I miss him.
his lips.
smile.
eyes.
mind.
I pushed him away,
now I'm the only one to blame.

how come, you must rub it in my face.
about how happy you are with him.
the man I love.
you stole him.
gone.
and you feel the need to brag.
why?
how come, you get pleasure..
from making me feel small.
unwanted.
being second choice hurts enough,
without your words.
please.
go.

I am no poet.
just a lost girl expressing her word.
and sometimes wondering weather or not,
I belong in this world.
with cold shaking hands,
I find it had to stand.
this world is so cruel.
why can't it just be me & you?
I am no poet.
but, here I am
waiting for you.
I'll give you a hand.

you say she's heaven.
but, you let her drag you threw hell.

I try, but I can’t.
It becomes a long lost friend.
No longer am I able to escape.
My mind starts to run,
I became out of breath.
Suffocating.
All I need is a breath of air.
But, that seems like a far-fetched dream.
I start to collapse.
“Help me!”
Discovering I can’t speak.
Thunder starts booming.
The storm rolls in.
Is this a war I cannot win?

One hit,
Two hits,
Three hits, four.
My thoughts begin to walk out the door.
Five hits,
Six hits,
Seven hits, eight.
Suddenly I can think straight.

I used,
I used to feel so alone.
unwanted.
unnoticed.
until, one day.
I met her.
she wasn't like the others.
she thought I was,
kind,
smart.
she didn't believe,
the words others spoke.
looked straight threw them.
with an open-mind.
now,
I feel wanted.
somewhere,
somehow.
im, no longer
afraid.
little does she know,
I was on the edge.
between
life and death.
one kind heart.
changed it all.
saved me.
thank you.