she replaces her tears with laughs
awakens at night to avoid nightmares and the judgeful eyes of loved ones
she drinks away her confusions
smokes her way out of frustrations
injects affection into her heart of lust
feeds her mind with vindictive thoughts

she watched his love turn to doubt through her bloodshot eyes
and so,
she laughed to replace her eyes that didn't work
she laughed so hard until her stomach hurt

irritating itching creeping up my neck
annoying buzzes in my ear
screeching of the chalk board
the sound of knuckles cracking
the silence so noiseless it embarrasses my thumping heart
this is how my soul feels

A world without gravity
My body is floating with ease
I'm no longer breathing but I can still see
How the sky looks from underneath
There's something calming about the sounds of water being free
Nothing contained in a glass or flavored with tea
There's something beautiful about the darkness of the sea
Falling deep within the earth with unknown existence of other beings
A world without gravity
I'm no longer breathing but I can still see
Where Poseidon's gardens waltzes with the currents' swishing beat
Where water can remain in endless motion, barbarous and free
Where crying wouldn't exist, no tears but only expressions of grief
Where the sky is a psychedelic groovy scene from a lucid dream
I feel my last heartbeat before I sink into a lightless sleep

-K.V

can we run away to an island just for us two

we could watch the ocean underneath the moon

wanting nothing else but to wake up next to you

looking at each other the way lovers do

bathing naked in the lagoons

surviving on fish and sweet fruit

stranded by choice like romantic fools

thinking no one could feel what we do

your nightmares are my dreams
your terrified of death
death leaves me intrigued
drugs and sleep may take you away
but death would be my eternal escape

Love should be a warm embrace

My embrace chokes my lovers

They leave, terrified and running

A love too much

A love too strong

I can't help my grip

Too eager and too alone

I keep my heart to myself for a while

Hoping for someone with a love like my own

I felt droplets of anxiety trickle down my forehead
My mind was malfunctioning at the thought of you
Being next to me for the first time
I bit down on my lower lip, focusing on inhales and exhales
A knot in my throat forbid me to say what I've been dying to say
With my heart in my mouth but my lips sealed

He took my hand

My hand folded so perfectly into yours
Electricity traveled through my veins, my heart quickened its rhythm
You smiled
I was powering up at lightening speed yet shutting down simultaneously
You rubbed your thumb on the edge of my spongy palm
A kiss softer than feathers you daringly brushed upon my cheek
Your touch was idyllic
I felt my pupils dilate in the utter darkness
One last exhale escaped from my motionless lips

I disintegrated.

-k.v

I put my phone down as my heart was pounding
I can't help but smile at the thought of your words
I can't help but smile at the thought of someone finding me beautiful
I can't help but feel adored
I can't help but feel everything
I can't help myself
I can't

-k.v

I've built these walls
Its vibrant rusty red hue was now faint
Abused with graffitied names I've been called
Gaping cracks and poison ivy cradle its stance

I've built these walls
Its purpose is to protect me from harm
But you are the strongest of storms
And you've come my way ready to break them down

I've built these walls
They are tired of existing like myself
They crumble into pieces, my aura is exposed
I look into your starless eyes, knowing it's dangerous to be this close

I've built these walls
They've been gone for some time
You broke through them then disappeared into the sky
Only to return with the most alluring sunshine
I've been waiting to feel for most of my life

-k.v

She was passive and quiet
She liked to be alone
She observed people through her dark eyes
Admiring lovers admire each other
She dreamt of flying through the clouds escaping reality
She dreamt of creating art to express what she couldn't put into words
She felt small but had vast mind
She was distant and shy
She stayed away in her room
Daydreaming of what could be
If she were to break out of her cocoon

-k.v

I hope I marry an artist
Where I'll be the main character of his poems
The woman in his photography
The lady he'd sing to in the morning
His idea of the perfect body to sculpt
The queen he'd paint over and over again
His lover and friend
His muse

-k.v

Your voice feels like silk caressing my skin
Goosebumps emerge from my pores when you say my name

...the way you say my name

Fantasized scenarios of myself blossoming for you with my body becoming one with yours underneath hidden heavens

I'm a damsel in distress and wanting you would be selfish of me
If only I were a goddess or queen
Nobody's affection would compare to mines
My Hercules

-k.v

I made a friend that no one can see. Not imaginative, he's quite real like you and me.

He's not the nicest person but I tolerate his presence. Then again...he's the only one who remains present.

He's been chained to my ankles since my infancy. Dragging him has grown tiresome for his weight is congruent to my own.

My days of sharing a cup of tea with him have risen. Sometimes I think he leaves when I'm with you.

But I wake up the next day to see him sitting at the edge of my bed. I sit in solitude knowing he's right next to me.

He holds the memories of my rejections in his backpack, chronologically organized for me to mourn over repeatedly.

Sweet sips of bitter beverages I endure as much as I can, the only substance that drives away this being.

Curling vapors caressing my lungs throw a curtain over my grieving.

As long as I'm alone, he will never free me from these chains. As long as I'm alone, Loneliness will remain.