Like light in the dark nights
As  guiding whispers in my worries
Building strength in me
To walk alone on my lonely paths
Visible only  to my aching mind
And at times to blurred thoughts
Crystal like on all days and nights
You are my everything ....
Like Sun , Moon , stars and their master!!

You are my pillar..
To lean on
To hold on...
To support
To stand firm !!

You are my life
My love
My breath
My heart
And it's beat !!

You are my sun
Whom I rotate around
You are my days
You are my nights..!!

You are ...
My treasure
To be Proud of
For myself !!

You are mine for me...
But you are not mine!!
That's the irony
For me!!

I stand there
Where you left me....

Untouched ....
From then...
Till now ...

Spending my days and nights
Dreaming to  merge with you....
Like a river that keeps flowing
To merge with the ocean...

I want freedom
Freedom to fly
Freely like a bird
On the wings of my dreams
To the destinations I most like
With no questions asked
No answers to be told
To how when where and why..

I want freedom...
Freedom to be my self...

Why does the mind
Keep thinking always?
Often it is bright hopes
But more often
tangled in dark thoughts.

Sometimes it's fear,
At times  it's courage
And a lot it wanders
afar to unseen land
across untouched sand !

dominance of thoughts
Always on mind, never calm
Why? Sometimes it’s work
Every so often it’s home,
When will this endless
Chatter of thoughts cease?

“Meditate”  I hear  for “Oh God,”
With eyes closed, focus set
I try to still the storm within
And yet A train of thoughts
Rushes on , nonstop…!

With tranquility’s golden ray
war within ceases- mastering the art  
to control the flow of  thoughts
And now mind is clear…!
But for how long?

"Miss you"— not just a phrase
But a flood of emotions
Felt by an aching mind
That deeply misses
Your very presence…
Let alone you understand it
It is a hard fact and the very truth..!!

Moon in the morns
stars with their stares
Keep themselves mum
With the rise of  day's sun !!

Under the dark but jewled sky
With the smiling stars
And shining moon
I sit alone waiting for your arrival
Come ' on dear
Let's have talk
Let's have fun
And let's fall...
To the laughs from that!!

My
Heart sings
Your praise...
And
My
hand writes
those phrase !!

I tried to read
Lines on me
In the book of your mind..
Turned the pages
Back and forth
Innocently curious
To see it in bold letters..
But alas...
Where are those words on me??
That my eyes searched for..
My mind yearned to read..
And my heart eager to rejoice !!
Am I not in your world?
Or did I miss read you?
Who am I to you?
Just a someone  .. ???

Beneath the swaying trees
Where rivers flow silently,
a tale unfolds, as old as the sun.
In God's own country,
where hearts are kind- a partial truth
A mystery lingers in the collective mind.
Of the plethora of wealth that flows in
from lands afar middle east and west.
Yet, some say, the bowl is still empty
With a need for pleading on the loose!!
who are responsible?
With nothing Right and Left to ruins
sightless of lotus bloom
Is it the rulers, with vision unclear
Or silent voices, we struggle to hear?
Where are the famed heaps of wealth?
Of the land, now with begging bowl
it pains on labels, harsh and unkind.
On this land of beauty and endless charm !!
Let the ample fields where spices grow
Make the state, grow and glow
Weaving a story of hope, new and bold
where the future can unfold…
to rise above and find its calm.
for resilience to shine on every face !!

Krishnaa !
You are not just within the heart
but the very pulse of its every beat
Not only for those who gather around you
at Gurupavanpuri, but for those far away—
yet still drawn near to your eternal shrine!!

Young, beautiful, pretty girls
adorned in ethnic vibrant attire
try alluring you, fasting in your name
seeking you as their chosen one
or one like you as their destined better half!!

Eyes filled with hope and prayers on their lips
married women send their whispers
right from their soul to touch yours’
to cradle you as their child
And for a child of their longing!!

