fear is myself now
frantically typing, eyes hazed, heart in my mouth
everything has halted and all I hear is fear.
I thought I was going to lose my everything.
and now i'm scared
because I can't picture myself without you.
i've lost my breath...
help me catch it back?

d i s t a n c e
the cruel word that grazes through my lips,
what makes my eyes sore when thoughts of it drip through my mind.
thoughts of you and I separated through oceans,
wishing that its tide were your arms so you could pull me back to you.
to your arms that I call my home,
to your eyes were I seek refuge,
to your lips where I tasted love and where you would plant kisses on me
and I'd wait for them to blossom to the future of me and you.

to think, how lost we were, until we found that person,
who made us jump out of bed in the morning,
intoxicated by the thought of returning to them.
they made us feel so safe
that we never wanted to leave in the first place.
I never left.
you did.

breathe*
it is all over now.

allow yourself to be happy.
go through your kaleidoscope of
hopes and dreams;
see the multitudes of options there for you
and then reach out for them.
set your heart for the sky.

don't fog yourself behind
the complications of something
or your inability to obtain something.
your happiness is pinned across the sky like stars.
so break out, reach for it,
before you don't have the chance to.

let me fathom my fear into words.
I'm scared I'll always be alone
because I still haven't met someone
who simply gives a ****.