I am not afraid
Of the great lakes

Despite their vastness
Despite their coldness
Despite their power
Despite their deepness

I don't know why
I suppose it's because

I already know my insignificance
I already know I don't matter

My heart is already colder than the water
It cannot hurt me

This pain I feel
Is more powerful than the strongest waves

And I am not afraid of drowning
In their depths
In fact, I hope for it sometimes

So no,
The great lakes don't scare me

Okay, fine
I lied
I'm not okay
I haven't been okay
Not for a long time

I don't remember what joy is
Or what it feels like
I thought I had
But then I watched them laughing
And I realized
That what I was feeling was not joy

And then I heard the teasing
The mean words
I saw the treatment they gave me
They think I'm stupid
And so do I
That's when the cuts started

Now I want to cry
No one cares
I don't care
Do I?
Should I?

I want to die
I want to **** myself
I think
I wish, in reality
Should I?

My heart is so broken
I'm so totally worthless
So my heart is for sale
Half-price only

I think it still works
I know the pain
And fear section does

The bit for joy
Is long out of use

And the piece for love
Is quite broken

But it mostly still works
So,
I've got half-price heart for sale

It used to be
That I would escape the world
Through sleep

Then the nightmares came
And now
I am not even allowed
That 'luxury'

I said I was okay,
                and another person was deceived.