you said I'm gonna *******
I heard I love you
you said you're hot
I understand you're beautiful
you slapped my ***
I felt a caress
you said it’s over
I opened my eyes
you said get away from me
I felt cold

there's
nobody's
hand
I'd
rather
be
holding
right
now
than
yours.

-l.j.t.

stop telling me i'm "pretty".
I am not.
stop telling me I've got the best smile around.
I don't.
I'm not as "perfect" as you may think.
I'm a mess.
and no I'm a beautiful mess.
im a storm.
a roaring,
storm.
stop telling me lies.

-l.j.t.

you don't know hurt,
until you've pushed away the one you love most.
and soon come to realize,
you need them.
but, they are no longer there.
that's hurt.
when you don't know if they'll ever return.
constantly wondering "do they even care?"
thats hurt.
and i'm hurting.

-l.j.t.

broke down.
abandoned.
confused.
it's how I feel when I think of you.

father.
where have you gone?
lately I feel so alone.
I just need someone to call "home".

father.
why did you leave so soon?
maybe you saw a light in the moon.
but, will you return?
I need you here.

father.
was I not enough?
or was I to much?
I'll never know
'cause you won't say.

so I guess I'll just fade away.

tried.
lost.
pain.
why me?

why must I feel so alone.
unwanted.
left.

no matter how hard I try.
how many times I tell myself "it'll pass"
I can't seem to bring a smile to my dull face.

why do I feel this way?
can I change?
why must I ask so many unanswerable questions.
is it just me?

why me?

-l.j.t.