And then generations of grandmothers
Weaving your tales of mischief and play
lovingly preserving memories of you,
cherishing all their faith in gratitude
Hoping for peaceful fade!!
Krishnaa....
How do you see them all?
How do you hear them all?
In the ocean of voices calling out to you
Do you even hear my voice?
My whispers, my prayers and my yearnings?
And when will you answer to it? Krishnaa…..!!

Left corner of  my left eye
Lets down little drops of lovely tears
Leaving  dried salt on my dull face
Landing on the earth..
Loudly conveying to mind
Love it holds .....
Like, the pain of mind
Like the tears from eyes!!

Liked me and loved me
loved me and left me
Left me and let me..
To die..
I'm dying...

Fluttering sound of raindrops
Flickering lamp light at backdrop
Opened the shutters of my mind
To incessant flow of utterly
ambivalent feelings…..

Glittering memories rolling over past
Wilting  happenings of present
And flattering bright hopes of future!!

And at the far end ...
Lies dried up leaves withered down
Greeny grown up leaves on trees drenching in rain
With tiny leaves sprouting out...

Hopefully....life flows on !!

Heart to heart romance
Or heart wrenching heart breaks
The only person I can write about
without a second thought
Is YOU!!

THE EVER ILLUMINATING LIGHT
FOR ME TO WRITE!!

Just like the moon
I shine like a full moon
Once a month...
That's the day ..
When You are with me ...dear!!
Wish you were with me
Everyday ...
To be a full moon every day!!

Lingering taste
Of treasured memories
Awakens soul
from tending deep  falls
keeping me on track
with all other thoughts
set aside…..

Roots of my dreams
Dried up
And my wings been chopped
Why did I allow it be done?

Shouldn't I have  stood up
Watered, nurtured my dreams to grow
And let it fly in the unlimited Sky!!

Trying to make loved ones happy
Has cost me , my happiness
For the sacrifices I did on my own
Made them happy....
But where's my happiness??

Time is up...I realise
To make me happy
And live my life
And here you have come
As messenger
From father in heaven....
To show me that heaven on Earth!!

I believe....now its my time
My life...I need to live!!

Like a lonely tree  
I feel I stand ....
At times tossing  head
to either sides...
Just to know if it's you
Who's passing by my side ....!!

I love those ones
Who love silence
For...
I always admire silence ..
As silence speaks a lot .....
If understood ...!!

I have a pond, a tiny one
With crystal like water so little
Each day Lily blooms
And it's a beauty to see it blossom
so elegant...

As sun rises, Lily nudges out
Face to sun standing tall..
And goes stumped down
When Sun gets to set...

With disappearance of sun
My Lily drowns into water
Feeling sad , for seems gone
The one for whom she lives
Each day...and every other day..

Having adored  and wondered
Her love for sun...
My restlessness inquired her...
She just smiled and blushed..!!
With a meaning hidden ...
That I could read....
Every one's love has a reason behind..
Sometimes....
inexpressible ....in words !!
-

Standing  tall and stable,  
With no branches broken
And no trunks scattered
But intact with loyalty,
forever bound, even in wildest storm!!

A character like rare,
precious gem...
Through tests and trials
proved time and again,
marking  loyalty at its  core !!

As many stories unfold..
Like a lamp of trust
and  light,  in sight..
it gleams , surrounded by hues
Of black and white...!!

A lifestyle never forged..
But living  like a dream
With no compromise.
But completely true
having no veiled lies.. !!

A choice made deep within.
To be true to self  !!

Somewhere...
Among the woods of  lofty thoughts
In the charms of your lush green love
Beats of my heart loses its rhythm
Struggling  hard to find it's path
Of missed beats and lost ways...
In your dreams !!

Mango tree in the yard,                        
stands tall and calm
Seasons change
Appearance budge
Yet remains firm on roots

Sunshine and thunder shower
harsh wind and deep winter
Always calm through out
Standing deeply rooted.

Different shades of green
Dark, darker and the lightest
Reflect like neon on night
the  Colours of autumn..
The roots hold still
In its own shade.

In every leaf and every bloom
Trust, it’s the roots
That nurture growth
To touch the sky and back
standing still ….
Rooted to the core…...!!

