One day you will meet a girl
Who will be joyful about everything in the world
She will not have a past that haunts her
By the scars that were reflect roads of agony when she made every wrong turn
She will not smile half heartedly
She will not laugh loud to swallow her tears
She will not hurt you intentionally
She will not push you away
She will not toy with you
She will not feed you sweet nothings
She will not make you a distraction for what she truly feels
She will not build walls so high even China cannot compete
She will not drink herself to death
She will not keep secrets
She will not make you feel bad for her
She will not cheat on you
She will not love you and push you away, afraid.
She will be clean
She will laugh and it will be real
She will cry it and it will be real
She will hurt you but never on intention
She will never push you away
And you will be persistent to let yourself in
She will drive you crazy
She will tell you she loves you and prove it in every way
You will be an inspiration
She may have walls but you will be determined this time to break them down
She may drink and get herself wasted but you will always be there for her at 2am, on the bathroom floor holding her after emptying her stomach, singing her to sleep, and it would always be one of the best nights of your life
She will not keep secrets from you
She will always make you feel better even in yiur darkest days
She will be faithful
She will be there
And you will be there to witness it all
But it's not gonna be with me.