens of my worth
Wretching instead of reaching for the silver lining of the clouds
Knowing the loser's price when they sets their wages down

Now I know the warnings, the hints, the cautions my mind gave
The reluctance in my mind that inevitably would have saved
The mirror that I chose not to look in simply out of stubbornness
And all the issues that we both had which I chose not to address

And I am tired of the tears when I should be over you
The love that will come once again every time you're passing through
The aching for the nicotine-like feeling that only you can quench
And the tissues scattered on the floor with which my tears do drench

Writing off the scoffs the wrote off me
Is all I can really try to do
The only one who can provide validity
It seems is really only you

Dreamer of a girl that flies upon moonbeams
In the milky white nights of June
Skin composed of the purest cream
With a voice perfectly in tune

Poetic lines fall out of my mouth
Land within my hands
Soon no one know what I speak about
No one takes time to understand

Read with eyes that hold no doubt
Pour down your silver sand
Rain your love down, pour it out
Such things does love command

Walking this building's halls lined with linoleum floors
Up the 72 steps to apartment 604
Yet my eyes stay open as I fiddle with my keys
To see the black haired girl who lives on the floor right over me

The clicking of her heels tell me that she's frustrated
On her cell as she passes by, leaving me inebriated
Looks at me and halfway smiles, my goofy grin replies
Hoping she can see the shine past the tired in my eyes

Oh, when she walks upstairs, my mind just keeps pushing me
Tell her it'll be okay, and then just ask her out to eat
Then my hand slides for my doorknob and my feet walk in the room
My heart calling me an idiot, my brain say, "Next time? Next time! Soon!"
Yeah...

Undo my tie and collar, lie upon my bed
As the girl who lives on the seventh floor just runs through my head
And my body is dead to the world, but my head won't let me sleep
My ears focus to the ceiling as I hear her stepping feet

Muffled yelling and frustration, she talks to her friend
Saying how she wishes all the bull would finally end
Lying on my back, eyes closed as I imagine myself as the cure
Instead of the guy with the goofy smile, his passion strong but obscured

And so 704 is the heaven that is one floor away
Yet my feet stay limp on the bed, so lazily they lay
Heart screaming, wanting, needing, wishing so hard that I could weep
But work was hard. I am lazy. So I choose to sleep

Paint over my eyes so I might see brighter days
Put some blue over the view that was grey
Tell me this world is not a cruel as it seems
Paint over my eyes and paint me a dream

Erase all the nightmares, melt away the snow
Break me from the winter and show how to grow
Leave me with a better view of my day to day
Paint over my eyes and take me far away

Standing here in the present of peers is "love"
The word
the knife
the fool
the deceiver
A tyrant filled to the brim with good intentions
Only to leave confusion and chaos in it's wake

The accused pleads no wrongdoings
But evidence proves otherwise
The dying heart
The unhearing ear
The voiceless pain
The witnesses to the marauder that disguises itself within a word

Here stands "love"
Charged with extortion
Robbery
Vandalism
Assault
Crimes of passion
But crimes nonetheless
Claiming it's victims with a poison in the thorns of a rose
The shiv made from a pen
Slicing through their better judgement and sanity

Here stands "love"
Barely containable
Roaring, foaming at the mouth
A twisted creature unrecognizable behind it's mask
A mask of a word that abounded in wonder and grace
That was ripped from it's seams in a world of horrors
Here stands "love"

We the jury find the defendant....

Young girl with her father's gun
Knew she'd be the only one
To overcome such feats as none had seen
Sunburnt face and endless sky
Shot a bullet, made it cry
Did things that most men would only dream

Ran across the sea to catch it
Bluest blue, no one could match it
Mixed it in the depths of her eyes
Look within and see clouds pass
Smiling eyes on sunburnt lass
Piercing through like a bullet in the sky

Young girl with her father's gun
Quickly, in a blink she'd run
To find the tallest mountain she could find
Aimed, feet planted in the ground
Found her trigger, shot it down
And built a home with stones it left behind

Lived within and put the gun down
Satisfied with what she found
Sitting fireside sipping creamy moonlight
Ire and blue never fading within
Put down only till she'd once more begin
Girl of fabled blue and mountain might

