I believe
women
are much more beautiful
than men

Whether you
look from the
outside in
or pull their flesh in
and expose them
inside out

I think
from now on
I will love only women.

i'm sick of writing poems about you
but nothing else invokes the same extent of emotion
you make me so
ugh
insecure, unsure, unwell
but then
you smile at me
or tell me we should hang out soon
and i pour out words

Before I fall asleep, my chest burns
like I've swallowed a lit cigarette

and if you aren't there to smother it,
I wake up coughing smoke
into my hands.
(b.r.o.)

I would call you a friend
but friends don't claw
at the back of your eyes
while you're asleep.
(b.r.o.)

I REMEMBER WHAT MARCH WAS LIKE WITH THE WEATHER CHANGING AND THE LEAVES GROWING
AND THE SUN SHINNING
AND  THE ******* SUN SHINNING.
AND YOU, MY GOD THE WAY YOU LOOKED IN THE SHINNING SUN STANDING UNDERNEATH THAT ******* TREE,
UNDER THAT GOD ****** TREE.
AND I REMEMBER WHAT FALLING IN LOVE FELT LIKE IN SPRING BECAUSE YOU HAD MY HEART IN YOUR HANDS,
GRASPED IN YOUR ******* HANDS.
AND YOU HELD IT OVER YOUR ******* HEAD AND I THOUGHT THAT YOU WERE DOING IT BECAUSE YOU PROUD,
OH GOD WAS I SO ******* PROUD.
AND I REMEMBER THE BEGINNING OF APRIL WHEN YOU STARTED HURTING YOURSELF AGAIN AND YOU SAID IT WAS BECAUSE YOU MISSED HER AND **** THAT HURT,
THAT ******* HURT.
I TRIED SO ******* HARD TO REMIND YOU THAT IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT THAT SHE WAS GONE AND THAT HER DEATH HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH THE LOVE YOU HAD FOR HER,
NOTHING TO DO WITH IT.
I TRIED SO ******* HARD TO SHOW YOU THAT IF YOU JUST LET ME HOLD YOUR STUPID ******* HAND THAT I COULD MEND YOUR SHATTERED PIECES TOGETHER BUT YOU COULDN'T ******* LET ME DO THAT COULD YOU?
YOU JUST ******* COULDN'T.
ALL I WANTED WAS FOR YOU TO LOVE ME THE WAY THAT I LOVED YOU BUT YOU ******* LEFT
AND I STILL DON'T KNOW WHY YOU DID THAT.
(WHY'D YOU ******* LEAVE)
ALL I WANTED WAS FOR YOU TO ******* STAY
(PLEASE ******* STAY)
AND TRY BUT YOU COULDN'T EVEN ADMIT TO YOURSELF THAT YOU DESERVED ME AND I DON'T ******* UNDERSTAND WHY YOU COULDN'T JUST GIVE IN FOR ONCE.
WHEN YOU LEFT, YOU THREW MY ******* HEART INTO THE ******* MUD
INTO THE GOD ****** MUD
AND MY GOD DID THAT ******* HURT.
BUT I SWEAR IF YOU CAME BACK ID PICK IT UP, WIPE IT OFF AND IT BACK TO YOU ONCE MORE.