Write it down
That thing
You fantasize about.

Write it down
Those words you dare not
Say aloud.

Write it down

Now is the right time to write
When words will not sit tight
When they cannot match
Whatever you hold inside.

Leave it all to feeling
Will give these words meaning

Write it down
What silences your mind
Exactly that
Which makes your dear heart bounce.

It is a wall to climb
And one to knock down

Write it all --
The words do not need to blend
It is then
When feelings make the most sense.

Write it on paper
My love,
The one who will answer

One who can read
Lines that are not poetic.

In silence I wait for what is real,

Watching the wandering souls,
                                                         Their home on the streets,

Urgency speaks nothing but lies,
How quickly I forget,
All that is meaningless,


Failing to grasp what slips through my fingers,
Content to live with unrest,

Restless for what is next.

~LC~

So much I want to say but that old demon is there again holding my tongue in place.

So much I want to do, but that heavy ball and chain are causing me much strain.

See I don't  let my emotions get the best of me, but it's not my emotions that's the problem really.

It's the grip I hold on for tomorrow, head way in the clouds fill my reality with sorrow.

My negativity weigh me down, but a heavy head wears the crown.

I'm my own worst enemy; I fight wars and battles deep within me.

If I catch a glimpse  of my future,  I run and hide beneath the covers, afraid what fraction of my past may no longer be a mystery.

I bet I have lost enough ,
having worked a day to list ,
all the losses I already kissed ,
I believe I have lost enough .

the list is long,
I wonder how me it belongs ,
right from my willingness to risk,
I bet I have lost enough .

making myself courageous ,
to accepting the every single loss,
consoling myself to try one more ,
to losing again and again ,
I BET I LOST ENOUGH THIS FAR.

the season turned
sun into black dark
and we live, still
within the circle

My fingers reached for the tip.
As my lips hugged it,
You were at the back of my mind
Then I inhaled to the fullest.
I held every cloud as long as I could
So at the back you'd linger
Never to bother what's ahead.
Until I was at the brink of suffocating,
Until I needed to breathe,
I had to exhale and knew, as I wanted,
To let go every memory of you.
But as I did, I had no intention
Of letting a part of me drift with you.
I was able to smoke you out
With red droplets of me
Sinking through the earth.

The I love you stopped a long long time ago. Sometimes I'm tempted to say those three words just one more time. Sometimes when we're together the piercing words almost spill out but in a instant I stop myself.
I stop because I know how you'll reply.
When I hear those two words come out of your mouth I'll be crushed because that was the inevitable outcome for me saying I love you one last time