There is some type of earthly heaven that I've proceeded to find
That seems to show itself to me each time that you pass by
Whether it be the holy glow from the skin which this sun does grace
Or the simple fact that you send me to unknown heights with the smile on your face
And in my search for this earthly heaven, I've found you are the key
From your mouth I hear the sound of the angel's symphonies
I see the light unmatched in sheen that shines brighter than the skies
I search and easily find the gates of gold whenever you look me in the eyes
And those angels fly in and out of my head as I'm mesmerized by this
I long for heaven, I long for it so, give it to me in your kiss
My tongue is still, my ears hear only you, but my eye, oh, my eyes are vigilant
Seeing what wonder you allow me to see before my inevitable descent
And with that passing, you're gone again and heaven is out of my reach
Leaving me stumbling in this world with whatever lesson it falied to teach
I know this emptiness, this curiosity, this longing will stay until you return
The place where your hand touched my arms burns for you all the more
I fall and the earth meets me, pushing the breath from my lungs
Making my mind come to the conclusion as reality's bell has been rung
And so I find my search shall continue until I find you again
And with each unsleeping moment in me, I will wait for you 'round the bend
And the words of wisdom creep in my mind and oh what truths they tell
For in finding heaven on earth and losing it, I draw closer to hell

Write my name on the wall dear Desirae
See it as you fall asleep
Keep me in mind when you leave this world behind
Keep me listed in the company  you keep

Float on the dreams that you chance to bring
To my doorstep on late summer moons
Sing me to sleep with words that echo
In the early ides of June

Keep my memory under lock and key
And know my love never waivers for you
My mind switching to your symphony
As my eyes close as if on cue

Lovely above all are you, dear Desirae
In smile, in tear, and all in all
Floating high to uncharted reaches
Simply because you don't fear the fall

Love me from afar, dear Desirae
Know that your beauty is one unfading
And that you are a girl within Heaven's hold
In both lining and in the shading

Live, love, day to day
Dreams come, never fade
Wishes seem to say
I will find you soon

Hereon and herein
Never gone, never been
Devout to find you in
Silver hued, shining moon

Each touch thus wished for
Loving you all the more
Toujours rechercher l'amour
Jusqu'à ce qu'un bonjour, comment allez-vous

She's never seen these flying dreams
As the streams of melodious songs do follow
Holding onto the scent of her hair in my mind
As if sealed so tightly in a bottle
Sending messages so serene
Opening once undiscovered doors
All this from passing a girl
I've never met before

She'll never know those five minutes of longing
The sorrow that came and gone as she passed
The strings on my heart plucking away in me
In a medley never meant to last
In that moment she was all there was to me
Her feet almost seemed to glide on this dusty floor
No inkling of the song I heard or the things I'd felt
The girl I loved and had never met before

I can still hear your voice reciting the pages you wrote
Each line breathing off the paper, what heaviness they tote
Notation of relationships are bullets to the brain
Feeling heat upon my temple as they ******* away

I can still feel warmth from the words etched in your journal page
Telling of your joy and sadness, your patience and your rage
They linger as if a shallow mist and I'm drowning in your song
Living in a world where you aren't here, but you're never gone

Do I captivate?
Do I intrigue?
Do you find it so hard to believe?
That I can sprout angellic wings
With a simple verse?

Do I infect?
Have I enthralled?
Do you trust that I have given my all?
Or has your trust began to fall
As sweet nothings soon dispurse?

Do I intrance
Do I inspire
Can you tell me where is the fire
The pure passion, the hot desire
In which we found blessing and curse

Do I ensnare?
Do I intrance?
Do you still wait for me to dance?
For I write words that concentrate on romance
But in reality, I may be the worst

Do I captivate?
Do I intrigue?
The person I find who is asking is me
For I have done so many things
With a simple verse

Wasted breaths
Bounced checks
Just a lifetime of it all
He'd sing
Off-key
Improper rises and falls
Too much
Too soon
Too little way too late
He stands
Slow hands
Another Monday in heartbreak

Chasing
Her off
Alarm clocks go off in his mind
Love of one
Undone
Twice as sad, hardest to bind
Desk job
Unfulfilled
Life unkind and so goes fate
Unsure
In the grey
This is Monday in heartbreak

Days pass
The same
Each a Monday in its way
Moments come
Never stay
All the ships sailed from the bay
Wishless
Fishless
Nothing for him out at sea
Life goes
Time slow
Monday heartbreaks, hard to leave

