Inflate my ego
flying high in a balloon
free from lunacy
                              Kelly McManus

Ill gotten money
is sour dough.

Ill gotten bread
is sweet though.

Remember that promise long ago?

After that, you seemed to glow.

Day and night I was by you.

At you side, the time flew.


The promise is always in my mind.

Those words that I long to find.

That night, we swore to stay,

by each others sides till' the last day.


So I'll do that. Of course I will.

Those holes in your heart I'll try to fill.

I'll stay by you, I promise.

Together, we can live in bliss.

I guess
what I fear
cannot be
founded in fiction,
but in reality
itself.

There’s a gaping hole
Inside my body
I can feel it sitting there
Sometimes it feels like sand is filling it up
Like your love is filling it up
But the bottom of this hole
The hole inside my body
Is like a sink hole
It’s still in there somewhere
I know it is
But the hole consumes it
It consumes everything
It consumes me
It seems to fade
Like it was fixed up
Like it was reconstructed
But I know it’s not true
It’s still there
The same **** hole
The hole that started with him
The hole that I wish would go away
It’s a natural disaster
I hope it goes away
I hope I can fix it
Maybe you can fix it
Because he caused it
I’m sorry you have to pick up the pieces he left
I’m sorry I’m broken, maybe beyond repair
Because inside my body
There’s a gaping hole