I'm
Just an
Instrument to write
In the hands of
The master writer to make
You realize what YOU are to
ME  !!
Realize it
And treat me
wise !!

I'm
Not....
What you think me of...

I'm
what..
I'm made up of..

Some asked "define you"

I said...
Aged skin
Weak body
Strong heart
Controlled mind
Powerful will
That reflects in eyes...
That's my grandma !!
And
To define me...
Just the reverse...

The little drops of rain
That drowns down my face plain
Reminds me of your touch
Making me stand still as such.

Monsoon brings memories with a smile
Beautiful thoughts of you and me for a while
Together,  in the wilderness of wood and green,
And the little sounds of flies leading me scream…
 
I’m missing your compassionate look
By which you almost had me took
Yearning for your arrival most soon
By spending my nights looking at moon….

Come on dear, I need you here
And if you don’t have me hear
I may not remain on this earth
May be then...you will realize my worth…

My mind is like the sky
So broad and high
With boundless dreams
To reach high...

My mind is like the sky
At times  it gets clouded
With a thousand worries and thoughts
And to get cleared again
Needs downpour of tears ..

My mind is like the sky
With bright sunshine
Paving my ways so bright and clear
Vanishing all darkness of thoughts..

My mind is like the sky ..
Seems so near to touch and feel
But to too distant to reach and understand ..

My mind is like the sky .....

You are at times the sun
Shining white yet burning like fire
And at other, your are the moon
Glittering like gold and smiling cool...
It's been a miracle for me
To watch you every day
Though miles and miles away
Creating the magic of day
And night in my life !!

When I miss myself
And  my friends ..
A drive to the nearby monkeys' park
Is all that I need!!

A part of me is you
Other part again is you
Feel lost myself in you
And
My heart seen missing from me
Seems beating for you !!

The child in me plays gleefully
Spinning the umbrella as if
In a whimsical way…
As a way to get soaked
in the drops of rain
And fall in the world
of magical display.
that fills my heart with joy
As the rain softly twirls…!!
Sipping a  cup of warmth,
held close in  hand, And
gazing from afar, enchanted and charmed
I wander through the misty wonderland
Created by the dense drops from the sky
And then sneezing all-day
Sending a sigh of fever
But still enjoying it
As monsoon’s gentle touch…..
And then waiting for another drench
A moment
that nothing else can restrain!!.

Morning walk, a stroll with the rising sun,
Beneath the morning sky, wandering as one.
Awakening mind, body, spirit in tune,
Engaging in silent discourse with the breeze at noon.
Listening to chirping birds' melodious song,
Smiling at cheery faces, feeling belong.
Inhaling scents of blooming flowers so sweet,
Joyfully shedding calories, a wholesome feat.
Simple walk brings ample gains,
A word to share, walking brings no pains.
Embrace it daily, a habit to adore,
For sure, it will inspire you to walk more.

My hair dances
To tunes of your breath
My body moves
To the feel of your touch
And it makes me look beautiful
While at the most
Beautiful place  for me
on the earth -  your arms!!

You don't have to **** me dead
To move away from me
For I will already be dead
Before you move away from me!!

Heaps of love
Stored midst my heart
Keenly awaits you my angel
To shower upon you
All the love and care
I had been yearning to give…

You are God’s Gift for me
For the tears I have shed…

Now  

I bow before God
With all humbleness
Holding in my hands the invaluable treasure
He has given me, in your form..
To be blessed with eternal love and peace..

Love You my Angel
Love You my Princess
Love You my Ally!!

Independence....
The most emotional word
Bringing memories of martyrs
Bhagath Singh to Mahatma Gandhi...
The struggle for freedom  to breath
The air of  liberated  great Indian soil
From the colonial imperialism...

The wars waged...blood shed
For a free India
Is a gift of the generation old
To the generation next..
To see  the self dependent India...
Ruled boldly but not rudely ....
In the path of democracy....
With prayers, for non demo of craziness any so...