I am not alone here, these words accompany
Always close at hand, sitting right next to me
Ringing in the silence of the room behind closed doors
Bouncing off the walls and off of the hardwood floor

Tenderly caressing what is left of my heart
Nudging my hand to the pencil, telling me to start
Wiping tears from my eyes and connecting the drops
Presenting the painter poet with a vision of art

Not today, oh not today, the sore is much too deep
The artist in me cries that the fall is much too steep
But inspiration beckons me this grim and lonely night
Inclining me, between the tears, are the words which I must write

Goodnight, Goodnight

Each and every etching is a tearing truth to me
Falling again and again into a tragedy
But on I go as pain does grow and ease at the same time
Escaping my mind and etching on my heart with every line

This is not depression, this is a cleansing thing
See how the words choose to echo love to me
A losing game, a crying shame, a message wrapped in tears
A courageous allegation surrounded by constant fear

I will be done wih my sitting with my words soon
As they float in the midnight sky up to the moon
I will never see you again inside the tears I cry
Only in the words on paper that you left behind

Goodnight, Goodnight

Ramshackled dream
Held together with glue and string
And prayers
Floating as a feather
Yet easily the heaviest of things

What tapestries you inspire
Yet not strong enough the exit my mind
Keeping you hidden
Incubating long term
Until you’re almost over cooked

Make I take a glimpse of you
Never to touch, in fear of the break
Complexly understated
A warming flame
Flickering in this empty cold world

Ramshackled dream
Pretty to most, breathtaking to me
Sitting ever fervent
Waiting to shine
Wait to breathe the air

If I found you and you were sinking
Miles and miles of sorrow, drinking
Falling deeper, seeing darker
Past the red, the mile marker
Down into yourself it seemed
Faded glory, haunting dream
Yet there you were on solid ground
Feet steadfast, heart sinking down
My hand outstretched to you to say
I am here and it's okay
But whispers overcrowd your ears
Anger, remorse, horror, fear
And there you sink, lungs filled with sand
No breath to take, none understand

Climb your beanstock high
Childhood memories, they fade
Although they never do say why
Step on clouds in the sky
Riches await to greet your glance
As to hollow earth you say goodbye

One foot clothed and one bare
Holding tattered dress as you race home
Picking pumpkin fragments from your hair                                              
Worry not if your cupboard's bare
They may lock you up and lock you in
But the fitting piece will soon be there                

Take my hand, touch the sky
Let the rushing wind sing to you
As we head towards the second star to the right
To the dawn we'll race and pierce the night
Fairytales carry a dream
And provide glimmering eyes till  morning light

Their hearts conflicted with their heads
And soon they found the word they read
Evaporated into subconscious memories

And with that, he put down his pen
For a moment he sighed, then wrote again
Words that he wasn't sure any would see

He sat as lamplight lit the room
Fighting darkness, blackness looms
Shadows imitating his moving pen

In each and every word he'd bleed
His heart, his whole, his history
Although unsure any soul would read again

Wasted breaths caught on my fingertips as I count the hours
Flickering stars twinkle like lights slightly low on power
And I wish I was sleeping but sleeping is a luxury
And it seems it cannot be afforded by me

I have wasted too much time with my eyes shut closed
Being foolish enough to think as I slept, time froze
Only to wake and see my day had turned to twinkling stars
And from today, now yesterday, I was so very far

If I asked politely for these hours to be returned to me
Would I expect my precious day to come back again freely
Or should I find a way to waken once more to sunlight
By closing my eyes once more tonight

In this lone
Construct of bone
Within the make of me
Hides things that I
Cannot deny
Where marrow used to be

Over this frame
Lies sheets of veins
Screaming a name ears can’t hear, that mouth won’t speak
That drives me
To insanity
As she’s just beyond my reach

And flaw’ed skin
That’s blanketed
These concrete truths to stop their bleeding
Bleeds nonetheless
In pained excess
Wanting to know what it’s needing

Callused hands
On a beaten man
With insides coming outside in truth
So much doubt
To filter out
In the finding of you

Don't hold your breath for too long or you end up suffocating
And as you turn blue, your vision askew, your eyes might start dilating
And the air that everyone else chose to breathe you soon end up hating
As you sit there, dying, wanting more, drowning in open air

She wrote words that spoke to me
Of ticking clocks and bells that ring
And pretty dances and ladies that sing
All that I read of
Her scribbling pen etched life's tapestries
Showing off her mastery
Of wonders and those left wondering
Her pencil etching on
And clouds would pass and candles burn
Just to light and see and learn
The words and stories she did earn
And tell the world of as well as me
And how her words did captivate
Dewing eyes and raised heart rates
And time and pencil wrote of love and hate
And stories... oh, they were told...

