why do i feel so empty?
could it really be
because
We lost?
or is it
more?
what did I lose?
question is
what haven't i lost yet

idek
and i am too tired to

heart screams
noise overwhelms
why is it
failing me?

is there truly
no one?
no fish?
maybe mammals
are better

but the world
hates
why do they
hate
me

too close to home,
to what I know

why cant this
end?

How long does it take for the world to see how depressed you are?
How long to see the emptiness, the false air?
How long can someone pretend without losing themselves in the process?
How long does it take for someone to go numb?

buoys
someone with whom a
relationship
would be good,
easy
normal

grills
no pressure, no stress
simply be you
and you are
fine;
loved

buoys,
a whole other topic
please stop
bringing it up;
grills
so much easier;
feels so safe,
feels so comfort

drip drop
who knows
which will be
the last
like breath
no one ever
knows
no one ever thinks
to appreciate
either

do I
or do I
not
so easy
but is it
really?