Wish Long live Indian democracy...

Thank you,  my dad..
For presenting me this beautiful world
And allowing me to inherit
Your qualities and principles, always heard.....
" Stand with truth and stand for truth without any fear"..
Which I dearly and sincerely follow
With a firm promise never to unfollow..!!

You have  given me the identity
And owe it to you for what I'm today
and the person I'm every day..!!
With pride and as protection
I carry your name as a part of mine
Till my Doom's day !!

Plethora of talents plunged in
yet  HUMILITY personified...

Timer,  a need to punch her timely counters
On wits, she hears…  HUMOUR  is an armour !!

Acted as “Indra” in school play , but she’s “Karna’ in disguise  
Plea for a flower , surprise  awaits , With garden of flowers
GENEROSITY is not a mere play !!

Stormy restless minds, Feels at ease and peace
With an ear to her words , A testimony from me, too
She's a SOOTHER by nature !!

Drawing painting singing Instrumental and vocal
All safe in her hands... No doubt she's a Nightingale's  
MULTI SKILLED sister!!

Thick or thin , bestie or not  , Enjoy absolute care and support
Yet. she calls a *****,  a *****… No matter who is who..
FEARLESS in voicing truth !

Chartered accountant in very first strike, a rarity in records
A glowing crown on charming queen
She’s BEAUTY WITH BRAINS!!

A part and parcel of  NCC uniform that marched  Rajpath R-Day parade
Monumental and enviable moment , Yet , devoid of any  enemies
She is sincerely BELOVED!!

Few words of what she is …… And who she is ....
As no hymns she sings on her , yet  misses no chance to praise others
A MOTIVATOR quite always !!

A BOLD GIRL... class lady with elegance and integrity
Standing firm on her views.. … Can bear no other name...
Than ……….HARINI …..!!

( From flash back memories of
Rajini & kavitha)

Life's music plays
sweet and harsh tunes,
with marks of joy
And sorrow interwoven,
Better listen to the rhythm
Within, close to the heart
The beat unbroken and unyielding.
With belief, in self-worth
And the hidden power
To cross the flowing sorrows
And climb the joyful mountain.
With a smile… without doubts.
Whispering to wind…
“My journey has just begun"!!

I have a sister, like my version better
Much more than me  sweeter, brighter
Grew up with all richess like a princess
Elegant charming beautiful to impress !!
Regularized  proposal seeking her hand
To become consort in grand..
Boastful of  having proposed
to the queen of wealth and Beauty, supposed...!!

Married off when she was still a child
To a future unknown she had to hold..
She dreamt of a babies
As loved babies and singing lullabies
Years and years  tearfully waited
Baby boy born as boon, we celebrated!

Her bundle of joy grew as a person
Of wisdom, righteousness and precision
Stood strong and tall so handsome
And a pantomath in wholesome..
Until the day...it happened!

Smoke from fire on trees nearby
Set to clear the land thereby
Drastic pollution it caused
Hazardous to  all beings around
In special to our little prince
Who has not recovered ever since !!

Choking forever and feeling breathless
Starving without food, always restless
He is suffering like hell
At whom can he yell??
Acts of absurdity of some..
Are often a curse to humans!!

I like to
Laugh out loud at even silly comedy
Do small helps unasked to needy
smile to the ones who lack wits
Make friends with innocent kids
Have silly fights with besties
beg to talk again,calling them testies
Compel him to accompany for walk
walk away with friends leaving him back
Stand to get drenched in the rain
And Pull him too to play in the rain
Many a tiny wishes like this
Happy to have fulfilled, writing like this.

The light of my life
The beat of my heart
The  thought of my mind
The  vision of my eyes
The love of my soul
My world...my ONLY world
Gifted by GOD !!
And that's you!!

crawl with my words
As a breast crawl of newborn infant
To taste the nectar a poetry holds
When it blooms as an alluring flower...!!
Then there might be few flaws
But with words no fails and falls  !!

I need you
As my strength
For my health
As my wealth
For my sheath
As my breath
Till my death!!