Tender lips grace mine and I can't find the word
For no sparks fly and not an utterance can be heard
And I dice in once more to find what it is I so desperately want
Only to come up empty-handed

Branded is my heart with the sign "Do Not Enter"
A lock unflinching hidden within it's epicenter
With tears in my eyes, my pursuit of you ends in turmoil
In the blink of an eye, I find I am lost once again

Easier would be to grow in love, to learn
But nothing kindles passion to want to make this love burn
And so I earn the title of heartbreaker, of yours and of mine
For as much as I want to, I'll never truly be yours....

The inner works of me
Grinding gears of bone amidst a ruby sea
Encapsuled within canals of running vein
Running to and from the station of the heart, an endless train

The inner workings of me
A flowing mind composed with pure memories
A simple wanting to be more than par
With dreams that far outnumber stars

The inner workings of me
A planted seed of aspiration reaping fruit from this tree
My limbs reaching towards the dawn
A hopeful poet, writing on

Why do you write with your pen to paper
Living your dreams in your words
Questions in your mind that dive into your work
Creating visions of different worlds

Is it for love or the lack there of?
What does your truth entail
Looking for something where there once was nothing
With hope in your hand, so frail

Why do you write here under an idle light
Sitting, pondering the days
A heart possessing both joy and pain
A wish written in ink that fades

Who do you long for, what do you live for
What composes your reality
Why do you write, dearest poetic soul
What keeps you dreaming?

I must look at myself and question the things I do
For I find though time has taught against it I am still drawn to you
With you it seems the thunder roars before the lightning strikes
And deep inside though the sun may rise I know it's an omen of night
For you must see what you've done to me, my ever vigilant addiction
You have made this humble thing called love into a cancerous infliction
The passion may out weigh the punishment now, but that will pass
But most assuredly I'll step on the shards that made this heart of glass
For you, dear lover, dear treasure, dear passion, are poison to my tongue
A gas that seeps inward and seems to destroy me lungs
And I am your addict, your puppet, your fool, a conundrum for the world to see
And when fingers start pointing at the one to blame, I'll find all point to me
So I will continue on ******* your venomous lies
Until I find my heart and mind wish for you to be the one who cries
With that I will take the glue and piece back my happy day
Praying that although I long for you, this time I'll stay

Tempt. No, coax fate and hope it might not turn
Feeling fire upon your feet and praying it doesn't burn
Earn the chance, change the dance, rearrange the tide
And this thing we call gravity will only be a state of mind

Faster than the wind with death hot on your tail
Only chance to catch you is if you stop and fail
Frailty is miles away, not deserving a second glance
Stand up. Stand firm. Take that immortal chance...

I find things ending, bending, breaking
And not the way they're suppose to be
My love that was transcending
Hit the brick wall that was reality

In my inebriation
I found myself separate from reality
My love hospitalization
Came to a point where there no resuscitating

You are the cause of the tears I cry which means that you must stay
For contrary to what you may have heard, I don't cry every day
My heart is but a fortress placed upon an island around tossing seas
And you broke down every barrier when you caused this crying
The tears are falling down into the oceans surrounding the walls
Rising the sea level and forcing me search for shelter in these halls
Shockingly I find you there staring with your starstruck eyes
And every time I look at you, the water tends to rise
Don't mistake my grasping you for enjoyment, though, my dear
For although it may seem contrary to my lines, I hate these tears
I let go of far too much of me when they run down my face
But the only way to stop them is to once again feel your embrace
So I will wait and pray I do not die inside this sea of love
Yet I also pray I may drown in the thoughts which I am thinking of
For to like is not to love and love is deadly at times
And I have found the one I love inside these tears I cry

And these wounds will sing
Speak, dear blemishes, pray, sing
Tell of battles lost

Show, in scars, lessons
Remember the tears once shed
Cherish each new smile

Wounds, speak your old songs
Tell the world of wisdom gained
Through faults of our own