Something happens
when your eyes
catch mine
and I have yet to
figure out if
they truly do
glisten or if
I’ve just been getting
drunk off of your
incandescence
this entire time
and seeing stars.

Fortify me.

I broke free of all the chains
Finally shook off all the pain
I don’t have to take anymore
Stumbling through the dark in search of the door

The moon cast its glow over me
And finally I could breathe
I lay down on the cold hard earth
Wondering what it all was for

Something inside of me finally cracked
And what it was it ain’t comin’ back
All the parts that were sealed up tight
Out of mind and out of sight

And as the wind tears through me
My hearts blowin’ up like a cherry tree
Blossoms burst and fall to the ground
My tears they make no sound

I’ve been wandering for many years
Doing what it takes to satiate my fears
Searching for a treasure though no treasure was found
Until I found myself buried in the ground

Up to my neck was the hole I dug
Like the earth was giving me a hug
As the moon washes over me
It was like I could finally see

As the clouds passed over head
Figured I was better off dead
Than rotting in some broken dream
it’s enough to make a grown man scream

Where did I finally go wrong
I could’ve swore that I was strong
But that burden held over my head
Demon inside was constantly fed

And here I am, laying in the ground
No more dreams, no more sounds
I’ve traded it all in for a peaceful goodbye
Ive never felt more alive inside

I’ve been wandering for many years
Doing what it takes to satiate my fears
Searching for a treasure though no treasure was found
Until I found myself buried in the ground

Goodbye love
Goodbye hate
Goodbye time
Goodbye too late
Goodbye crutch
And goodbye me
Don’t worry I am finally free

Goodbye love
Goodbye hate
Goodbye time
Goodbye too late
Goodbye crutch
And goodbye me
Don’t worry I am finally free

You killed me
With your words
Your unspoken truth
I'm a memory
Because you ruined me
My mind got ****** up
Now i can't live without you
So if i can't live with you
This is the result
Broken
Shattered
Gone

(And blood fills the room
Dripping from his eyes
He heard her last words
"I just don't want to be with you"
And his heart couldn't take it
It ****** all the blood up
Every drop in his body
And held it in
And waited patiently
And burst like a water balloon
Now all the other people
Have to clean up this mess
And they'll give her daggers
And his spirit will live on
Regretting every decision he ever made
Wishing he was better
A fraction of what she wanted
A better person
Or better yet
A woman)

I don't listen to what people say much
or comprehend many situations that rise
I use plain language like yogurt
and barely taste the sunlight on my eyes -
I shave my face on Sundays
I occasionally stalk you online
I exercise on a bi-weekly schedule of shame
and I lie to my lungs telling them it will all be fine

You came into my life
like a miracle

You took me to the
peaks of happiness

You stood by me
all the way long

You loved me like
I am the only person on earth

And then
you left me

Throwing me into an abyss
Filling my heart with empty space
Turning me into a crazy person

I waited for you
to come back but in vain

You gave me a reason to stop my life
But life has given me many reasons to
stand up and walk

So the long wait has ended
forever and ever

The illusion
That I met long ago
Dressed in red
Masked in black
So plush and classy
Enough to turn my view
And twist my mind
That I've been making lyrics
Of songs and poems
And I've been writing million letters
Of diaries and thoughts
I've been far mesmerized
To feel the love and pain
Only for making history
That's enough, illusion
I knew it all
I tasted them all
So I'm weary now to make more lyrics
Or to spill more thoughts
You've taught me lessons
And yes I've learned

In the truth of the midnight hour
Under cover of the night sky
I stand as a lonely lighthouse
Shining my bright light
Out onto the dark sea
Knowing it will draw him to me.

The bright lights of the stars above
Reflect on the endless dark sea
Millions of imaginary diamonds
Just out of reach with each breaking wave.
Their dancing lights drown mine completely.

Yet I stand as a lonely lighthouse
In the hopelessness of the midnight hour
Under cover of a beautiful lie
Shining my fading light
Out onto the dark sea
Hoping it will draw him to me.

I imagine the waves will bring him
Slowly closer to shore.
In the nostalgia of the midnight hour
Under cover of memories of love
A stand as a lonely lighthouse
Hoping those memories bring him back for more.

Far across the sea
Stands another lonely lighthouse
Shining its light out onto the dark sea
Could it be him
Searching for me?