Yeah, just tired.

This beauty that I’m faking
Only takes away the hope I’m lacking

I can only find it hard to say
From the words they say
Please, let me in

But we chose the life we’re breaking
Plus the friends that have been making
How can we live like this?

And I will cry all I want to,
I don’t care
How much you invest yourself in this belief
It’s not working out for me

Left on my feet
Only to fall
Victim and finally
Enter in my heart

I** wish I wasn't
So fake

For we both call
And finally realize;
Know our mistakes
Even if we can’t handle pain

Somewhere between
fury


and


hurting

those
    azure
         tides
     were
     mesmerizing
now
   their
       bonechilling
              waters
             are
    maleficent
and
    when
          someone
     tells us
to leave
     while we
               can
     we run
like
   hell.

And through pale faces                    
Our dark ghosts                                
Can’t mix with beautiful graces        
And they poison the hosts              

And just to smile
Can show the pain
That all the vain
Decided it wasn't worth their while

And when black strings
Climb to your neck
Your despair spreads like wings
And you turn into this wreck

I need to run
From the thoughts in my head
They start from the time
I get out of bed

They won’t leave me alone
Not for one moment
I can’t turn it off
The words are unspoken

So what do I do
With all this crap in my head swimming around
I just want to plant my feet on solid ground

I’ll take a pill, and then another
What the hell
I don’t want to suffer

Pills are kicking in
I’m relaxing now
Finally the thoughts stopped
I wonder how?

With your arms comfort me
Or find a distraction to set me free
from the darkness and abyss
seeping in with its deadly kiss

Hold me as we watch our favourite show
or buy me roses, row by row
To heal me from the wounds of the past
and find me happiness to last

Give me advice gentle and caring
or in silence sit simply staring
To let me melt in your eyes
away from all the pasts dark lies

Compliment me on more than looks
or bring me all my favourite books
To distract me from all the scars
of the constant emotional wars

But don't ever let me hear you say
that everything will be okay
Because if I do, then you will see
that our relationship isn't meant to be

Let's think of the present now
and if you do not know how
maybe you don't know me after all, here's why
your only way to comfort, is to think of the past and lie