Look at me.
Defects and flaws,
I wear them as
my crown.

And yes, it feels like I’m falling apart
trying to hold everything together

I want to live,
I want to love.
Intensely,
Beautifully.

I want to live,
I want to love.
Fearless,
Worryless.

I want to live,
I want to love.
To the fullest,
To the milky way and back.

I want to live,
I want to love,
With you.

i woke up from a bad dream and the first thing i thought of when i woke up was
the strong want of wanting to hear your voice.

pictures in my mind
happy times captured and framed
time lapsing memory

You gave me silken scarves and solitude
To weave my own bindings
You gave me surpluses of satin
Bandages for skin you broke
You gave me Swarovski accessories
As if it excused your absences
You gave me smooth apologies
A salve to my twisted fingers

Don't listen to that voice
The one within your mind
That tells you everything is going to be okay

Because it's not

You know it's not

You struggle every day and every night
Always tired of this fight
It draws you in and lures you too far
Then you're trapped and there's no going back
So why bother?

Why bother?
Why care?
It's not like anyone is there
To hear you cry out for help
Or to see you reach out desperately

So you sit there and you cry

Until the one you truly love comes along
To pull you back from the depths of the hell within your head

You reached for the stars
and put them in my eyes

I keep them locked
behind my eyelids


fearful

that you´ll change
your mind