here I sit
grounded
speaking of who I now am
I am a worker

I will not get off my wall
these hands that shake, fearfully
they will work until they are sore

you can try to pull me down
or shake my foundation
but, no, not me
not this time

its at this moment
when I realize this wall is only for me
the one who knows the truth
who knows the way and life

you can try to climb my wall and join me
but no, that's not how this works
you will crumble
crumble into a pit of endless ruin if you do this alone

don't come to me for help
come to him
he will start a new wall for YOU
you are a worker now

you will work until your hands shake
fearfully
working until you are sore

The stars
The moon
Leading me back to you

The sun
The trees
Unleashing my soul to be free

you know me
and you see me
but seek me in the dark of night
where my face is shadowed
and safe from exposure

I am dark but lovely
and the darkness isn't the evil that you may expect
there's something beautiful about a mystery
and that's all I want you to discover

Spring has come
Love is here
The birds will tweet
The gardeners will cheer
The bikers will ride
And the snow will melt
The flowers will blossom
And joy will be felt

soul, my soul
easy your heart
pain is a game
that is only about to start

when the wick burns out
as we kick and we turn
the fire will die
and so comes a burn

I stumble
I fall
I've been through it all

I break
I bend
But I will always mend

And when the grips I held
Keep telling me no
When the doors are closed
And I don't know where to go

I will run to the mountains
Where I find my light
I will chase the sun
Reminding me what's bright

No it's not easy
And no it's not smooth
But there's something so breathtaking
About seeking the truth

And it's the process of healing
That's so worth the wait
And though you may be tested
The end result is great

the epitome of love was all that you were
you saw right through any scars and tears upon me
the mistakes I wore didn't define me in your eyes
it was like I was so valued that there were no words
but maybe "no words" for me wasn't what I thought it was

because there really were no words
I heard nothing
the love I once saw
evaporated
dripped away into nothing
but a fear in my heart

I thought you would be here
and when I knocked
nobody was there
time and time again

sometimes
when you love too hard
they cant handle it, they say
but you could
I know you could
you just weren't ready
but sometimes people come too soon
and by the time you came around
it was just too late
far
too
late.

In your presence
Heaven and earth collide

In your presence
All worldly distractions
Are push aside

For you are such a good father
Knowing exactly what we need
So when we enter this holy place
The veil covering us is peace

The stories that you tell me,
Oh how they mix my mind
And when I search for answers
They seem too hard to find

And when I get tired of soul searching
And feel like I'm loosing time
I cannot help but wonder
If this story is really mine

I am a bird,
Yes, I am free
My wings are stretched wide
As the world waits for me

I'm terrified to leave my perch
Where I am nestled in safe
But if i hold back
I will loose life's race

Fear not, my child
For the evil that creeps
Is far too wide to slip though
The cracks
To the door of your heart

The door is locked
For no force can break that chain
Except me, my daughter

You are so precious
And so beautifully raw

In my kingdom,
Nothing will touch you
For my perfect love
Has overcome the darkness

The world seems to be blooming
But I cannot tell
Because of all the people
Who act like endless hell


I say
Get out of here
You don't belong

I say
This world is precious
The things you do are wrong

Their minds are so confused
Far too knotted to ever change
So they keep dragging others down
So that soon everyone's the same

Yesterday you say today
Today you say tomorrow
Go out and change this place
Times not ours to borrow